just tapping in again to update that I am alive~ a lot just happened on my personal life, and it's just january lol
I honestly have a pac lined up but ~a lot~ got in the way and my energy didn't match up, so it was best not to let others down with my low vibration :c (also got sick, somatic symptoms also occurred) I will tune in again when I feel better and in a better headspace.
hope y'all are doing well! ♡
Before the year ends, let’s wrap it up with a reading on what you would be leaving behind this year? Typing this down and publishing it took me a while as I am tapping into my energy if I’m okay or not tho hope this somehow vibe with y’all! Thank you so much on the last post!!;;
decks used: rider-waite tarot (traditional), spellcasting oracle, magick of you oracle
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pls do take note, choose a pile carefully! you may be drawn to more than one pile, breathe in, take your time, and tap into your intuition. do pick what mostly draws you in!
these messages and the context of my readings are from intuition and practice. this is a general reading as well, so do take what only resonates. sending love ♡
feel free to give feedback as it’s very much appreciated!
You’re mostly working in yourself. Putting yourself together and setting aside the effort on building with the right pieces that fit on that your work and for your growth.
Although your energy at most is kinda heavy, you may be going through something devastating or have inner battles you may not be openly sharing that you’re left tired to the drain. Rockbottom is the word. Though, this breakdown turns into a breakthrough.
Have you ever had that type of crying session, or even when there are no tears involved... You’ve just vented it all out, sorted out all your shiz, and just done with everything. After that staring into nothingness… you “feel” that numbness and overwhelmed blank feeling. You are the void itself.
But those who have gone through plenty of battles are those who know a lot of learning. This would be such a rollercoaster experience.
Though, this might turn you a bit timid after, as this may be a new slate for you to work on. But that’s okay! It would be rendered into new emotions and revelations would be harvested to handle this. Progress has been working for a long time already. This is part of the needed process of your growth. You’re set to move forward to change, and for the better. Cards are also saying to connect with your divine feminine energy or maybe a maternal or nurturing figure might help you out.
I can see this involves mostly yourself, or you may have been spreading yourself too thin. You’re doing too much of what you can give, Pile 1. Sadly, all the efforts you receive back are not equal to the effort you have exerted, as I have confirmed with the card: Maximus: “How can you feed others when your own table is empty?” – you are drained af. I also pulled this twice even after reshuffling. It is time to focus on yourself and take back your control. You may be putting up with your role too much— think about your needs. And you do seem to know that it’s time for taking care of your own now! It is time for your own flourishing. You cannot fully bloom if you do not till your own land with its needed nourishment.
Set your boundaries; “Free yourself” as said in the Liberation card. Some people may not have their best intentions in you, and you’re letting them have free access to more than what's needed with your private/intimate energy. Protect and cultivate your own space. It’s time to let go of those no longer serving their presence to your own growth. It would benefit you more than you’ll ever know.
Things that may help with your clarity may hit home, or you have your home close to your heart. A truth may be revealing itself before this year ends, or you might already know the answer Pile 1. Though you may be having a hard time facing the truth, as it is never truly easy to come to terms with something that might cause you pain. This message that came to mind was “from the crying, there would be realization”. You may be going through a rough closure or falling out with some relationships once you set your goal for your growth. People’s intentions may be clearer once you set boundaries (and it doesn’t benefit them pft). It would be a chance for you to have more clarity on your part. Travel may also be an option but mostly, it is time for yourself. Bit by bit you can eye the pieces that make sense, and eventually, everything will fall into place.
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cards: 10 of Swords, Page of Cups, The Chariot, Queen of Wands, Travel, Truth, Home, Closure, Clarity, Maximus, Liberation
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key words: sagittarius, fire signs, cancer, water signs, rockbottom, growth, self, boundaries, growth, detox/declutter
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A decision would be cleared out, or a choice would be made after a long time that you have been contemplating it. Decisions and thoughts seem to be all over the place; cluttered. It doesn’t solely involve you Pile 2, there seems to be another party involved. This is a partner decision thing, a committed one. This seems to be love-centric or love-related, and I was called to pull more cards for clarification. Add to that, there seems to be another party involved as to why there's a cause of delay in the decision-making— not necessarily a third-party situation, but outside sources disrupting the energy. It may be family, financial, work, schedule, or a friend group that may be making you hesitant to choose or do that certain decision in mind.
There also seems to be a change in yourself (or your partner or those close to you) with the way that emotions or reactions would be handled in terms of commitment, even life factors. Doors are open that maybe this decision would push you to change, I can see assertion or softness. Either way, it would be changing intimacy in ways you wouldn’t even expect that: “huh, I don’t expect to see them that way, but I like it!” They may turn softer or clingy, or this decision may let you see another side of them handling taxes for example… Just giving you possible scenarios!
