[wowconradfisher]

all of the girls you’ve loved before

pairing: min ho x reader

genre: slight angst, best friends to lovers, they are both so dense to each others feelings..

summary: being best friends with KISS’s resident “heart throb” is not for the weak. falling in love with him isn’t either, so what happens when the line between best friend and boyfriend becomes too blurred?

a/n: hi hello i am back from the dead. i’m convinced this acc is just gonna be a jenny han-iverse fic acc bc if not conrad then i’m writing about min ho. i have ended school so i hope i am more consistent with writing! feel free to send in requests + questions btw :D i hope u guys enjoy this silly fic that is also based off a taylor swift song hence the title!

Sitting outside of your best friend’s party that he throws every year was not something you thought you would be doing. You were convinced that this time was going to be different, and maybe just because you were seeing Min Ho in a different light, he would see you too. Here you still were, all dolled up but with no guts to walk into the party. You sighed, thinking about how pathetic you might be looking at the moment to anyone walking by. It was annoying in your opinion, just a month ago you couldn’t stand the thought of being with your best friend but now you’re starting to second guess and think more about the times you’ve spent together.

It was about 2 weeks ago when you and Min Ho, well more so you, started kind of overthinking the things you two would do together. You used to think that it was just regular best friend things you did, like talking about your past lovers and flings, laughing about all of the late nights you both have spent on your own having lame fights on the phone. But then you start thinking about the other nights, sneaking out past curfew and holding onto each other's hands in hopes of not getting caught. Or the way he would treat you the way he would never treat anyone else, allowing you to see his softer side, doing silly things like letting you do his skin care after he knows you’ve been crying in his bathroom about some dude that said “loved you” not knowing how carelessly he’s throwing out the words that mean so much to you. You see yourself doing the regular “best friend duties” like never saying bye to each other because you know you’ll be seeing each other again anyways, but you know it shouldn’t bother you when you see the new transfer student Madison write your best friend’s name in a heart all over her assignment. 

You shook yourself out of your daze and stood up, you knew it was wrong for you to be feeling this way about your best friend and there was no reason for you to start feeling this way now. Looking at your phone’s reflection to fix up your makeup, you took a deep breath and confidently made your way to the venue. Walking in and seeing a bunch of lights and loud music was expected, but tonight your goal was to forget about how you felt and let the universe tell you what to do. 

“Excuse me ma’am who let you out looking so good?” a voice spoke from behind you while tapping you on the shoulder.

You turned around and to your surprise it was one of your other close friends, “Q oh my gosh I haven’t seen you in like a week!” you exclaimed while pulling him into a hug, not failing to notice Florian behind him. Once you pulled away you waved at the other male who signaled to his flask, basically asking you if you wanted a shot. You grinned and suddenly all of your prayers had been answered and your night had begun. 

If you were being honest, you knew you weren’t a light weight. You always thought of yourself as someone who could just drink enough to not be a heavy weight and be at the perfect level of tipsy where you can feel the buzz. This is the point where you had to go out to the dance floor because of how free it made you feel, not a single care or worry in the world. That was until you felt someone tapping on your shoulder. You turned around to see a guy, a random one you have never seen before around KISS. You could admit he was a bit attractive but not as attractive as Min Ho. 

Looking up at the stranger you let out a forced smile, “Hi?” you spoke, but sounded more like a question

“Couldn’t help but notice a pretty girl dancing all by herself, you looking for someone to dance with?” the guy asked as he tried to put his hand on your waist. 

You backed away before you suddenly felt someone behind you put their hand around your waist, “Baby I’ve been looking everywhere for you,” a boy spoke with an accent you could recognize anywhere. Looking up, you let out a soft genuine smile at the sight of your best friend. 

Min Ho cleared his throat and saw the guy was still there, “Hey man I don’t know if you noticed but she’s my girl, so I would appreciate it if you didn’t hit on her,” 

The guy furrowed his brows at Min Ho before quickly realizing who he was, “Oh shit sorry man I didn’t know,” he quickly muttered out

“You’re lucky I didn’t have you kicked out. Now leave us alone, yeah?” Min Ho replied, shooing the other guy away. 

