The sad Adam Lanza thatβs never talked about. I think these are really important to remembering who he was.
2008: βBy 2008, when Adam turned sixteen and was going to school only for occasional events, Nancyβs e-mails describe his escalating misery. βHe had a horrible nightβ¦ . He cried in the bathroom for 45 minutes and missed his first class.β Two weeks later, she wrote, βI am hoping that he pulls together in time for school this afternoon, but it is doubtful. He has been sitting with his head to one side for over an hour doing nothing.β Later that year: βAdam had a rough night. He moved EVERYTHING out of his room last night. He only kept his bed and wardrobe cabinet.β
Spring Quarter 2008: The German class, in particular, is cited as a personal struggle in Adamβs life: βSchoolwork often triggered a sense of hopelessness. βHe was exhausted and lethargic all day, and said he was unable to concentrate and his homework isnβt done,β [Nancy] wrote. βHe is on the verge of tears over not having his journal entries ready to pass in. He said he tried to concentrate and couldnβt and has been wondering why he is βsuch a loserβ and if there is anything he can do about it.β He had been taking classes at Western Connecticut State Universityβfor high-school creditβbut he struggled there. βHe wouldnβt speak on the way home and had his hood completely covering his face,β Nancy wrote one day. βHe went straight to his room and wonβt eat. I gave him time alone to compose and have tried to speak to him twice now, but he just keeps saying, βIt does not matterβ and βleave meβ βI donβt want to speak of it.β β Two months later, Nancy recorded his despair when faced with some coursework in German: βHe finally and tearfully said that he canβt complete the German. He canβt understand it. He has spent hours on the worksheets and canβt comprehend them.β
Late January/February 2010: Adamβs parents express concern to each other about his mental state as he approaches adulthood: βIn early 2010, when Nancy told Peter that Adam had been crying hysterically on the bathroom floor, Peter responded with uncharacteristic vehemence: βAdam needs to communicate the source of his sorrow. We have less than three months to help him before he is 18. I am convinced that when he turns 18 he will either try to enlist or just leave the house to become homeless.βNancy replied, βI just spent 2 hours sitting outside his door, talking to him about why he is so upset. He failed every single test during that class, yet he thought he knew the material.β Later that day, she wrote, βI have the feeling when he said he would rather be homeless than to take any more tests, he really meant it.β Nancy said that Adam had been pretending to go to classes and passing his time in the library.β
August/September 2012: Nancy tells Peter that Adam cannot see him, citing that Adam has had a βbad summerβ and admitted he was a shut-in: βIn early 2012, Nancy said that Adam had agreed to see Peter in the spring, but nothing came of it. Nine months later, Peter protested that Adam never even acknowledged his e-mails. Nancy wrote, βI will talk to him about that but I donβt want to harass him. He has had a bad summer and actually stopped going out.β
http://sandyhooklighthouse.wordpress.com/2013/09/07/timeline-adam-lanzas-life-and-online-activity/
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