hidden in plain sight.

jack winslow. 21. he/him. this is a place for me to yell into the void, and maybe have someone yell back at me. ooc/ 15+ for strong language, other warnings to come.

[winslowsjournal]

so, i assume this is going to be my formal introduction.

my names jack, i’m 21, and i live in a town not too far from bar harbor in maine. i’ve been seeing a shrink on and off since i was young, mostly due to my parents splitting. lately though, i’ve been trying to describe off some weird things. i’ve had night terrors semi frequently since i was 12, but lately... i swear to you i’m seeing these things in my waking hours, too. i used to use my terrors as a source of... morbid inspiration for my old shitty writings i used to do. i wanted to be a writer when i got older. anyway, some of this stuff... it’s fucking scary. i feel like i can’t even talk to my therapist about it, let alone the three people i’ve been friends with for years. so, here i am. talking on the internet about it. at some point i’ll try to get into details about exactly what i’m seeing but. there you are.

jack.

ooc: hey there! this one of four of my slenderverse oc blogs. the other blogs are: @lawrence-riley @wilsons-notebook and @matthewjameson - these are all of jack’s friends!

this blog may contain, but is not limited to: strong language, gore, and general horror related things. please be aware of this. due to the content, i request that people are 15+ to interact with this blog! 

thanks for checking this out! mun uses he/him pronouns, and is 20.

[winslowsjournal]

What happened? - B

everything, and nothing, it seems. i’ve lost track of most stuff as of late.

[winslowsjournal]

i’m out of the hospital. i requested a discharge. i’m a bit better, but not 100%. i don’t want to bother staying somewhere where they aren’t gonna fucking take me seriously.

i finally got a full nights rest last night - riddled with nightmares, but i slept. my perception of time is all fucked up, too. i think i might’ve gotten sleep paralysis last night though. i saw patrick in my room, standing right by the window, watching me.

i hope he’s ok, wherever he is.

[winslowsjournal]

i swear to god, i’m not lying to you, i’m not lying to anyone about this, you act like im fucking insane

[winslowsjournal]

gonna try going to the doctors today. can’t be of much use while i’m… like this.

i can’t tell if i’ve started hallucinating, or, something…. else is at play.

don’t even want to think about it.

[winslowsjournal]

barely able to sleep last night, i couldn’t stop coughing. none of the medicine i’ve been taking has been able to help. absolutely miserable right now

[winslowsjournal]

god. i’ve been so fucking sick lately, i can barely get out of bed. i need to look for patrick and matt, but i genuinely can’t even get myself to shower. i hate this.

[winslowsjournal]

[winslowsjournal]

…damn. well, hey folks. jack here. i uh, i guess it’s been a while. lots been going on.

matt’s gone missing. patrick too. just me and lawrence.

i’ll fill you all in later. i need to get some things done.

[winslowsjournal]

we’ve been staying in alabama for the past few days - i think we’re all pretty fatigued from the more or less constant driving. though, i’m starting to think about heading back to maine. i’m really not sure how much longer i’d like to keep this up, and while it’s fun.... i dunno.

that guy, Tim, he gave me his phone number after he brought us to the motel. maybe i’ll text him and ask if there’s anything to do in the area while we decompress for a bit longer.

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[winslowsjournal]

we’ve been super busy travelling as of late. there hasn’t been much notable happening until now, but we did end up hiking around in the great smoky mountains, which was nice.

we’ve found ourselves in alabama, which is a strange place in its own right. we stumbled across a man named Tim, who seemed pretty cool. he helped us find a motel for the night and gave us some tips for places in the area.

anyway, that’s about it. we’ve been having a blast out on the open road, and it’s great getting to see all these places i’d normally never see.

[winslowsjournal]

WE ARE LEGION, FOR WE ARE MANY.