Once the guy was gone, Min Ho held onto your hand and led you to a more secluded area away from the party. He looked at you and caressed your cheek, “You okay Y/N?” he spoke softly

You looked up at your best friend and took in the way he looked at you. The way he looked at you made you feel so delicate, like you were the only person that mattered to him. You broke out of your daze and just nodded at him, “Thank you Min, I think it’s time for me to head out now though,” You spoke

Min Ho frowned, but it looked more like a pout to you, “But I just found you,” he spoke, “and we didn’t even get to dance yet,” 

You took his hand that was on your cheek and held it, “I know, I’m sorry I’m just not in the mood for it anymore,” you replied softly 

After hearing your response, it was like something in Min Ho clicked, causing him to hold your hand again, “Okay, let’s go then,” he spoke like it was no big deal

“Let’s go? What do you mean? Like you’re gonna just ditch your party?” You asked in disbelief

He nodded, “Uh yeah duh? Why would I stay at a party that my best friend doesn’t even want to be at?” 

There was that word again, it just keeps dangling over you and taunting you everytime you think you guys could be something more than just friends. Hearing his response just made you let out a small smile. Him pretending to be your boyfriend just lets you have a glimpse of what you weren’t but what you could be, truly it does break your heart but what can you really do about it.  After that night, he just dropped you off back at your dorms, you didn’t even have the energy to invite him in like how you guys usually do. It did feel awkward just leaving him but you needed this. Your heart needed it. 

You did feel bad for ghosting everyone. It had been a week since the party and you needed to shut down and take time for yourself to really think about what you wanted to do about your feelings for Min Ho. After being by yourself for a week and doing your work online, you felt like you really did learn a lot about yourself, and that in order to get over your feelings for your best friend, you had to accept that you had those feelings in the first place. 

During this week of you ghosting everyone, you weren’t the only one in question about their emotions. Min Ho to say the least has been snappier than ever to everyone. Most times, whenever you were around he would be at his nicest, you were someone who humbled him and brought him back to Earth but without you? He truly was something and someone you did not want to cross. The boy is a mess, he doesn’t know how long ago you guys haven’t talked for this long. Even if it was just a week, it felt like years. One thing Min Ho will do for you but never admit or do for anyone else is giving you space.

If he’s being honest with himself, he tried so incredibly hard not to fall for you or do anything that can potentially jeopardize his relationship with you but the moment he saw you at his party looking the way you did dancing on the dance floor, he knew he was done for. That’s why the whole week he has been so upset with himself for doing what he did that night, for calling you baby, for pretending to be your boyfriend, all of it, because now you weren’t even talking to him. It wasn’t until you texted him asking if he could come over where he finally felt the feeling of anxiousness leave his body.

Min Ho was standing at your door with a bouquet of your favorite flowers, debating on when to knock. That was until you beat him to it and just opened the door after hearing his shuffling from behind the door. Genuinely you were surprised, you didn't expect him to show up so fast, and with your favorite flowers too?

"Hi Min," you spoke with a smile before opening your door to let him in, "Come in please, you've been here countless of times so don't get shy on me now,"

He chuckled, taking off his shoes before stepping into your dorm, placing them among your other shoes and then following you to your room. Before sitting down, he handed you the flowers, "Here Y/N, I got you your favorites,"

"What's the occasion Min?" you asked taking the flowers and admiring them before placing them on your lap

"I just missed you that's all," he replied before sitting down next to you

You cleared your throat and started fiddling with your hands, "Min Ho I've been meaning to talk to you about this for a while," you spoke, "But if I'm honest I want to say I'm sorry for ghosting you for a week, I just needed time to figure out what I was feeling,"

Min Ho grabbed onto your hands and held them, preventing you from fiddling with your hands and causing you to look up at him, "It's okay Y/N, you know I would give you all the time in the world," he replied

Staring into his eyes, you knew you had to say it now or else you would never want to say it, "Min Ho, I'm in love with you," you said feeling so much lighter with that confession alone, "I think I always have been, but I wanted to be sure of it before I told you. I don't know when it exactly happened, but at one point the lines between being my best friend and wanting something more with you started to blur. So please tell me now if I'm just overthinking this whole thing and maybe I'm the only one who feels this way but-" you spoke before Min Ho leaned in to kiss you.

Your eyes widened in shock for a second before you closed your eyes finally kissing him back, melting into his touch and putting your hand onto his chest. If you could describe what the best thing that has happened to you, it would be this moment alone. The way your lips moved together in perfect synchronization, like you were both made for each other. Truly it could not compare to anything you've ever felt before.

