Why Do I Like You If You Dont Like Me

i’m just a girl hoping someone will fall as in love with me as I am with them.

[theteenquotes]

[thepersonalquotes]

[deepthoughtsvibes-deactivated20]

You meet at daylight when I‘m smiling and pretending to be fine. When I hide my tears and try to act like I‘m having my shit together but you never meet me at midnight, when I’m hopeless and my thoughts are a mess. When I’m drowning in my tears and all wish is that the pain could end.

meet me at midnight

(-deepthoughtsvibes)

[whydoilikeyouifyoudontlikeme]

numb.

[poetic-beats]

Living To Die.

And sometimes I think I’m living this life for it to all come tumbling down. There doesn’t seem to be a reason nor truth in anything that happens. There doesn’t seem to be any control nor help for anything that happens. And sometimes I think I’m living this life for it to all come tumbling down. And sometimes it’s like I’m just sat here counting the clocks til I reach the end. What am I really doing here? Why am I really still alive? I’m just counting numbers. I’m just lifting fingers, to a world that couldn’t care less about me and you. When you find an answer or an ounce of reason. I wanna be the first to know, meanwhile I try and lay low. Work my way through the unending days. Trying to break through the haze that leaves my thoughts ablaze. And sometimes I think I’m living this life for it to all come tumbling down… when no ones around it’ll come tumbling down

[poetic-beats]

“I’m now too numb for anything to hurt me. I’m invincible but only because it hurt so much it made me feel nothing. I’m lost in nothingness but at least here I cannot really feel the sheer amount of pain I am in. Maybe this is my brains way of protecting me, in the only way it knows how. I guess it’s better than nothing, right? I mean at least I’m not drowning in my own sorrow.”

—

[poetic-beats]

“I don’t know if I even want to survive…if i’m totally honest I’m not sure I want to be alive. Think I’d be pretty happy to die…yeah I’d be happy to end it because then this circus would stop. This parade would be over. I wouldn’t have to put up a charade.”

—

[heartofmuse]

"I don't want to live forever, I just want the best moments to live, every second, every hour, every day savored to the fullest extent, every nuance of life treasured in my chest."

e.v.e.

[whydoilikeyouifyoudontlikeme]

I just want you to wrap me up and hold me tight.

-whydoilikeyouifyoudontlikeme

[whydoilikeyouifyoudontlikeme]

You passed away last year

I wish I could say 3 more words to you

And the tears draw near

[booksandcows]

[432hzvibes]

[reboot]

it’s not your body that’s broken..      nor your mind     …it’s the world corrupted at the core.

i played with my fate like a pyromaniac in dire love with volcanoes –

   my burning shadow boiling my blood.  screams of demons echoing in the sweat leaving my body

   thoughts occupied my head, like rioting inmates trapped in a prison of their own creation

exploiting the inability to tolerate the vast emptiness that resides within

   happiness danced like a coquette far in the distance & the sun had mistaken me for a vampire

   hurt by the very thing that moved me to love.  

[poetic-beats]

“4am at christmas but where’s the cheer? It’s no where near.. I’m sitting here, talking to a screen, to those across the globe, but who hears? Shout out to the void, letting go of all I try to avoid, every day shutting it out, til I log on, Spilling it out..words on a page or should I say screen? Maybe that’s for the best they don’t know the rest. Half stories spilled, bits and pieces, fragmented. Broken, Irrepairable…like me I guess? Nothing new…let these thoughts stew, inside but hey its okay right? I’ve made it through another 365 days. I’ll find a million more ways to make it through the next 365 days. Until I cannot go on. Until the burden becomes to much too bear. Just my thoughts all here and there, not making a whole lot of sense. Spilling out I said…spilling out like coffee stains on a page. Never goes only fades. 4am Christmas, this is where I’m at. Well done pat on the back. Made it through another year- how many more I wonder?”

— Erin, Excerpts From A Book I’ll Never Write

[whydoilikeyouifyoudontlikeme]

It’s Christmas and I just feel like crying

-whydoilikeyouifyoudontlikeme

[whydoilikeyouifyoudontlikeme]

we are truly alone in this disastrous world.

-whydoilikeyouifyoudontlikeme

[whydoilikeyouifyoudontlikeme]

Touch me, feel me, see me, love me

[whydoilikeyouifyoudontlikeme]

To me

I love you means

You can’t stand being away from me

But to you it means nothing

You say it like it means nothing

To me

It means everything

And maybe

That’s why this won’t work

But you should know

This is hard

Because I love you too