Waiting on a Rainbow

I probably followed or liked for my side blog @falldoll or @honey-borderline | 21 years old. Married. 👼January 2019. 👼March 2019. 🌈August 2020. To read my story search "My Story" in the tags.

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My perfect little rainbow was born on 31 August via c-section. There were no complications and she is 100% healthy! 💕

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12 August 2020 - 35 Weeks + 4 Days

I haven't updated in a really long time, but babygirl has stayed really strong. We're right here at the very end, so close to delivery. It doesn't even feel real that she'll be in our arms soon.

I schedule my c-section on Friday. Hopefully she'll be born on the 31st of August, but I have a feeling it'll be more like the 7th of September. Pray for both of us. 💗🌈

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28 April 2020 - 20 weeks 3 days

So far in my pregnancy everything has gone perfectly. Babygirl has been healthy and growing on track. I've been healthy. Everything seems to be lining up so that Rori will be able to be held in our arms.

Every two weeks I've been seeing my high risk doctor to keep track of the baby and how she's growing. Yesterday I saw my regular OB for the first time in like two months. My blood pressure was high, but I was also very anxious. They're testing me for preeclampsia with both blood work and a 24 urine collection. If this is the worst thing that I encounter, then I'd say this is a good pregnancy.

Please pray that my little girl stays strong. 💗

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Part 2 of my last post.

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8 April 2020

Last night at about 8:30pm (20:30) I went to the ER (after seeing my primary at around 1:30pm (13:30))because it was so painful to swallow, I could hardly drink let alone eat. It brought me to tears each time I had to.

I'd been hoping to avoid any kind of doctors offices/hospitals, but managed to land myself in two yesterday.

The ER was almost vacant save for a few patients with leg pain and one girl with a rash triggered by an allergic reaction. I was immediately checked in, triaged, and given a room. All the staff was super great.

Usually an ER trip for me last about 4-6 hours and I see a nurse and a doctor maybe 2-3 times. This is just when I'm being screened for a UTI that I already know I have. (I get them about once a month and all the nurses recognize me by now. I hate that.)

Last night I went to the ER and was there until about 2:45am this morning. I was constantly seen by nurses and a doctor. Every 10-15 minutes someone was coming to check in on me. I didn't feel like I'd been forgotten even once last night.

Probably time I should mention I was there for Tonsilitis/Throat Abcess. I'd already been told earlier that I had tonsillitis and came up negative on a rapid strep test. Little did I know they also had me down for tachycardia.

They immediately checked my babygirl's heart tones and were immediately able to find a strong heartbeat. Then they did another strep test, negative again. Started me on fluids. Nurse didn't get the vien right though, so it was an agonizingly slow drip. (My veins are awful and very tricky.) About a fifth of the way through another nurse came through and switched the IV to my other arm where she immediately got a vein. The bag drained very quickly from there.

The doc had come in by this point and asked how I was doing. She assessed me and learned of all my risks, which made it very difficult to treat me.

Between my first bag of fluids being done and my second one starting, she decided to try something to coat my throat. This didn't help at all. I tried to tell her that it felt like an abcess actually IN my throat, not just my throat on the surface that hurt. Plus it felt like I was swallowing around it.

So I got my second IV started. Docs gave me tylenol (which I'd been taking already that day, to no help at all) and a steroid. After that my nurse brought me lidocaine to completely numb my throat. While it still hurt to swallow pretty bad, the surface pain was gone and it no long brought me to tears to talk.

So I finished the second bag of fluids and then had to wait for my heart rate to come down before they would release me. I'm terrified of ERs/Docs, but having throat issues just scared me more.

So, the entire time, not one nurse/doc was able to see the abcess and I had four or five people looking at my throat. I even told them exactly where to look. Today I looked and can see it clear as day. My throat does feel somewhat better though. Plus my mom says it looks like it popped, though it still looks dreadful. 🙃

Long story short, my throat hurts, but it's manageable today thanks to a great ER visit.

Now if this abcess will just clear up.

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2 April 2020

I had my anatomy scan today. Baby is doing great and perfectly on track! We found out we're having a babygirl!

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John 14 : 12-14

Lord, hear our prayers right now.

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If you've lost a child through miscarriage, stillbirth, or infant loss please reblog this

I’m looking for more angel parents to follow blogs of

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I lost both of my first two to early miscarriage. Now I'm pregnant with my rainbow.

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Please do not

open your mouth about miscarriage if you don’t know anything about it.

It is not “just like a period”.

It is not something that “you can just try again”.

It is physical AND emotional pain.

It is a fluctuation in hormones.

It is waiting. 

It is your body expelling something that should have a life and future.

It is possibly having to take medication to open your cervix so that your body will start the “natural process”.

It is seeing your future physically fall out of you, or a hospital room because your body couldn’t correctly do the job and now the doctor will do it for you.

It is bleeding for days/weeks on end.

It is depression.

It is worrying about infection.

It is trauma.

It is waiting to be allowed to be intimate with your partner again.

It is never wanting to to be intimate again.

It is blood draws and HCG level testing.

It is a follow up gynecological appointment, and physical exam from a stranger when you don’t want anyone near that fragile part of your body.

It is possibly another ultrasound… of your now empty belly.

It is possibly the need for surgery.

It is crying on the bathroom floor feeling like your body failed you.

It is months of waiting for your cycle to regulate so you can “just try again”.

It is never forgetting the excitement, the waiting in the ultrasound room, the horrible news, the images, the pain, the due date, and the fact that you SHOULD be a mother to that child but you will never be.

And no other pregnancy, no other baby, will ever replace the one that should have been but is not.

It is never being able to truly feel excited when you become pregnant again. Because this never leaves you, and this could happen again.

It is NOT just like a period.

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Even when you do get pregnant again and find it in a tiny piece of you to be excited, it's constant anxiety.

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14 March 2020 - 14 WEEKS

Today we've made it to 14 weeks! I'm officially in the second trimester! I can't believe that I've made it this far. Baby is healthy and I feel pretty good too. I get need to start gaining some weight now (I'm down 15+ pounds).

Please say a prayer that this little one continues to grow and be healthy. 💕

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“You didn’t find Jesus, He found you. He wasn’t lost, you were.”

— Matt Chandler

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9 March 2020

13 weeks 2 days.

Honestly, having a home doppler is the best thing ever. With having lost my first two babies, this thing is a God send. Being able to hear the heartbeat when I'm feeling nervous or had a strange feeling. It's especially great when I can find the heartbeat right off the bat.

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5 March 2020

3 March 2020 was my first trimester screening at a different OB that my OB sent me to. They got all my medical history (That lady almost made me feel hopeless. I left her office in tears.) They took blood to test for down syndrome and a couple of other things. And I had my 12 week ultrasound!

I got to see my baby again, and for the first time, they looked like a full baby. Hard to believe that this baby is only a little over two inches long, they look so big! Baby is growing right on track! They've got a strong heartbeat and I got to with them wiggle all around for the first time. I was in absolute awe.

I also met my new doctor. He talked to me about all my risks, but made me feel like everything was going to be okay. He told me I'd be coming back every four weeks if everything kept looking good, then twice a week toward the end of my pregnancy.

My next appointment is at 16 weeks 5 days! It'll be the anatomy scan and if baby cooperates, we'll find out whether they're a girl or a boy!

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