Once you both pulled away, your forehead rested against Min Ho's, "You drive me crazy Y/N, I never even thought I had a chance with you but I'm so thankful all of our past romances led me here to you," he spoke

You smiled at his response, "So does that mean you love me too?"

"I love you more than words can describe, I mean I can show you in actions too?" He replied with a smirk

"Min Ho!" you gasped, playfully hitting his shoulder

He laughed at your reaction, "I'm kidding! I mean unless you were serious?"

You rolled your eyes playfully at the boy you were thankful to be in love with. At least this time you were sure this would be real.

[wowconradfisher]

reblogging bc s2 of xo kitty <3 requests r open!!

[wowconradfisher]

all of the girls you’ve loved before

pairing: min ho x reader

genre: slight angst, best friends to lovers, they are both so dense to each others feelings..

summary: being best friends with KISS’s resident “heart throb” is not for the weak. falling in love with him isn’t either, so what happens when the line between best friend and boyfriend becomes too blurred?

a/n: hi hello i am back from the dead. i’m convinced this acc is just gonna be a jenny han-iverse fic acc bc if not conrad then i’m writing about min ho. i have ended school so i hope i am more consistent with writing! feel free to send in requests + questions btw :D i hope u guys enjoy this silly fic that is also based off a taylor swift song hence the title!

Sitting outside of your best friend’s party that he throws every year was not something you thought you would be doing. You were convinced that this time was going to be different, and maybe just because you were seeing Min Ho in a different light, he would see you too. Here you still were, all dolled up but with no guts to walk into the party. You sighed, thinking about how pathetic you might be looking at the moment to anyone walking by. It was annoying in your opinion, just a month ago you couldn’t stand the thought of being with your best friend but now you’re starting to second guess and think more about the times you’ve spent together.

It was about 2 weeks ago when you and Min Ho, well more so you, started kind of overthinking the things you two would do together. You used to think that it was just regular best friend things you did, like talking about your past lovers and flings, laughing about all of the late nights you both have spent on your own having lame fights on the phone. But then you start thinking about the other nights, sneaking out past curfew and holding onto each other's hands in hopes of not getting caught. Or the way he would treat you the way he would never treat anyone else, allowing you to see his softer side, doing silly things like letting you do his skin care after he knows you’ve been crying in his bathroom about some dude that said “loved you” not knowing how carelessly he’s throwing out the words that mean so much to you. You see yourself doing the regular “best friend duties” like never saying bye to each other because you know you’ll be seeing each other again anyways, but you know it shouldn’t bother you when you see the new transfer student Madison write your best friend’s name in a heart all over her assignment. 

You shook yourself out of your daze and stood up, you knew it was wrong for you to be feeling this way about your best friend and there was no reason for you to start feeling this way now. Looking at your phone’s reflection to fix up your makeup, you took a deep breath and confidently made your way to the venue. Walking in and seeing a bunch of lights and loud music was expected, but tonight your goal was to forget about how you felt and let the universe tell you what to do. 

“Excuse me ma’am who let you out looking so good?” a voice spoke from behind you while tapping you on the shoulder.

You turned around and to your surprise it was one of your other close friends, “Q oh my gosh I haven’t seen you in like a week!” you exclaimed while pulling him into a hug, not failing to notice Florian behind him. Once you pulled away you waved at the other male who signaled to his flask, basically asking you if you wanted a shot. You grinned and suddenly all of your prayers had been answered and your night had begun. 

If you were being honest, you knew you weren’t a light weight. You always thought of yourself as someone who could just drink enough to not be a heavy weight and be at the perfect level of tipsy where you can feel the buzz. This is the point where you had to go out to the dance floor because of how free it made you feel, not a single care or worry in the world. That was until you felt someone tapping on your shoulder. You turned around to see a guy, a random one you have never seen before around KISS. You could admit he was a bit attractive but not as attractive as Min Ho. 

Looking up at the stranger you let out a forced smile, “Hi?” you spoke, but sounded more like a question

“Couldn’t help but notice a pretty girl dancing all by herself, you looking for someone to dance with?” the guy asked as he tried to put his hand on your waist. 

You backed away before you suddenly felt someone behind you put their hand around your waist, “Baby I’ve been looking everywhere for you,” a boy spoke with an accent you could recognize anywhere. Looking up, you let out a soft genuine smile at the sight of your best friend. 

