I never come on here anymore just when I need to vent into the void. Idk I just feel so horribly depressed all the time. I feel completely trapped once again and its from these shitty choices I keep making. Once again I'm tied to a relationship where I'm emotionally abused and I'm wondering how I ended up here again. Once again I have no where to go. Its like my life is in a cycle. I'm tired of apologies and momentary kindness. I'm tired of this fake shit. All I ever want is something real yet I end up back where I told myself I'd never be again. I don't want to be here anymore I say I want to leave and I mean it I hate all of this. He acts like I'm hurting him when I say I want to leave but its all so fake. Neither of us are in love. Not anymore. But its not my fault I tried and tried and he stopped. And he lies and says he'll try but its all bullshit and I know it but I pretend I believe him and I pretend I'm not fucking miserible everyday of my life.

