[winslowsjournal]

we left early this morning - now we’ve taken rest in a red roof inn somewhere in virginia. i’m not entirely sure what our plan is, but we’re thinking about continuing our way south. maybe florida, or maybe even alabama. we’ll see, i suppose. we were going to stop in jersey, but i... it didn’t feel right going back. not after what happened.

matt’s asleep next to me, and pat and law are in the bed next to us. something just doesn’t sit well with me right now. i might just go smoke out on the balcony. it’s not too busy out this way, so it’s a nice night.

we’ll see what comes of this.

[lawrence-riley]

@winslowsjournal Hey dude I don’t think messages are working right now, did you want me to hit the store by the docks to pick up snacks for the trip? I know it’s not til Sunday but you know me, I like to be prepared! Plus I won’t be back down this way since I don’t have work before we go again

[winslowsjournal]

oh yeah, if you want to you can grab some stuff. do you still have that cooler? maybe we can get lunch meat and shit for sandwiches. i certainly don’t want to subsist off of fast food, as much as i say i could.

[winslowsjournal]

Jack Winslow. Hello again. You have been ever so quiet since we have last spoken. Tell us, Jack, what do you think of the huntress? Our traitor? Do you know what's wrong with her? The reason she has been oh so quiet? It's fun to be back.

We have forgotten all that she knew, the way she moves, but we are not alone. Someone intrudes, and they are adamant not to leave. Looks like she picked up... A few more bad habits along the way to us. Oh well. You're just one of them. What do you say, we give you a visit? Discuss some things? -SH

lmao no! don’t come visit! things are going fucking fine i don’t need you to come fuck this up, i’m genuinely doing ok for once and i don’t need your bullshit! i don’t even know who you are or what’s going on, quite frankly i’d rather just stay out of this! i don’t intend on getting involved with your bullshit thanks very much

[the-bluebell-of-bad-luck]

Oh, but Jack, you know full well who we are, as we are everything and nothing at the same time. We are neither a threat or your enemy, even if you allied with the traitor huntress, we forgive you.

I do wonder how she knows of you, and if she has visited you before. She's keeping those memories locked by hand, standing guard, waiting for us to leave. But let us tell you a secret, we won't leave this time around. She's ours, and no one elses.

[winslowsjournal]

god fucking dammit- yknow, why get me involved?? there’s so much i don’t know! i barely know anything about what’s going on with me and my friends, let alone blue! her shit is so much more complicated than mine i can’t even think about it before getting a headache.

and YOU? it’s funny to even assume i have the SLIGHTEST idea what’s going on with you, or that HABIT fucker, he was trying to tell me i knew something important and i had to tell him! i don’t know jack shit! do you REALLY think i’m a pertinent part to this story? as far as i’m concerned, i’ve barely read page one of all this and i’ve got a whole series to catch up on. there’s no use in trying to... do whatever the fuck you’re planning on trying to do with me. i have no part in this. i WANT no part in this.

[the-bluebell-of-bad-luck]

Oh, but Jack... You have to understand, you've been a player for far longer than you realize. You are a target. You are a player in the endless stream of games, games that either end in death by someones hand, or death by your own hands. There is no winning here.

Her troubles, Blue's, is none of your business, but we are interested in you, your motives, your little friends. What do you say, we talk to them? Pull a few strings? Cut a few hearts? What do you say?

[winslowsjournal]

ha, yeah, no, don’t. what the fuck do you even want? the only fucking motive i have is to live a normal life and, i don’t know, maybe make it to my 30s. don’t fucking mess with my friends, they’re not involved with my shit. they don’t deserve to be dragged into my own mess, whatever it may be.

what do you want from me? i have literally nothing to offer.

[the-bluebell-of-bad-luck]

You are what we want, Jack. Wouldn't it be a simple shame to put such a pretty little project under the ground? You're something new, someone we could use in our family. Everyone agrees. You'd be a great little addition, and we can grant you thinks, you know? Projection, secrecy, a warm bed and big family. We can offer you magic, school, money. Whatever you want, it'll be yours. Just accept our offer, and you will have everything you want and need for the rest of your life. What do you say, Jack?