Min Ho cleared his throat and saw the guy was still there, “Hey man I don’t know if you noticed but she’s my girl, so I would appreciate it if you didn’t hit on her,” 

The guy furrowed his brows at Min Ho before quickly realizing who he was, “Oh shit sorry man I didn’t know,” he quickly muttered out

“You’re lucky I didn’t have you kicked out. Now leave us alone, yeah?” Min Ho replied, shooing the other guy away. 

Once the guy was gone, Min Ho held onto your hand and led you to a more secluded area away from the party. He looked at you and caressed your cheek, “You okay Y/N?” he spoke softly

You looked up at your best friend and took in the way he looked at you. The way he looked at you made you feel so delicate, like you were the only person that mattered to him. You broke out of your daze and just nodded at him, “Thank you Min, I think it’s time for me to head out now though,” You spoke

Min Ho frowned, but it looked more like a pout to you, “But I just found you,” he spoke, “and we didn’t even get to dance yet,” 

You took his hand that was on your cheek and held it, “I know, I’m sorry I’m just not in the mood for it anymore,” you replied softly 

After hearing your response, it was like something in Min Ho clicked, causing him to hold your hand again, “Okay, let’s go then,” he spoke like it was no big deal

“Let’s go? What do you mean? Like you’re gonna just ditch your party?” You asked in disbelief

He nodded, “Uh yeah duh? Why would I stay at a party that my best friend doesn’t even want to be at?” 

There was that word again, it just keeps dangling over you and taunting you everytime you think you guys could be something more than just friends. Hearing his response just made you let out a small smile. Him pretending to be your boyfriend just lets you have a glimpse of what you weren’t but what you could be, truly it does break your heart but what can you really do about it.  After that night, he just dropped you off back at your dorms, you didn’t even have the energy to invite him in like how you guys usually do. It did feel awkward just leaving him but you needed this. Your heart needed it. 

You did feel bad for ghosting everyone. It had been a week since the party and you needed to shut down and take time for yourself to really think about what you wanted to do about your feelings for Min Ho. After being by yourself for a week and doing your work online, you felt like you really did learn a lot about yourself, and that in order to get over your feelings for your best friend, you had to accept that you had those feelings in the first place. 

During this week of you ghosting everyone, you weren’t the only one in question about their emotions. Min Ho to say the least has been snappier than ever to everyone. Most times, whenever you were around he would be at his nicest, you were someone who humbled him and brought him back to Earth but without you? He truly was something and someone you did not want to cross. The boy is a mess, he doesn’t know how long ago you guys haven’t talked for this long. Even if it was just a week, it felt like years. One thing Min Ho will do for you but never admit or do for anyone else is giving you space.

If he’s being honest with himself, he tried so incredibly hard not to fall for you or do anything that can potentially jeopardize his relationship with you but the moment he saw you at his party looking the way you did dancing on the dance floor, he knew he was done for. That’s why the whole week he has been so upset with himself for doing what he did that night, for calling you baby, for pretending to be your boyfriend, all of it, because now you weren’t even talking to him. It wasn’t until you texted him asking if he could come over where he finally felt the feeling of anxiousness leave his body.

Min Ho was standing at your door with a bouquet of your favorite flowers, debating on when to knock. That was until you beat him to it and just opened the door after hearing his shuffling from behind the door. Genuinely you were surprised, you didn't expect him to show up so fast, and with your favorite flowers too?

"Hi Min," you spoke with a smile before opening your door to let him in, "Come in please, you've been here countless of times so don't get shy on me now,"

He chuckled, taking off his shoes before stepping into your dorm, placing them among your other shoes and then following you to your room. Before sitting down, he handed you the flowers, "Here Y/N, I got you your favorites,"

"What's the occasion Min?" you asked taking the flowers and admiring them before placing them on your lap

"I just missed you that's all," he replied before sitting down next to you

You cleared your throat and started fiddling with your hands, "Min Ho I've been meaning to talk to you about this for a while," you spoke, "But if I'm honest I want to say I'm sorry for ghosting you for a week, I just needed time to figure out what I was feeling,"

Min Ho grabbed onto your hands and held them, preventing you from fiddling with your hands and causing you to look up at him, "It's okay Y/N, you know I would give you all the time in the world," he replied

Staring into his eyes, you knew you had to say it now or else you would never want to say it, "Min Ho, I'm in love with you," you said feeling so much lighter with that confession alone, "I think I always have been, but I wanted to be sure of it before I told you. I don't know when it exactly happened, but at one point the lines between being my best friend and wanting something more with you started to blur. So please tell me now if I'm just overthinking this whole thing and maybe I'm the only one who feels this way but-" you spoke before Min Ho leaned in to kiss you.