Though with the Hex card... (I am not making this up OMG, I also pulled this twice!!) It seems to be what you’re going through is a bit too much on your end. You’re already maxed out. It is time to let time flow its course. Even with the Empress reversed, you seem to be very drained regarding taking the nurturing role to others. Not necessarily you have to be female, but damn you’re really tested for this year. And you’re ready to let go of all that negativity of caring too much. How about your needs? You seem to be trampled over in terms of boundaries. You are so done.
“Be still and allow the enemy to reveal themselves”, there seems to be something getting in your way, but don’t let it get into you. You are the bigger person. Guard your heart. Resist succumbing to their low energy. You are a person who cannot be torn down easily, just walk away with grace. Use your energy instead of focusing on what's needed to be done. Turn to your loving energy to accompany people important to you, they are more worth it. Have “compassion for others”, and be reflective on all the challenges you face.
Your trust would truly be tested on this one, your perspective may shift, or by the year ends you already did see how the picture changed for you Pile 2! Though, it is also a reminder to be wary of who you put your trust in as well. Important to keep your ground and know to stand strong on who you are as a person. The previous discomfort may have taken a toll on you, so it is time for healing. You deserve it after a tiring situation for you.
You are also advised to travel or explore more on what you can do, and test the limits of what you can do. Or make use of your time to spend on things you enjoy and that would benefit your well-being. Try eating at that restaurant you’ve been eyeing for a while now. Tag your loved ones along it if that’s how you like spending your weekend. Been interested in crochet for a while? Why don’t you try, you may never know you’ll be good at it unless you dip yourself into it. We are often blinded by many options at hand, but once we do choose a decision. More often than not, little steps help us progress. If you do end up regretting it, at least you can pick yourself up again as you are surrounded by supportive energy. You alone are a loving energy to have around.
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cards: Queen of Pentacles, King of Pentacles, 3 of Wands, Empress Rx, King of Cups, 7 of Cups, Trust, Healing, Travel, Hex, Ubuntu
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key words: capricorn, earth signs, venusian, relationships, long-term plans, planning, decisions, hold your ground, guard your heart
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You may be letting go of vanity or caring about your looks– you’re finally getting to that point where you’re tired of what other people think of you. You are no longer caring about how others view you, and you’re just going to go about how you want things to be. Head on, I feel a fiery energy or an all-out surge of emotions for this year. You're done for 2022, Pile 3.
You might have been in this internal struggle or going through a dispute about being underappreciated. Even I am overwhelmed with this pile. May this be lacking boundaries, or questioning your worth due to outside opinions. It is fine to listen to criticism but maybe you’re taking in too much and have gone digging a hole that it’s just too much. This has been a rough year for you to say the least.
You really want to take a step back as you want to reevaluate how you approach self-care, as methods before don’t seem to soothe you. Though, something temporary that can act like a bandage (a nice cup of your favorite drink, a hearty meal, or a face mask) can be a helpful patch to soothe that scratch. Though it is advised not to splurge for just instant comfort. And in these little ways that you acknowledge yourself, it may already be something big that you are proud of that adds as progress for your self-image and growth. This may be an ongoing internal struggle (or an inner victory even) that you don’t normally share outwardly as it’s not something you’re comfortable talking about. Trust seems to always be an important thing for you, but that had been tainted to you at some point this year.
“Be still and listen to the spirits”; It may also be time to tune in to your spirituality, look within and also acknowledge parts that you may not be that proud of. But do know that is still part of you, and you may just need a few re-adjustments on how you can improve and put your energy to a different use. Allow things to pass through and merge into something new; whether it be good or bad, it is part of the process.
Open your mind, maybe even talking it out with people can create connections. You can have more patience with yourself once you also realize the relatedness with others. Compassion for others can also seep through self-compassion. You can gain new perspectives and knowledge from them. If not, at least some weight is lifted off you. “Everything in perfect balance”— with all the negativity you may be feeling, you also need something to balance out all the distress you may be feeling, and through your reevaluation that you may be realizing what may work better for you. How you view the world and how you could handle yourself better.
You may need to take a look at your progress from another perspective or see it in the full picture. You are advised to literally let go of what’s cluttering your space as means of peace. Purge out on people you know that no longer adds to your peace of mind. It is time to spread your wings and take back your control. You radiate light and bright energy in your own ways that influence people’s energy, Pile 3. And that confidence is what you want to bring back into your life as well. It can benefit your skills and how you view your worth. You have your own way of doing things, and it seems so full of passion as it seeps through your actions. Once you do know that taking your time to rest and reconstructing your view sets you back to your authentic self... Doors would be opening for you and things would be clearer for you. Take it slow. By then you can flourish with a fresh perspective.
