eli

20 she,,my diary

[wingedrotten]

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my name is eli (pronounced ellie)

i’m 20!

she/her

junior in college studying zoology

i like to sew

i love animals and hikes/nature walks

i love to read ! (ask me about what book im reading)

5’2

i use “lose it!” to track my cals!

cw: 109lbs, 49kg

i love ceramics

vegetarian

i love video games

stoner and drinker

adhd and asd

[wingedrotten]

waking up covered in bruises is just common at this point

[illegalishpinkbones]

[wingedrotten]

i genuinely wish i didnt have so much hatred for myself. cause im literally attracted to bigger people but here i am starving myself to death MAKE IT MAKE FUCKING SENSE

[wingedrotten]

i wonder if this girl in my class knows all i do is stare at her and wish i was that skinny, im supposed to be taking notes in lecture but im staring at her boney back😍😍

[wingedrotten]

spring break was awful, i forgot my addys at my apartment so i couldn’t take any, and when i was at home i gained😞😞

[wingedrotten]

no, i know im crazy but am i the only one convincing myself i will be able to stop? like i know im lying to myself but im convinced i will stop once i look perfect (ik it wont ever stop don’t burst my bubble)

[wingedrotten]

[wingedrotten]

bc.

[wingedrotten]

imma give up allll my body fat for lent😍😍

[wingedrotten]

i need my back to get more boney now

[wingedrotten]

one thing an EDsheeran person loves is watching someone else do an eating challenge 😍😍😍

[wingedrotten]

i HATE being honest with my calorie counting app

[emptyflamez]

distraction ideas during my fast anyone?

[wingedrotten]

go for a walk or do small light workouts

read a book or listen to an audiobook

watch a movie, start a new tv show, or a documentary

play video games or phone/ipad games

organize and clean your place

journal about your progress and goals

meditate/do deep breathing exercises

call or text friends

listen to music or a podcast

work on a hobby like drawing, knitting, puzzles, painting

take a relaxing bath and do skincare/haircare

plan meals for after your fast to stay on track

learn something new (language, skill,hobby)

stay hydrated with water, tea, or electrolyte drinks

[torobutill]

i wish i had some more self control i fucking hate myself

[wingedrotten]

i wish i had the energy to stave and hate myself more strictly

[wingedrotten]

why am i not losing enough weight 🤔 (i always forget to log the vodka shots i take)

[dec4yingdogteeth]

“ana loves you” NO ANA IS AN UGLY PICKLEY BITCH !!!