Your eyes widened in shock for a second before you closed your eyes finally kissing him back, melting into his touch and putting your hand onto his chest. If you could describe what the best thing that has happened to you, it would be this moment alone. The way your lips moved together in perfect synchronization, like you were both made for each other. Truly it could not compare to anything you've ever felt before.

Once you both pulled away, your forehead rested against Min Ho's, "You drive me crazy Y/N, I never even thought I had a chance with you but I'm so thankful all of our past romances led me here to you," he spoke

You smiled at his response, "So does that mean you love me too?"

"I love you more than words can describe, I mean I can show you in actions too?" He replied with a smirk

"Min Ho!" you gasped, playfully hitting his shoulder

He laughed at your reaction, "I'm kidding! I mean unless you were serious?"

You rolled your eyes playfully at the boy you were thankful to be in love with. At least this time you were sure this would be real.

[wowconradfisher]

take a chance with me

pairing: conrad fisher x reader

genre: slight angst

summary: it’s the summer back in cousins and you’re still head over heels for conrad. apparently you have a glow this summer, maybe he’ll finally bring what you two had into light?

a/n: helloo welcome back to the 2nd conrad fic! it is based off niki’s song ‘take a chance with me’ also sorry if the end sucks i just wanted to post something and this prompt was in my head LOL

Hearing the faint laughter as you walked closer to the front door of the Fisher’s summer house gave you a feeling of ease. Knowing that the next couple of months would take your mind off of the things in your normal day to day life. Cousins felt like that special place where the only thing that mattered was whatever happened in that moment. Being in Cousins felt like going to the movies and losing track of time. But most importantly, Cousins had Conrad Fisher.

You knocked on the wooden door in front of you and after a couple seconds you heard loud footsteps approaching almost like there was a stampede coming from inside the house. The door swung open to reveal Belly and Jeremiah, who seemed like they had been racing to get to the front door first.

“Y/N! Finally you’re here!” Belly exclaimed as she pulled you in the house for a giant bear hug. You smiled and hugged her back, ruffling the slightly shorter girl’s hair a bit

Jeremiah had his arms on his hips with his lips pursed, “Any day now Bells, I want a Y/N hug too,” he spoke with an irritated tone of voice, though you could tell he was joking

You chuckled as the two fought over greeting you first before pulling Jeremiah into the hug as well, “You guys really missed me that much?” you asked genuinely. You’ve never seen the younger two act this clingy or happy to see you so you were definitely surprised to say the least.

“We always miss you Y/N, but this summer is different,” Jeremiah responded before grabbing your bags behind you and bringing them into the house to put in your room. You were confused at what he meant by that but before you could question it, Belly grabbed your hand and dragged you further into the house and upstairs to her room.

As soon as she let go of your hand, she immediately shut the door before sitting down on the bed and patting the bed next to her as a signal for you to sit there. You sat down questioning why your first 5 minutes in the Fisher household had been so chaotic already. But then again, were you really even surprised? You looked at the younger girl next to you, “Belly, what are we doing here?” you asked

“Two words. Conrad Fisher.” she replied with a giant grin on her face

You rolled your eyes at her, “That’s actually 4 words,” you said, acting like you just made the funniest joke in the world, but all Belly replied with was a deadpan expression that basically said ‘did you really say that’

“Okay fine I admit it wasn’t that funny, but what about him?” you asked seriously this time

“What do you mean ‘what about him?’ You know exactly what I mean when I ask what about Conrad,” the girl responded before clarifying again, “What’s been going on with you and Conrad?” she questioned

It was at that moment you had never been more thankful for Steven Conklin’s existence as he barged into Belly’s bedroom door.

“Belly! Why are you hogging Y/N to yourself? You know how much Mom and Susannah have been waiting to see her,” he spoke as he walked into the room, “C’mon Y/N, you know how excited they are to see you,”

The younger girl groaned and rolled her eyes at her older brother, “You’re so annoying Steven. But bring her back! We weren’t done talking,” Belly replied

“Yeah yeah whatever,” Steven responded before getting out of Belly’s room as you followed him down to the kitchen where you saw Susannah and Laurel. You swore every time you saw them together all you could do was smile, those two always made you feel so special and loved, especially Susannah. Sometimes you thought she loved you like you were her daughter (or daughter in-law).

