You tell me - No strings attached seemed like a good idea up until the point you gained feelings and Joel didn't ... or so you thought
I cant sleep (1) (2)- After settling in at Jackson, Joel broke up with you. You try avoiding him in order to get ahold of your emotions but that all backfires. (part two coming soon)
Eternally Grateful - You're a vampire and on outbreak day you save Joel in the worst moment of his life.
I need you now - After a night out drinking at The Tipsy Bison you have an ache only Joel can solve (coming soon)
Wait until you like me again - You get hurt out on patrol and Joel isn't happy, which leads you to avoid him thinking he hates you (coming soon)
Summary: You're a vampire and on outbreak day you save Joel in the worst moment of his life.
Words: 1.2k
A/N: I had this idea whilst watching vampires diaries. So decided try writing it out and see what it turned out like. Also yes I did spend around 10 minutes pausing the first episode of tlou with subtitles on to get it exactly right.
Warnings: Blood, injury, blood drinking (not in a weird way) angst, happy ending
Being over 400 years old you thought you had seen everything. The good, the bad. You'd seen it all, or at least you thought you had seen it all. It was September 26th 2003 when the world had ended. Everyone you knew was gone. Everyone that you had come across you tried helping but they were all too far gone.The streets were horrifying. The terrified screams piercing your ears. Everything was on fire, people were getting into fights. It was truly terrifying.
Deciding you had enough of witnessing all that was laid out in front of you. You made your way through the streets. In the distance you could see a field deciding you didn't want to be on the main road anymore, you start walking towards it.
Everything in your body felt on fire it felt as if you had been walking for days before finally making it to the field. Stopping you look back at the town. Smoke filled the dark sky. The only light radiating off of the fires that were on most of the building.
As you're making your way through the field you hear gunshots. Pushing your hair behind your ear you focus on listening.
"I'm sorry" you hear a voice say.
"Please don't" a panicked one replies as a second gunshot can be heard.
Without a second thought you rush towards the area you could hear the voices from.
"Oh god" you heard from a third voice.
"No. Oh no. No, no. No. Shh. Ok... You're Ok.You're Ok. Move your hand, baby. Move your hand" the voice you recognise as the panicked one you heard choked out.
Next you could hear a yelp in pain coming from a girl.
"I know baby. I know, I know, I know. I know it hurts. All right. Don't look down. Look up Come on, Baby. You're ok, you're okay. I know, I know, I know, baby, I know, I know. I know this hurts. You're gonna be Ok"
Realising walking was taking to long, hearing how broken this man seemed to be, you decided to vamp speed over to them. The sight truly broke your heart.
A girl with brown curly hair was lying on the floor hyperventilating, you could see and smell the blood coming from her stomach staining her once pink shirt. Her eyes were full of so much panic as the colour was draining from her face.
There was an older guy who you guessed was in his late thirties you could tell this was the panicked voice you were hearing. He was wearing a black T shirt his arms on display.Not that you could see much of them as the girls blood, who you assumed was his daughter, was covering most of his arms and hands. Black jeans that looked like they had seen better days. His face was aesthetically pleasing to look at. He had dark brown hair curls hanging in front of his face.
The third guy was standing slightly above them gun in hand. He had the same colour hair as the first guy, his was slightly longer with more curls. There was blood on his cheek and chest, which you could see from the open shirt he had on. Which revealed a white vest underneath. His brown eyes were locked down at the heartbreaking scene. None of them seemed to have even realised that you were standing there.
"I need you to move now!" You say as you rush towards him. Pushing him out the way, making a note to apologise for that after. You lift her top up exposing the wound, you could tell she didn't have much time left.
Biting into your wrist you manoeuvre your other hand to place behind her head pulling her mouth to your wrist. You hoped you had got here in time to save her as you could tell she was fading fast, from the laboured breathing to her heartbeat getting slower.
"I know you don't know me or trust me right now. I get I probably look like a lunatic but I need you to drink. Please just drink" as you finish speaking you could feel her mouth wrap around your wrist as she started to drink your blood.
You could hear a voice behind you asking what you was doing to his daughter, which you chose to ignore for now and save his daughter. Looking down at her exposed wound you watched as it started to heal itself.
