Alina is unable to confront her anti-Grisha bias
So thereās an interesting line I came across while reading Shadow and Bone. At first, it seemed insignificant but for some reason I felt the urge to investigate why it had caught my eye. The line in question is the last line in the passage below. It stuck out to me because I feel it is an example of Alinaās self-centered attitude as well as her lack of awareness regarding the position sheās in.
The Darkling opens by trying to explain, but Alina dismisses his words entirely and accuses him of pretending to care about the greater good of the country. While this is understandable on Alinaās part considering she has received shocking news paired with Bahghraās manipulative framing of the truth, this scene reads as Aleksander trying to reason with a brick wall. Alina says āDonāt pretend this is about Ravkaās welfare. You lied to me.ā But I have to ask: what on earth do those subjects have to do with each other? As if him lying automatically means that he must have been up to something. But the connection Alina makes in this quote demonstrates her tendency to fall back on her prejudice in order to avoid confronting the larger issue.
I believe what Alina means to say is āDonāt lie and pretend this is about Ravkaās welfare, if it were truly about Ravkaās welfare you wouldnāt have had to lie to me for months.ā However, the irony of her statement is that Alina seems to be under the impression that had the Darkling just told her the truth, she wouldāve had a more favourable reaction to the coup. But based on her previous responses to the mere suggestion of treason, it becomes clear that Alina falsely assumes that she is trustworthy enough to handle that kind of information. But she believes that because she still cannot reconcile her anti-Grisha prejudice with her new Grisha identity.
The Darkling puts it very plainly why he couldnāt tell her. The future of Ravka, the future of GRISHA depended on his plan going forward without a hitch. There is so much that could go wrong with the coup, and when theyāre being attacked on all fronts, The Darkling would have to be extremely foolish to risk everything on the feelings of a girl heās only known for a few months. The fact that Alina never reflects on this conversation is so baffling to me, but I imagine the reason for that is because doing so would require her to delve deeper into the plight of Grisha.
Alina cannot take a single second to look outside of herself and consider why the Darkling hesitated to trust her with such a huge secret. She focuses solely on how his deception affected her and makes the issue about her own feelings instead of considering the large-scale implications of what this coup would mean for Grisha.
This passage is one of my favourites, because it really captures the way the Darklingās patience slips away as Alina continues to childishly deny her culpability in this conflict. He calls her out so succinctly in this moment, that she acted recklessly and thoughtlessly because of her underlying fear of her own identity. It only took Baghra a few accusations because it was the excuse Alina had been waiting for since the beginning. Baghra took advantage of Alinaās prejudice and doubt, validating what she had secretly felt all along. That Alina was afraid of her powers, that she believed that the Darkling was evil, that she wasnāt responsible for the future of the country.
For once, we get a glimpse of the true extent of his frustration and hint of resentment towards Alina. Here is a girl who has the kind of influence that could change the fate of Grisha and rescue them from the exploitation and prejudice they are subjected to. A girl who has everything he ever needed to get his plan through the door, yet refuses to move because of her one-sided dependency on some guy and her crippling fear of being an adult. Alina is literally worshipped by the common folk and Grisha alike, she inspires awe and respect in others by virtue of being born a sun summoner and yet she cannot see past her own self interest. She childishly complains that she never had a choice and that it isnāt fair, falling back into a childlike helplessness and oblivious to her immense power. She refuses to take responsibility which is exactly what sends the Darkling over the edge.
While I know that much of Alinaās reaction to the āDarkling Disney twist villain revealā is coloured by her fear and insecurity in her new role, this frustrates me so much because it never culminates in anything meaningful for her character. Itās no coincidence that the Netflix show decided to omit this conversation completely, because it presents a character conflict that actually challenges the viewerās perception of the conflict. The Darkling actually makes a ton of sense in his reasoning and itās so good that they had to remove it to turn him into a cardboard shadow man that could be killed off in a #girlboss #girlpower moment.