“Oh Y/N look at you honey, all grown up and beautiful,” Susannah spoke with endearment looking and admired your face

You smiled and chuckled a bit, “That’s what turning 18 and starting summer break does to you,”

“It’s true Y/N, you’ve grown up gorgeous.” Laurel replied before pulling you into a hug, similar to what her own daughter previously did, just not as aggressive

You hugged her back, not before you heard someone’s throat clear behind you which caused you to turn your head at the sudden noise. You pulled away from your hug with Laurel and faced the person you’ve been waiting to see. There he was, leaning against the wall in all his glory.

“Y/N.” Conrad said with a small smile forming on his face, god you swore you would honestly stop time and space just to see him smile, better yet if you were the one who had made him smile. It was silly to you how all Conrad had to do was say your name and suddenly you felt like you were floating.

A grin spread across your face as you waved at the brunette in front of you, “Hey Con, long time no see?” You replied, staring at him and taking in the fact that he was really there in front of you again.

He walked towards you and stopped as he stood in front of you, “You look different.” He spoke looking at you almost in an examining way

You rolled your eyes in a jokingly manner, “Yeah everyone’s mentioned something about that today,” you replied chuckling a bit

Conrad’s eyes remained on you, and you looked back staring into his eyes. At this point you didn’t know if he was completely unaware or just playing along because the way you stared at him was so obvious. So obvious in the fact that you were completely and utterly captivated by him.

It wasn’t until the evening when you were able to see Conrad again. After your brief interaction, everyone in the house whisked you off to do random things and to catch up in general. You walked out to the pool area, where you saw Conrad faintly near the beach. It was almost time for the sunset so you decided why not and just walked towards him.

“Got room for one more here?” You asked as you approached him from behind, since he was facing towards the water.

Conrad turned around and smiled, “For you? Always,” he replied before turning back to face the ocean. You forgot how much you loved Conrad’s voice. For someone with very few words, his voice was something you would honestly melt for. Another thing you loved was when he’d say your name, it always seemed like you would fade away if he said your name too loud.

You walked up next to him and noticed his appearance. He was wearing a hoodie with shorts and there you were wearing sweatpants and a cropped tank top. It made you chuckle realizing how opposite you guys were at the moment. Conrad looked at you and noticed you deep in thought and looked at you giving you his full attention, “What’s on your mind Y/N?”

“Just thinking about how opposite we look right now,” You respond pointing at his clothes

Conrad looked at you and then down at himself, “Opposite as in I’m tall and you’re short or?” he replied pointing at the fact you were a good couple of inches shorter than him

You gasp and smack the side of his shoulder, “Hey! That was rude you know, I tried to keep growing for your information,” you retorted before you smiled at him

Hearing that made him laugh, though you didn’t know if he was laughing at what you said or at you. Regardless you would also do anything to hear him laugh, it was the kind that colored the sky into a beautiful sunset or sunrise you would see over Cousins beach. Similar to the one you two were looking at now actually. You looked at Conrad as he looked at you. There it was again, that look in his eye, almost like he knew what you were thinking about.

“I missed this,” he spoke before moving his hand closer to yours, “But I think I missed you more,” he added as he intertwined his hands with yours.

You glanced at your hands together and looked back up at him, “Con, what are we doing? Just last month you were telling me about how you said love was so overrated and now you’re holding my hand and looking at me like that,” you said and looked back down at your hands

“What do you mean looking at you like that?” he asked

You sighed and looked at him again, “Like I might actually have a chance to be yours,” you replied staring straight into his eyes

Conrad sighed, “I don’t know Y/N,” he spoke

“That’s bullshit and you know it. I know you better than the back of my own hand!” you exclaimed before sighing and lowering your tone, “I don’t understand why you’re scared. I can tell you’re lying, you know I always see through them,” You added before letting go of his hand and crossing them across your chest.

You looked back towards the house and down at your feet, you know if you stayed for a second longer you would start to tear up. Conrad didn’t deserve to see that, he didn’t deserve to see how much of an impact he makes on you. “I should go,” you spoke as you turned around and prepared to walk back towards the house.

That was until Conrad grabbed onto your hand and pulled you back into him. He stared at you with the same look you swore you gave him. His hands moved to your cheek as his eyes flickered from your eyes to your lips.

