An Open Letter to the Guy I Never Get Over
First of all, I would like to know how are you? Are you living in your best life na? I hope you're doing well. The main purpose of this letter is I want to apologize to you because I think deserve mo na makatanggap ng apology from me. We never had a proper goodbye.
We started off as friends, a really close one to the point that I think you are my soulmate. We really understand each other in many different ways. Yun yung time na nafeel ko na pwede pala ako i-trato ng tama. For the first time in my life, nafeel ko na nagmamatter din pala ako sa isang tao. But I ruined our good friendship because I catched feelings.
What if I never be able to confess my feelings to you? Are we still be the same now? I feel like those years na never tayo nag usap, my life was never been the same. I still feel sorry everyday for what I did to you. And I keep blaming myself that I am a bad friend because you never resent me for it. You never talk shit about me.
I had boyfriends who I thought I going to love and spend my lifetime with them, but all of them failed me. I got cheated, I got ghosted, I got abused. Maybe because I'm after for the wrong reasons. What if I searched a partner just to prove you that I could move on and forget my feelings for you. What if after all this time, I never really get over you? What if you never left that special spot in my heart?
But I am not trying my luck with you. I already accepted the fact that I will never be that girl. I already accepted where my place is. I want to say sorry because I know na nahurt kita. You may not be too vocal about it but alam ko at ramdam ko na nasaktan talaga kita. Because I became the person na ayaw na ayaw mo. You don't like losing someone very close to you, but you also lost me too. Nahurt kita sa pinili kong desisyon. I want you to know na sobra kong naappreciate na you still tried your best na ilaban at i save yung meron tayo. Nasasaktan din ako noong panahon na yon para sayo. I also do not want us to end like that. I also want to stay by your side forever. But that time, I also felt pathetic.
If time really heals all wounds, and we are both ready to be friends again. I will welcome you with open arms. Until we meet again. I love you.
Love,
Dara