[winslowsjournal]

you think i can just trust any weird ass group? no, fuck no! i didn’t even want any of this in the first place. i didn’t ASK for this shit to happen, and there’s no way in HELL that i’m gonna fucking willingly accept some bullshit offer like that. i’m not someone you can bribe, either.

[the-bluebell-of-bad-luck]

Everyone has a breaking point, Jack. I guess yours doesn't end at Blue's life. Say goodbye to her, then :)

[winslowsjournal]

she’ll come back. one way or another, i know she will. i fucking hate everything that has to do with... whatever the fuck she says she is, whatever supernatural bullshit it is. but if it’s true, which most things have, regretfully, been proving to be, she’ll be back.

i may not know a lot, and i’m banking on a lot here, but i do know one thing.

she’s a fighter.

[winslowsjournal]

Jack Winslow. Hello again. You have been ever so quiet since we have last spoken. Tell us, Jack, what do you think of the huntress? Our traitor? Do you know what's wrong with her? The reason she has been oh so quiet? It's fun to be back.

We have forgotten all that she knew, the way she moves, but we are not alone. Someone intrudes, and they are adamant not to leave. Looks like she picked up... A few more bad habits along the way to us. Oh well. You're just one of them. What do you say, we give you a visit? Discuss some things? -SH

lmao no! don’t come visit! things are going fucking fine i don’t need you to come fuck this up, i’m genuinely doing ok for once and i don’t need your bullshit! i don’t even know who you are or what’s going on, quite frankly i’d rather just stay out of this! i don’t intend on getting involved with your bullshit thanks very much

[the-bluebell-of-bad-luck]

Oh, but Jack, you know full well who we are, as we are everything and nothing at the same time. We are neither a threat or your enemy, even if you allied with the traitor huntress, we forgive you.

I do wonder how she knows of you, and if she has visited you before. She's keeping those memories locked by hand, standing guard, waiting for us to leave. But let us tell you a secret, we won't leave this time around. She's ours, and no one elses.

[winslowsjournal]

god fucking dammit- yknow, why get me involved?? there’s so much i don’t know! i barely know anything about what’s going on with me and my friends, let alone blue! her shit is so much more complicated than mine i can’t even think about it before getting a headache.

and YOU? it’s funny to even assume i have the SLIGHTEST idea what’s going on with you, or that HABIT fucker, he was trying to tell me i knew something important and i had to tell him! i don’t know jack shit! do you REALLY think i’m a pertinent part to this story? as far as i’m concerned, i’ve barely read page one of all this and i’ve got a whole series to catch up on. there’s no use in trying to... do whatever the fuck you’re planning on trying to do with me. i have no part in this. i WANT no part in this.

[the-bluebell-of-bad-luck]

Oh, but Jack... You have to understand, you've been a player for far longer than you realize. You are a target. You are a player in the endless stream of games, games that either end in death by someones hand, or death by your own hands. There is no winning here.

Her troubles, Blue's, is none of your business, but we are interested in you, your motives, your little friends. What do you say, we talk to them? Pull a few strings? Cut a few hearts? What do you say?

[winslowsjournal]

ha, yeah, no, don’t. what the fuck do you even want? the only fucking motive i have is to live a normal life and, i don’t know, maybe make it to my 30s. don’t fucking mess with my friends, they’re not involved with my shit. they don’t deserve to be dragged into my own mess, whatever it may be.

what do you want from me? i have literally nothing to offer.

[the-bluebell-of-bad-luck]

You are what we want, Jack. Wouldn't it be a simple shame to put such a pretty little project under the ground? You're something new, someone we could use in our family. Everyone agrees. You'd be a great little addition, and we can grant you thinks, you know? Projection, secrecy, a warm bed and big family. We can offer you magic, school, money. Whatever you want, it'll be yours. Just accept our offer, and you will have everything you want and need for the rest of your life. What do you say, Jack?

[winslowsjournal]

you think i can just trust any weird ass group? no, fuck no! i didn’t even want any of this in the first place. i didn’t ASK for this shit to happen, and there’s no way in HELL that i’m gonna fucking willingly accept some bullshit offer like that. i’m not someone you can bribe, either.