Dear Oliver,
It’s been a year. A year since I heard you want into a room and call me Rose. A year since you ordered me to do something I didn’t want to do. A year since I stood over your body as you bled out. It’s also been longer than a year since I last seen our daughter. The one you only found out about as you took your last few breaths. I have to say, she’s beautiful. We did good.
I don’t know why I am really writing this to you. There is a lot that has happened since your death. And I guess I owe you a few thank you’s?
White Rabbit, is doing amazing in your absence. Sorry, not sorry? You always disliked Jasper… probably because of his and my connection. Turns out you were an idiot. Jasper has helped me take the White Rabbit even further than you could have dreamed. Between the mafia and Icxna, trafficking these girls have gotten easier. Along with some great press, White Rabbit is no longer the club in the shadows. Seems like everyone likes to explore their sexual freak show once in a while.
Money, Jesus, I have more money than I ever thought possible. So, thank you for not changing your will. Honestly, when the knock came on the flat door… I thought it was gonna be police. I thought the Devil’s would turn on me. Turns out, they are happy you are gone. You know… people don’t like when you go Saw on them and make them harm themselves to please you. I dislike lawyers but, when he told me that I was to inherit everything… well, I wish I had killed you sooner. Maybe I would still have our daughter.
Devil’s Underground, has had no new members. However, we have allowed two people down to see it. The first was Reaper’s boyfriend. I am not sure how he is gonna play out. The boy seems to fucking sensitive but Reaper vouches for him and I trust him. He already knows what happens if his boyfriend talks.
There was a death to one of our members. Nova Knox’s friend took him out. I honestly am impressed and Harrow had it coming. He was clean with his killing, tarped it all out. Once he is off of house arrest, I offered him a way to gain a new heart. The market is always open and I know the butcher will provide. This guy hasn’t seen the underground but I have a feeling he might make a nice addition.
Lastly, I brought someone down. As fucked up as you two tried to leave me, I am trying to be normal. Even seeing someone. He wants to know me despite me being almost positive I know how it will end. However, I have brought him to the underground. He got to see one of the rooms you used to use me in. I even explained it a little. But, the real story of interest is that I let him see the cages. I let him see how we made so much money and how I won my freedom from you. I don’t think he understands it fully, who could really wrap their head around that? But, he hasn’t run.
So much change has happened, a good male in my life but yet here I am writing a ghost. I am even writing this from the manor. This desk that you used to sit at while you left me kneeling beside you. I almost miss it. At least the feeling of giving up control, of accepting what happens. I wasn’t responsible for my actions when you were directing me. It’s almost like missing home. But, you are dead. I killed you. Honestly, I don’t even regret it.
We are better without you. I am better without you.
I hope you are enjoying hell.
Xo,
Wilted Rose




















