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Ever feel like your lost in your own mind

this is not a pitty party

Im tired Im sore I want to cry Im in pain all the time As the people i love move on, i can't just expect them to wait for me, friends have feelings to I've not been able to be there for my friends due to my own personal problems which is shit i feel like one of the worsts friends right now, im trying to be strong i have good days and bad days its hard to know that my life will be like this for the rest of my life, i feel like i don't have the right to even tell.my friends how im feeling I've must be boring them so much but when your sick of talking and feel like you don't want to tell anyone as they've herd it all before i don't know what to do. I miss my friends they rarely invite me out anymore its my own fault for always being tired or ill there's only so much people can hear maybe next time, i feel like im loosing everyone around me and its my own fault so i have no to blame but myself this is not pitty party theres no pity due here just me being a selfish cuntt and ranting when really we all know i should have just been better friends and life wouldnt be like this.

#friends #rant #personal rant

i keep dreaming about you, i know its cause i miss you to much.

i wish you were coming to my birthday just like i wish you could of seen before i went to prom just like i wish you could see me get married, start a family.

i feel like this is as 'fixed' as i will ever be when it comes to you. sometimes i wish i never had therpay maybe id be able to see you when i thought of you and not just in dreams maybe id be more conneected with you. maybe i when i went in my bed room i could smell you like some people can, instead of feeling like im being wacthed and scared.

sometimes when i feel like i need you the most i just sit there and cry as i dont know who else to talk to, its been to many years to carry on talking about i feel like im just going on.

i wonder what type of person id be today if you were still alive, i mean would i still had my crazy stage, just witth a different reason, i feel like id be a totally different person in a good way, because lets face it death changes people, it doesnt matter how many years its been theres always a bit of you, that you will never get back, i know theres a peice of me that died a long time ago,

sometimes im jelous of other people say, or what other people feel, sometimes i doubt things but this is an essay my bad,

mmmhiskisses

wolfp4w-blog

yes you have

i'm being selfish

When you are sick of talking about something, you feel like you don't want to talk to your friends about it as there under enough stress with uni and other things. i feel like im being stupid, in fact i know im being stupid. its like i want to talk about it but i know its not worth it, they have enough to deal with rather than me a being a dick.

It's alarming honestly how charming she can be Fooling everyone, telling them she's having fun

this is my life.

#lana del rey

finally being able to forgive someone rather than just putting up with them is a wonderful feeling.

i miss her.

suck it up kirsty,

as theres 95% chance in 3 years time you will be living in liverpool

so just get over it for now

Having fights with my dad is possibly helping me with my uni work, by making me sad fits right in with people project THANKS.

man i feel like shit

drop dead diva

dont no if any many people know about this

but its a really good show just started watching it up to the 2nd series already!

#drop dead diva

Grimes - Genesis

thats it Grimes make me feel happy whilist im air burshing another 60 photos today, i feel like jumping off a bridge thats all ive done the last few days photo shoot, photo shoot photoshoot, air bursh , air brush , air brush i shouldn't complaine but the laptop saves your shit as a unknown file and then you have to do that whole photo again OMG -.-

#Grimes - Genesis