When you were completely sure she was now no longer at deaths door, you removed you wrist from her mouth standing up turning to look at her dad who's face had shock written all over it.
He rushes past you looking at her now non existent wound, before pulling her into an embrace. Letting go,after making sure she was going to be okay, he turns to face you.
"She's going to be okay"
"How... How did you do that. No scratch that what I want to say first is thank you so much. I thought I was about to lose my little girl, you have no idea how much what you just did means to me, I'm eternally grateful" he makes his way towards you and wraps his arms around you bringing you in for a hug.
As soon as he pull away his brown eyes staring straight into yours. A light flickered in them, his hands still on your body sending electric all throughout. Standing this close to him you could see just how beautiful he truly was. You wondered if he felt it too. It felt like you stayed like that forever but realistically it couldn't have been more than a couple of minutes before he pulls away.
"I'm uh Joel, this is Sarah and over there that's Tommy. But seriously how did you do that?"
"I'm a vampire so my blood healed her. I was walking past when I heard everything and I couldn't just stand by and do nothing. I am really sorry for pushing you out the way. She didn't have the time for me to explain to you what I was doing "
"You don't ever apologise for saving her you hear me? There's nothing I could ever do to repay what you've just done for me, but would you like to come with us? We could all stick together "
Agreeing you start explaining all the risk that came with Sarah now having your blood in her system. After that you all start walking not really knowing where you're going.
As you look and stare at the happy family you realise you made the right choice. Finally happy that you were able to save someone.
have you thought about getting someone to proof read your fics? there are a lot of typos and it distracts from the story
I don't really speak to anyone so can't get anyone to proof read I read through them between 3/5 times before posting checking if it needs anything but I am also dyslexic so I am going to miss some. So feel free to message me with the typos and I'll fix them
Summary: After settling in at Jackson, Joel broke up with you. You try avoiding him in order to get ahold of your emotions but that all backfires.
A/N: I had this idea in my head for a while and decided to try write it out and see how it goes. Heads up i'm not the best at writing but i'm hoping to learn as i go. Also yes I did use lexies speech from greys.
Yours and Joels Relationship had always been a bit rocky. Every step forward felt like three steps back. So no, you weren't surprised when he wanted to end it with you saying how he just couldn't hold you back anymore. You of course had tried fighting him on it but, ultimately there was no point because once Joel had made up his mind there was no convincing him otherwise.
You and Joel had been together since Boston so when he did end it you felt like your world had fallen apart. After all that time how could you not have fallen in love with everything about him, from the way he looked at you. The way he spoke to you. How he looked after you and always taking care of you whenever you were injured. To the cuddling on the sofa late at night, him reading his favourite books to you.
It took months for you to rediscover yourself outside of Joel. It took even longer for you to even start to trust anyone like that again.
For months you would just barely survive not really enjoying the days. Yeah sure you would do what was asked of you just never enjoying it, you never felt like that was what you was supposed to do with the rest of your life.Jackson was the dream but it was just as lonely as the rest of the world if you had no one to share it with. Every night you would stroll down the streets watching all the people living their lives happily. It made you jealous, bitter almost. The fire burning deep leaving nothing but a jet black heart in its place.
Shortly after that you decided you wouldn't just mope about anymore you would start living you're live again and try to enjoy it. Refusing to be the girl who let how she felt for a man consume her. So you pushed it down and went on as if nothing happened, as if you and Joel never happened.
Starting with signing up for patrols. Yes you knew there was a chance you'd get paired up with Joel but if you did you wouldn't let that stop you. It wasn't until the following week that they actually put you on for the next Wednesday. You had also decided to take Josh up on his offer, a guy from Jackson who had repeatedly asked you out on a date, it went well and you started seeing each other for a couple of months. It didn't last much longer as you ended it shortly after. Realising no one could start a flicker in you like Joel could.
Going back to patrol was alright it gave you that one distraction you needed to get out of your head. Not having a set partner did make you feel uneasy knowing at some point you'd might get paired up with Joel.