“I know I’m dumb sometimes, but I’d be stupid to let you walk away from me after this,” he said

You smiled at him, “Just shut up and kiss me,”

[wowconradfisher]

backburner

pairing: conrad fisher x reader

genre: angst

summary: you’ve always done everything for conrad if it means having him in your life. you’re tired of being led on by him constantly, but when will you ever learn?

a/n: hii! this is my very first fic and it’s based off niki’s new song ‘backburner’ bc i am absolutely obsessed with it and it reminds me of conrad. i hope you enjoy!

Conrad Fisher was not the type of guy who was consistent with his actions. At least with you he was never consistent.

Being the neighbor of the Fisher family and occasionally Conklins at the summer house was always an interesting time, and there was never a dull moment. But it wasn’t until the summer that allowed you to realize Conrad’s inconsistency, it was the seasons before that. From spring to fall is when you were able to somewhat keep in touch the brunette. After being his summer neighbor for 5 years, it was the summer you turned 16 when you both decided summer was not enough time to be around each other.

It started with the first time you had ever seen Conrad out of his summer element, seeing him in his beanie and his Cousins hoodie, that being the only evidence of the summer he had. You had ended up making plans with him to meet in Boston to do something silly like ice skate or what not. Going ice skating was definitely on your agenda, and maybe falling on ice, but the one thing that wasn’t there was falling in love with Conrad.

The history you had together was definitely unmatched, although you had your memories with him in the past seasons, nothing would ever beat your memories in the summer. Though it wasn’t until the summer after your ice skating escapade that allowed your mind to wrap around the fact that you somehow have fallen for the elusive Fisher boy.

You slowly opened the door of Conrad’s room and made your way to the side of his bed, “Seriously Con? Come on! We have to go now if we want to make it to watch the sunrise,” you whisper-shouted as you sat on his bed and shook him at the same time. You looked at him as you noticed his disheveled hair and the peaceful aura he seemed to radiate as he rested. Having never seen the boy as something more than just a friend, it made you think of your memories before that summer and how things had shifted.

“What are you thinking about N/N?” Conrad spoke as he slowly stirred awake and shifted in his bed to face you. You looked at him and realized that you had dozed off a bit, not seeing the boy slowly wake up, but quickly brushed it off by picking up one of his pillows that had fallen on the floor and hitting him with it.

“I’m thinking about how if you don’t get up right now, we’re gonna miss this sunrise you said you wanted to watch,” you replied with a deadpan expression. It was strange to you honestly, out of the years you’ve known the boy, he never planned to go and watch the Cousins sunrise and it was always something he always did out of the blue on impulse.

Conrad groaned and shook his head as a response and proceeded to lay back down, face away from you, and cover himself with his blanket. You rolled your eyes at his attitude and shook him again and took his blanket off, but this time instead of him retreating back into his blanket, the boy sat up to pull you on his bed and treat you like his personal teddy bear. You swore if he moved even just a little, he would be able to hear your racing heartbeat.

“Give me five minutes and I promise I’ll get up,” he mumbled as cuddled onto you and closed his eyes. In that moment alone, if someone had asked you if you had to choose a place you could spend the rest of your life at, you would pick that moment. Nothing would ever replace the feeling and warmth of being in his arms.

You looked up at him and studied the way his face looked with the slight glow of the sun coming up slowly, more specifically you looked down at his lips. You had always wondered what it would feel like to kiss him, but you hated how that thought seemed to intrude your thoughts in this moment specifically. It felt like he was reading your mind because suddenly his eyes opened and all you could do was look at each other. The way his eyes flickered from you to your lips made your stomach do flips. You did the same and looked at his eyes and lips to reciprocate that you’re thinking exactly what he’s thinking too.

Conrad leaned down closer to your face, bringing his hand to rest on your cheek as he touched your lips lightly with his thumb. Your eyes stayed on his as he looked back at you, “Can I kiss you?” he whispered, like if we were any louder the moment would leave and we would go back to just being regular Y/N and Conrad.

You leaned closer to his face nodding slightly, the gap between you two getting smaller and smaller, giving him the chance to kiss you. Conrad closed the gap and finally placed his lips on yours. Genuinely, it was exactly how you thought it would feel. You never understood the fireworks that people seem to experience when they kiss the person they love the most. Kissing Conrad felt like that but better.

