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healthy love does hurt . it also heals but it hurts - healthy love is not always healthy and happy . healthy love is there ALWAYS. it never ends .

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speaking life speaking positivity to keep the enemy away . speaking truth .

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should we ever put our complete trust or confidence in another person ? is that dangerous? when your God given partner makes a promise should you believe in them ? are you believing them or God at that point ? we are told to have complete trust - so yes it’s biblical to trust your spouse . love is patient love is kind it is not self seeking it does not boast keeps no record of wrongs always hopes always trusts always preserves always protects love NEVER fails

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is this what makes us.. we give and we give we give until we lose ourselves today im tired Lord more than tired but i trust you . i trust you . I know you want me to give like you help me to be humble help me to be praying for a heart and mind like yours

forgive my daily selfishness

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im suppose to trust you that blindly .

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could this day this week these hours these minutes last any longer ? screaming inside .

God give me contentment over this .

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God gave gives me this longing - it’s a deep feeling I’ve never had I can hardly describe it’s an empty but whole .

We feel each other always but God has taken that from me right now to learn to trust Him . I can barely breathe sometimes . I cannot even put into words the strength of the love we share . I do not feel right now but I know it’s there. I know.

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Notice the things that turn me on are everything YOU ARE !! But are not being .

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Things that kill my sex drive -

Stress

Never being enough

Constant criticism

Feeling overweight

Oversharing with friends

Stress

Weak men

A man I can’t confide in

Over masculinity

Stress

Indecisiveness

Being Flaky

Broken Promises.

Leaving me to be defenseless.

Making me ask for help .

Things that turn me on:

Loves God - which means he’s a man of character- all around .

Someone who is there .

Being touched

Being adored .

Feeling safe .

Complete honesty .

Decisiveness.

Being in Control .

Integrity .

Playfulness .

Sense of Humor.

Nerds.

Intelligence .

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need you here . . with me .

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when you can’t even stand someone but you love them .

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you gave me another reason to be alive but you’re gone you’re not here . this is enough !

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you’re suppose to protect me.

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trying to make someone feel crazy is emotional abuse . these things you are doing whether they are actually happening or not NEED to STOP .

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after the 37 year old man spill i almost took my phone to Verizon- not because i thought it was you but because im annoyed- im ill and frustrated with this . but after i kept hearing the last comment she made in my head trusting God or trusting a man - I thought and prayed for clarity - i am not trusting man - im trusting God . please understand that - please understand i am not doing what i usually would have done - im constantly being told this is a conflict for me and it’s hard. but im here - yes im frustrated- how could i not be ? i need you to hear me say this . God sent you to me .i love you . i feel confident about the decision i made regarding my job. so please stop resubscribing me please . i love YOU your smile and every last part of you . xo

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okay so you want me to be real you should listen because this is a repeat of like 6 probably and yousay you remember everything and seem to remember a lot more than me but i know I’ve said this before - when i met you the last thing i was looking for was a boyfriend a relationship god knows not a marriage i just needed to get laid - which I believe i said specifically asked if people even say that - anyway - when we - when you came out that door i was actually a little stressed because i was so hyped up and felt this immense immediate connection with you and just knew I don’t know what I knew but you didn’t even have the lights on - you came out stumbling I sort of panicked and said God seriously ? you smiled omg so perfectly and said give me a kiss I swear when you kissed me I never wanted anyone else to kiss me again - and I just didn’t care how drunk how rude how whatever you were I wanted to be with you - I can’t even explain this crazy fire ice contrast whatever I have never been the same - I wasn’t close to God but I was getting back to church so I started praying and just went from there - no kidding I’m no wife I’m no house maid okay - but I just started praying and reading and I’ve never wanted to be anything so much. so maybe I’m all screwed up maybe I’m kind of slutty kind of mean kind of a little bit of everything but I just know God gave you to me . That’s it. Maybe I’m afraid of this that’s what I’ve been saying since I met you every single thing in my life has contradicted- I have NEVER wanted to be this and everything tells me not to actually I was here trying not to date trying not to be desperate trying not to be an idiot trying not to fall in love but I did I am - that’s it . So keep doing this prolonged exposure somatic whatever because I’ve never been so stupid and so well and terrible all at the same time and it’s just kind of sick .

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