Usually after coming back from patrol you kept to yourself hardly communicating with anyone. Ellie still bothered with you which you appreciated, you were worried after everything you'd lose her aswell. Travelling for months together really makes a bond. So to say you were relieved was an understatement.
Both of you went to The Tipsy Bison for food. It was nice getting out of your head if even for a little bit.
"How come I haven't seen you much recently" Ellie asks whilst taking a bite of her food.
"Oh I've just been really busy these last few months. Sorry Kiddo I'll try not leave it as long next time" You hated lying to her but you knew you couldn't involve her in this, it wasn't fair to Joel, and no matter what happened you just couldn't do that to him.
Ellie wasn't stupid she knew something else had to have happened because, no matter how busy you've been in the past you had always made time for the both of them. Deciding to just leave it be she changes the subject, which you're thankful for.
Jolting awake from yet another nightmare, the happiness you and Joel had taunted you day and night. Rolling over and checking the time you see that you have an hour before you need to leave for patrol. Deciding against going back to sleep you decide the a nice cool shower might help.
Trotting into the bathroom you turn on the shower, waiting until the steam starts to fog up the room. As soon as you feel the scalding water hit your back you release a sigh. It’s moments like this that you convince yourself that you’re fine. Finishing washing yourself you step out of the shower wrapping the lilac towel around you before heading into your room. Picking out your most worn clothes for patrol you get dressed before heading downstairs to make yourself a togo coffee.
You loved walking down the streets of Jackson in the early morning, it was quite peaceful even. The sun was starting to rise leaving the sky an orangey colour. You just wanted to get patrol over with not really wanting to talk or caring about your patrol partner, looking back on it now you wished you checked who it was beforehand.As you reach the gates you see two horses already to go, if you were paying attention you would’ve seen the tan coloured horse with a white spot going up past her eyebrow and down to near her mouth. You would’ve realised who you had been partnered up with but, your eyes were fixed on the gravel instead.
Still not paying attention you walk to your horse stroking its mane as you do so. You felt your stomach drop at the voice who had begun to speak.
“Patrol should be easy we just have to check a couple of the outposts and make sure that it’s still safe” The voice grunted out. That was no strangers voice. That voice alone had been haunting your nightmares.
On alert you get on your horse trying to keep Joel from being able to see your face and recognise who you actually were, deep down you knew you wouldn’t get through the patrol without him realising who you are.
You managed up until the last Outpost without having to speak or even look at Joel. For once grateful that Joel hardly spoke.
"So have you got a name?"
Your mind was running circles thinking of how to get out of answering him. But you couldn't just ignore him this time knowing it was a bad idea you mutter out your name hoping he wouldn't catch it. As soon as you spoke you could feel Joel look at you, his eyes burning into the back of your head. This was what you had been trying to avoid and you stupidly put yourself in the position.
Arriving at the last destination you quickly get of your horse and start checking the outpost for any weak spots. Hoping and praying he would just leave you alone. The footsteps following behind you said otherwise.
"I've been trying to find you to talk to you. I need you to let me explain everything"
"Joel please don't just drop it. I don't want to talk about this or to you let's just do what we've come here to do"
You hear him sigh as he stalks out the room.
As you finish the last room you head back to your horse getting ready to get back to Jackson and away from Joel. All the emotions you had held down for months were creeping back up to the surface.
It was silent the whole walk back only noises came from the trees or the walking of the horses on the gravel. Jackson's gates open as you approach. Two people there already to take your horses back to the barn, you and Joel ending up face to face as you do so. For the first time in months you looked into the big brown eyes that you had fell in love with so many months ago.
"I love you. Oh God, oh my god that just came flying out of my face.I love you. l just I did it again. I love you. I do. I just, I love you. And I have been trying not to say it.
I have been trying so hard to just mash it down and ignore it and not say it and Josh is a great guy he is.
He's gorgeous, and he's younger than you. He doesn't have any trust issues, or pushes me away when he's hurt and he's a great guy and he liked me, you know?He really liked me. But it was never gonna work out, because I love you.
I am so in love with you. You're in me. It's like you're a disease.It's like I am infected by Joel Miller, and I just can't think about anything or anybody and I can't sleep.