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cards: Judgment Rx, 4 of Pentacles, 4 of Wands, 5 of Wands, 2 of Wands, The Fool Rx, Confidence, Trust, Passion, Prosperity, Eunoia, Ubuntu, Phenomenon
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key words: air energy, fire energy, venus, purging, self-care, compassion, slowly but surely, trust the process
I didn't expect my first post to blow up ♡⸜(˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝ I also appreciate the responses on my pac since it's also my first time doing it! expect more readings to come, I randomly have inspiration or "callings" to do these... (also belated christmas/holidays!!) hoping for a fun year ahead to all! ~ ⋆｡°✩
Sending love 𓆩♡𓆪
ﾟ｡ What type of comfort does your soulmate get from you? ⋆｡⊹
I was about to call it a day (with my sleep deprived and messed up body clock), but I'm suddenly called upon to make this PAC. This is actually my first time doing a PAC reading, but I have been wanting to try this for the longest!
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pls do take note, choose a pile carefully! you may be drawn to more than one pile, so one may be your energy, and the other may be your future partner/lover/soulmate. do pick what mostly draws you in!
these messages and the context of my readings are from intuition and practice. this is a general reading as well, so do take what only resonates. sending love ♡
feel free to give feedback as it’s very much appreciated!
"You're my rest after a long day." Those words come to mind as your person looks at you with a release of a long breath of tiredness. You seem to be their sense of relief; your presence alone can ease their worries. Even after a long exhausting day, you can wash away their raging thoughts with your calming, gentle eyes.
“I can trust my guts and intuition with you.” They feel calm around you. Even if it's not something to be proud of, or be celebrated over drinks, they can tell you those thoughts in their mind with ease. Their words can be sharp and not quite discerning. It happens. They are tired and frustrated. Sense of judgment gets clouded up by exhaustion. But they are with you, so it’s fine. You are understanding. They can easily open up even with their innermost thoughts.
“Even if it's something negative that's letting me down, or something unfair and a disproportional situation that's making me sad, you’re there to lend an open ear.”
They might have been through rough things or unfair stuff in their life, and you seem to have been there to comfort them on that aspect. You seem to be very close or have an intimate bond with this soulmate. They might have been your best friend (they’re the best type if ever you’d also go the romantic route) or you’re the type to go through “the best friends to lovers trope”. I am reading that type of energy on this pile.
“I know you listen and won't bat an eye.” There is no judgment as to why they are an open book to you. If it's time to be serious, they’re the type to be quiet and you both master this energy together. You and your soulmate have a good synergy.
Even if life is full of uncertainty, at least they can forget for a while and focus instead on your time together. Nothing else matters as they enjoy their time spent with you. Whenever you're around, they’re at peace.
“In your presence, I am open. I am whole.”
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cards: The High Priestess, 3 of Cups Rx, The Moon, Justice Rx
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key words: taurus or virgo vibes, dinnertime, too tired to have dinner, worn-out socks, that feeling of exhaustion seeping out or letting steam out of your body when you take off your shoes/clothes, couch, movie that you don’t need to bring much attention onto, chill movie, television noise as background, leaning onto shoulder.
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“I feel hopeless, I'm probably not pretty or set to the standards…” Coming off sad here from the beginning, your soulmate may be feeling inadequate. Based on the standards or what’s needed for society. They don’t feel enough or maybe feel lacking. Everything seemed so unfair and society's views and they are tired as hell of this type of self-doubt. Though with you, Pile 2, you are not the type to care about those things. You don't seem to care about the superficial. You’re who's likely to have that “F-ck it!” energy, which they admire a lot from you. You always seem to radiate that energy that you walk at your own pace, and you’re rocking the hell out of it. I think the way of passion seeps through how I write this, holy– it is obvious how very fire energy you are Pile 2 (If I’m wrong then, sorry xD). I also sense Venusian energy leaning for you.
With their way of openness, there is plain honesty as you also provide no sugarcoating towards your partner. There’s no judgment with you towards them at all. You may even have a soft spot for this person. You bring out their courage and straightforwardness. They know everything you say makes sense and has meaning; it brings value to theirs as you are critical in your views. You are the type of person they can rely on especially on these things. You like pretty things and you know that you deserve the best, and only the best. So they better believe you! That they're great, that they are the most amazing-est person in the world!
