Im learning to be a better friend.
To myself
And therefore to my friends.
Ive been consistently horrible at response times, maintaining consistent communication, visiting, reaching out first, and so much more since I can remember.
And now that im asking, "why?"
I can pick it apart and make the changes without beating myself to a pulp every time it happens.
Bc its the shame that keeps me stuck in that cycle. And ive learned that people that love me just want to meet me in it and push me to do better.
Self love is so hard and being my own friend after being an active bully for myself has been so difficult, but im so tired of prioritizing mediocrity and being a bad friend and community member. There's no place for shame right now.
Im learning, and i gotta mess up to learn. But I gotta recover too.
Wishing anyone dealing with this kindness and patience.