I can't breathe. I can't eat and I love you, I love you all the time. Every minute of every day, I love you. God, that feels good to just say that. I feel so much better. I love you." Your mind betrays you and blurts out before you can even try to stop yourself. Joel just stares at you clearly caught by surprise, mouth agape, eyes wide. Before he can reply Tommy approaches you both starting to speak to Joel. Taking that as your opportunity to turn around and bolt home.
But little did you know Joel was staring at you the whole time.
Summary: No strings attached seemed like a good idea up until the point you gained feelings and Joel didn't ... or so you thought
Words: 1.8k
Rating: 18+ mdni
A/N: I wrote this about 6 months ago but it was only like 500 words so i decided to rewrite it and try make it longer. hope you enjoy. Heads up i'm not the best at writing but i'm hoping to learn as i go. Smut underneath the cut
"Joel please more" you moan out. Legs shaking as you feel yet another orgasm coming.
He grabs your hips and lifting you up slightly arching your back against his chest as he drills into you even further.
"Look at my greedy girl such a needy thing you want another one huh" he grunts out as he angles his hips to hit that one spot that makes your toes curl and you see stars.
"Please don't stop" you're practically crying as he pulls out and flips you around. Your head against the pillow as he runs his tip through your slit teasing your clit by tapping it a few times before lining up with your entrance and slamming straight back into you.
"I wanna watch you come undone sweetheart you're so pretty when you do" leaning down as he whispers after placing a kiss on your cheek.
You've been with your fair share of people none of them ever cared about your pleasure always just chasing their own. It wasn't until Joel came into the picture that you even had an orgasm, you never were really one to masturbate as you could never seem to get off on it.
His lips come crashing down on yours as his hand trails down to your clit leaving goosebumps as he does giving you the last piece you need.
You come undone, back arching off the bed, Legs shaking as they clamp around Joel's waist. Hands clawing at his back as you chant his name.
"I love how this pussy feels when she clenches around me like that, I love the noises you make, I love watching you come undone, I love how out of it -fuck- you look, I love .." he stops himself before he says anymore. Just as he finished speaking you feel Joel pulls out and releases with grunt, all the ropes of his cum lands on your sweaty stomach.
But all you could focus on was his words. Was he just about to say he loves you? Thoughts and questions keep swirling around your head as you lay there taking everything in
Just sex no feelings, that's what you had agreed to back in Boston. So there's no way Joel was about to say he loves you. After getting your breath back you grab the tissues that are on his nightstand cleaning yourself off as you start to get dressed. You couldn't stay here you had to leave.
You feel Joel's slender fingers wrap around your wrist, trying to pull you back to him "Thought you could stay for a bit. We could cuddle and have dinner together?
"I can't gotta go" you rush out putting your shoes on as you open the door and leave.
How stupid could you be? You done the one thing you agreed you wouldn't do. You tried your hardest to fight the feelings for Joel but they just grew rapidly. Joel had made it clear so many times, No feelings but you couldn't help it he's Joel how could you not catch feelings?
As you walked away from Joel's house you knew that for your sake you need to avoid him so that the feelings would fade.
You switched your patrols going when Joel came back, of course he tried pulling you to the side to find out why but you had just said you were busy and left. You didn't eat in public, no public outings. He had tried to reach out to you showing up at your door, but you never answered you couldn't so instead you sat in the dark until he left. He would find you in the Tipsy Bison and try to have a conversation with you but again you'd make excuses and leave. Yes maybe some people would consider this harsh but you needed to take the time.
Today was just the same Joel had just finished his patrol as you started getting ready for yours and Liams. You were to check the further outpost and make sure everything was still fine. You felt Joel's eyes on you as you got on your horse but you just couldn't look back at him .
Today was supposed to be a simple patrol or so you thought.The first half of the patrol was easy. Liam didn't talk that much which made it easier, you weren't really in the mood to talk to anyone.
That's why you both had decided to check opposites sides of the perimeter, a really stupid choice thinking back on it now, it's how you ended up with a large wound in your side. it was your fault you knew that. You were in your own bubble, not paying attention to anything bar the damp grass kicking your foot through it every so often.