You pamper yourself and know self-care the most. It may be also because you have been often treated poorly in the past, or lack that good treatment. As to why you’re bringing that into your life more. It may also appear to the point that it can be seen as “vain” to others. Though you have pure intentions, you don’t leave out focus on the people you value. You are giving that same energy to your partner and you put them your priority. That makes them depend on you in ways as well, as you make them realize a different perspective through your personal input. Or this way, they relate to you so much that, “oh, it's not just me. I was making sense, I'm not being sensitive!”
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cards: The Star Rx, Justice Rx, 5 of Swords, The World
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key words: for some reason the feature of cat-eye, something glossy came in mind, puffy dresses, soft peachy filter (the type that has an airy blush-y effect), silk/velvet fabric, scones/pastries, safety pin, sunlit room, fire energy, venusian energy; sagittarius, capricorn, at most… alluring
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“Let’s take a breather.” Whenever unreasonable matters occur, you are the first one that comes to mind and who they run to to talk about these things. These can also come as an unwanted situation. As for some things, it can be a hassle and quite petty for them to talk about. It can also result in a lost opportunity. But it seems natural to just be their raw and true self around you. Y'kno?– Of course, you’ll know, as they are the type who show how much they value you, even bringing on efforts in the littlest ways. It is also their way to make up on things, or simply just to show their love for you. They exude a ball of sunshine vibes.
Going back, as to why it can be quite… concerning seeing them solemn and how noticeable their eyes sink with exhaustion. Though they just stay quiet and still put their considerate demeanor towards you. During these moments you may feel them lean towards you a bit, their eyes soft as they look up at you. “Hmmm?” You can feel their weight by your shoulder– they are the type to be clingy, this isn’t anything new about how they’re acting. But there is just something when they’re asking for comfort from you. Like your presence is enough to ease them, but there’s just something else. This can be their way to initiate talking about something that makes them sulk, which can be traced on their face. And when you do talk it out. Your insight may not be what they wanted, but what they didn’t know they needed to hear.
You let them in your perspective or share other possibilities. Your words can introduce them to new emotions. Your stance on the situation will make them open their eyes in ways that they do not accept it at hand– not something they first thought of or view that way. But it makes total sense. You exude kindness with balance on discernment. With you, emotions seem to flow out smoothly like water, as to why maybe they feel oh so comfortable with you. You're the type of person that can make them reevaluate things and put their place into a new perspective.
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cards: The Justice Rx, Ace of Pentacles Rx, Ace of Cups, 2 of Pentacles
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key words: dewy, meadow, fresh air, ducks, cardigan, citrus, a stroll in the park, nature, caramel, bland jokes, laughter, water, arm on waist, flowers; preferably carnations. anything soft yellow, golden retriever, tall, taurus/airy energy
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“I want you close to me.” As if your proximity isn’t hairs thin already, this is quite of the more… wilder type of pile. Also unexpected at most as I originally planned 3, but universe and spirit knocked me down and whispered loudly, if I may add: “don’t forget the raw energy!” This is more of a mature pile but I am keeping it appropriate, no worries!
Starting strong here as they let loose with you, they may not be their most composed self as they are extra vulnerable when a situation calls for it. Sensual was the word. And showing it in rough ways that they know can be direct to show their passion. Your person is quite well-put together and often sharp and composed. But tiredness and frustration can also do lots for a person. They are tired out or when they are erratic in thoughts, it’s the time that they need comfort the most. And your presence can calm them down (for the most part). They are the type to be self-aware though, so I can see that they are not at all violent. Aggressive? Indubitably, but in proper ways (If you know what I mean wink). This can also mean in terms of their words, they are quite sharp and precise in what they know. This is also what they are feeling, what they want and need. But mostly this pile involves the body. I’ll leave you to it!
This isn't anything new really, this is a familiar routine. You can be both night owls. Maybe coffee is a staple in your household (if you’re living in together). If not, it’s usually what happens when you're both exhausted and yet need to stay up. So you and your partner accompany each other and oftentimes these lead to deep or late-night talks.
The way of expression on asking for comfort (and neediness, ooft) can be, for the lack of a better word, nasty, where it will be filled with desires; anything stimulating— just to get pleasure out of it. This could be in topics, or with your same interest. Staying out to watch something, or to be there while the other person finishes what they need to work on for the hell of it.
After the deed is done (as supposed on the overall energy of this pile)... Even if it doesn’t fulfill or satiate the feeling (mostly to their side)... Even if it doesn't contribute to “doneness” on the supposed matter at hand on why your person asked for comfort in the first place… in some ways, it is still relief from stress or anything that's been weighing them down. Again with self-awareness, mostly they’re the let bygones be bygones. But you make them soft in a way that venting out isn’t that bad after all. In other ways, being with you is a relief enough for them.
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cards: King of Swords Rx, The Fool Rx, The Devil, 9 of Cups Rx
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