I've been living far away from home for 2 years and 4 months, I can't remember how many kilometres I've been going through, I am tired, hopeless, and mad but I don't for what and for who.
Now I keep trying to accept the condition but the denial is always bigger that the acceptance
The distance hits almost everything. My body, my life and my mental.
I have a backbone illness, I can't sit on the floor for a long time and I can't stand for a long time. I have a very bad headache, when it comes, I feel like my head is gonna be exploded.
And my life, I feel that I am not being anywhere. When I am at my rented house, I always miss my own home, when I am at my home, I don't remember anymore the position of the goods, the habits and the system. Very bad situation
My mental, I can't express my feelings now to anyone. It will make them feeling annoyed cause of my story
I just can't stand it anymore
