I.V. Wilde @wildenox - Tumblr Blog

Greetings!

I'm Wilde and this is my art/creativity blog. I draw, I make stories (mostly about my sad aliens), and I compose music. I do a lot of weird loose sci-fi and fantasy, seasoned with a little horror.

My primary focus is my OCs. I do not recommend following me for fan art, as it's extremely rare that I make any at all, and when I do, it's usually a one-off.

I'm very quiet here and my activity is kinda spotty, but I'm around.

Carrd site (about and links)

Personal (reblogs, maybe the occasional thought): @dirgewoods

Mark

#wildeart #eye contact

Plunge

#i wanted to do one of these creepy atmospheric pieces again #they're fun and soothing #wildeart #blood

#sona: dirge #wildeart

Song from the next album I'm working on.

#wildesound #my music

drawing is fun again

#oc: arctos #oc: clara #oc: ligis #sableheart #cw blood #cw eye contact #wildeart

This miserable game has stolen my heart recently, so I doodled a bunch of expies to help me get back into the art groove.

#the new meds are working art is finally becoming fun again #casualties unknown #scav prototype #expie #wildeart #blood

rare personal update and being Nervously Sincere for one moment, but it does relate to the state of my creativity and this tiny space of mine is for my creativity, so here we go:

it's not really much of a secret, but i deal with dysthymia and c-ptsd. and despite the progress i've made, my motivation has been slowly deteriorating over time. it sort of crept up on me, and i reached another breaking point this year (my last breaking point was when i realized i needed to change careers last fall, so i did). this breaking point was the realization that if i don't medicate myself i'm never going to get anything done.

for a while i haven't been able to make a whole lot even when i want to, and the times i've had motivation and energy to do so, it's been in short supply. this is because i simply cannot feel joy or passion most of the time anymore (it's nice when i do though), and i'm tired and full of brain fog constantly. occasionally i've gotten some music, art, or writing done but i used to be able to create WAY MORE than "occasionally". i miss that. and i am tired of this.

so i decided to do something, because this shit is ass. i made an appointment. i waited. i went to the appointment. i managed to get put back on antidepressants and even some anxiety medication, and i just acquired my pills today, so i'm hoping that it'll bring back the passion and drive i used to have. fingers crossed! i can't wait to feel like a person again

#i want to make my fucking PROJECT already. i KNOW i can. i just need help. from my friend Pill.#please let there be a huge boom in art in like 1-2 months or whenever the fuck this stuff is supposed to kick in idr how long it takes #it's the same medication i was on years ago too! which was ok last time. wellbutrin baybee #this job i got last fall has been a blessing because i'm not constantly stressed about making rent anymore and have pto and benefits now #which meant i could finally see a doctor and all that again. i've been catching up on my health this year. i def have some new issues #fixing my life has kinda been a whole damn process. i have taken many steps. and i must take more.#i've been managing all alone for a few years but managing is. surviving. and surviving is not living. i want to live.