I know it's a bit of a longshot but if any of my followers are still active on here, hello again! 👋🥰✨
Unfortunately, this will be my final post on this blog. 💔
Looking back through my posts over the last decade, it's been crazy to see all the ways I've changed and laugh at all the ways I haven't.
I've been telling myself for years now that I will eventually figure it all out; and in some ways (thankfully), I have. I'm about to get married to the love of my life (and I came out to my family🏳️🌈), I've got my own place, a semi-decent work-life balance and my car is somewhat reliable (😂)! I've even flown around the world twice now which is something I absolutely never thought I'd be able to do.
Some things however, never change.
I'm still chronically disorganized, still haven't finished my university studies, still in debt (lmao), still drinking way too much coffee and still blasting the gayest music possible through my car radio (#loudandproud).
To a younger me:
Younger me was a very different person, he was full of anxiety and surrounded by the wrong people. Most importantly, he needed to learn how to love himself. All of these things take time to figure out, and some are part of a life-long journey.
People you once called friends will hurt you, mistreat you and be incredibly selfish. True friends are night-and-day compared to what you put up with. You will learn to value yourself, and others will value you for who you are, not what you can do for them.
You will watch your family get smaller than you ever thought possible, and it will hurt. You counter this by stumbling into a much much larger family when you meet your husband. Being with him is like being enveloped in a constant and reassuring hug. He is kind, caring and strong. Everything you could ask for in a life partner (and he's a ginger! Bet you never saw that one coming 😂).
Though your photography career never really took off, you've done graphic design, web and photo-imaging work for a handful of the largest companies in Australia. You will be immensely proud of the work you've done and the reach it's had.
It isn't always easy or fun, but sometimes you need to make big life changes to put yourself on the right track. It will feel like you are constantly living in a state of upheaval and uncertainty for most of a decade, and you will be a nervous wreck with each fresh wave of change. Eventually things will calm down and so will you.
Keep working on loving yourself, be proud of who you are, try to be healthy (or as healthy as you can be haha), and make time for yourself and your creative habits. You will be amazed at how far you can progress.
starting to think about happiness as something that could be attained every day instead of something you chase for years and years until the conditions are absolutely perfect
NOT EVERYTHING IS ABOUT A GOD DAMN RELATIONSHIP AND LOSING WEIGHT AND BEING BEAUTIFUL FOR GODS SAKE GO OUTSIDE AND ROB A STORE AND FEEL ALIVE AS YOU RUN AWAY FROM SECURITY
I keep reading stories on reddit from gay guys who don’t find long term relationships until their late 20’s and honestly??? Is this what I have to look forward to?
having a permanent full time job is you thinking to yourself “so this is really the rest of my life huh” as you come home every single day before using your 4 hours of recreational activity to do nothing and then going to bed
you should never date someone for the sake of dating someone. you should be good friends, if not best friends with your partner. if you cant go to your partner for personal advice, if youre afraid to call your partner out on something, if you cant laugh and have fun with your partner, or if your conversations are only ever performative affection, you don’t have a good relationship
being an adult is just running around getting one thing done so you can get another thing done so you can get another thing done so you can get another thing done so you can get another thing done and also eating whatever you want but feeling really guilty about it