So it was no shock when the raider crept up behind you and pierced your skin with his knife, without thinking you pulled the knife out and struck it into the raiders neck, over and over till he fell to the floor and your hands and arms were stained with his crimson blood.
Pain. Pain everywhere. All you could feel was the excruciating pain. Everything felt like a blur.
All you could think about was giving in to the darkness that keeps clogging your vision, trying your hardest to shake it off you stand on your wobbly legs. Your goal is to find Liam and try get you both to safety.Retracing you steps back to the dingy hut that you used to camp in, your body felt like it was going numb.
Pins and needles started settling in your side and your legs. After what felt like an eternity, the worn away hut came into view you felt like you could cry when you saw Liam with the horses.
Liam ran up to you helping you get saddled on the midnight grey horse. "Don't tell Joel" was the only thing you managed to choke out. Everything felt like a blur riding back to Jackson was the last thing you remembered before finally letting the darkness creep in
After a while you came back to your senses, you could hear the voices of everyone talking. "She didn't want you to know man she made me promise before she passed out" one of the voices who you assumed was Liam said.
"I don't give a shit you should've come and told me. Not let me find out through the gossip train" Said another voice "Do you know what a kick in the teeth that is? Huh? Having to find out about her by getting asked from someone if she was okay"
You didn't even have to open your eyes to know who the voice was. You could tell he was angry, livid even.
"He was following what I said so don't take it out on him, if you want to take it out on anyone take it out on me" trying to sit up as you spoke alerting everyone that you had regained consciousness.
"I don't give a shit you tell me if you get hurt, hell don't change patrol partners and ignore the shit out of me for weeks. There was no need to do any of that" He was going all red in the face from all the yelling
"Thought you said no feelings so why you acting like this? There's no reason to shout and scare everyone is there " You were being bitter, you knew you were but you couldn't help it. As soon as you saw him all the feelings came straight back almost as if they never left.
You knew it wasn't his fault he was clear from the beginning what he wanted.
"Why the hell are you bringing this up now? You're fucking hurt of course I'm gonna care you don't spend as much time as we have with someone and not care. Is this why you've been avoiding me because you don't think I care?"Joel was so confused as to where this all came from. He had gone over and over your last conversation to figure out what he had done.
But, there was nothing you guys had a nice night before all this had started. "Honestly what have I done because we was fine and then we weren't, I don't understand what changed"
"No its not that, nothing changed I just can't keep doing this Joel I know you said no feelings but I can't help them and their eating me up inside because I can't ignore them I've tried. I just can't." The tears start spilling out, you held it all in for too long.
"I thought i could handle it, handle not getting feelings but i can't"
Joel turns to look at you, shock written all over his face. You try to change how you're sat which causes you to let out a hiss in pain. His rough hands laces with one for yours. Pressing a kiss to your hand before taking one more look at you, then letting go. Your hand falls back on the bed with a thud. You start sobbing feeling all the rejection. Heart breaking at the thought of losing him. Yeah realistically you knew this was how it was going to end he was clear. You're struggling to catch your breath as Joel returns.
"Hey. Hey calm down" He says soothingly as he approaches you carefully taking you in his arm.
"I thought you left" struggling to catch your breath as you speak.
"No silly girl I went to grab you some pain meds"
You finally start to calm down after what feels like hours but was more likely minutes. Joel takes a step back, his brown eyes staring deeply into yours. Placing a hand on your cheek.
"Of course I have feelings for you babygirl. How could I not?"
Joel starts to lean forward his nose bumping yours as he does so. His other hand came up to hold the other side of your face so both hands were cupping your cheeks. His eyes still on yours staring right through you. Your breath hitched in the back of your throat. As you leaned up and into his feather like touch. In a blink of an eye his lips are in yours, kissing you passionately. After what feels like an eternity he pulls away, resting his head ever so gently on yours as if you were made of glass and break if he was too forceful.
"I love you so much I just never want to be what holds you back"
"Joel do me a favour? Stop deciding what's best for me. I'm my own person I know what I want and what I don't want. I want you. 5 years. 10 years. It won't change I'll still want you"
"Sometimes I don't give you enough credit" he whispers as places his lips back on yours. For the first time in years,