That summer was the last time you had spoken to Conrad, it felt like to you that the summer you two shared was only meant for that summer, and maybe it was all that was meant to happen between you and him. Of course you had hoped what you had shared with Conrad would be more than just a summer fling, so having him for that time was better than not having him at all. Your whole life you felt as if it was predestined by your mom, Laurel, and Susannah that you and Conrad would end up together.

It wasn’t like you could blame Conrad for the distance between you two on him alone. You understood the difficulties he had been going through on his own, and with knowing him, you knew he’d rather go through life with all the burdens on his shoulders rather than having him feel as if he burdened someone. As much as you’ve tried to help the boy, you learned your lesson with allowing him to cope on his own. All you could do was hope that he would come to you for his problems.

You wished that he would have gone to you, but it was around winter time when you found out from Jeremiah that Conrad had been confiding in Belly with the troubles that plagued his head. From football issues and their parents' eventual divorce, Conrad picked Belly. You had no idea how Jeremiah even knew this, but it made you feel relieved yet hurt at the same time. Relieved knowing that he was confiding in someone and not carrying his problems on his shoulders, yet hurt because you thought he would call you.

The end of wintertime was approaching and things were slowly blooming again, and suddenly your phone lights up and rings with a contact you haven’t heard from in months. You lean over from your book notice that you were receiving a phone call from Con <3. It took you a second to grab your phone because simply you were just in disbelief. You weren’t expecting to see that contact ever again really, you hadn’t even bothered to change it because it hurt to even look at it sometimes. You hesitated again but pressed the green answer button and the speaker button after. Hearing sniffling in the background of the call and deep breathing through your phone, you immediately knew something was wrong. Though you weren’t happy he called you in such a circumstance, it felt nice knowing he chose to call you.

“Are you okay Con? What happened?” you questioned as it hurt you hearing the boy in so much pain, ignoring every single ounce of pain or hurt he caused you in the time of having no contact with him. He didn’t respond and you could tell that he was sad and alone yet about stalling about something simply based on his prolonged silence. All you could hear was the soft humming of the engine of his car, well you assumed was his jeep.

He sniffled again before clearing his throat, “Um, can I come in? I’m outside your house and I didn’t know where else to go but I thought of you,” Conrad spoke, you could hear in the tone of his voice that he seemed timid to ask you.

“Uh yeah of course, you can come in the doors unlocked,” you replied before getting up and quickly unlocking the door. It was funny you thought, you would have never thought that you would fall back into listening to whatever Conrad wanted to do. It felt like you had learned what would happen like before yet you didn’t care. It seemed pathetic, but he was one of the people you could never seem to hate or dislike.

He ended the call after hearing that and you prepared yourself to see him. You didn’t know how to feel but yet you felt all the emotions at the same time. You paced around your living room seeing if everything looked fine. It seemed like fate that the day Conrad seemingly showed up at your house, your parents decided to go on a small trip the next state over as an anniversary celebration. It was a couple seconds later when you heard faint knocking on your door, as you heard that you quickly threw on a random hoodie and opened the door where you were met with Conrad with bloodshot eyes.

“Goodness Conrad what happened?” you spoke as you opened the door wider and motioned for him to come in. You watched closely as he took off his shoes to get in your house, at least he remembered to do that you thought. He proceeded to walk toward your couch and looked at the couch and looked back at you like he was asking if he could sit. You nodded and sat down next to him as he settled himself down.

The way he looked gave off the vibe of a hurt puppy, the way the tears pooled at his eyes and his nose was red from the constant sniffling. He looked at you and back down at his hands and started playing with them, “I’m sorry for coming on such short notice,” he said looking at you before continuing on, “I- um just didn’t really know where to go,”

“It’s okay Conrad, you know I’m always here for you,” you spoke, with a tight feeling in your chest knowing he probably only came to find you because Belly wasn’t available for him to talk to. You played nice knowing he probably wouldn’t be coming around after this anyways

“You haven’t called me Con,” he replied as he looked at you, “You’re wearing my hoodie?” he said in a way where it sounded like a question, but you couldn’t decipher if it was a question for you or himself.

You looked at him and pressed your lips together and sighed, “What are you doing here Conrad? You haven’t spoken to me in almost a year,” you replied, looking at him waiting for his answer

“Did I mess up with us Y/N?” Conrad asked as he avoided eye contact with you and looked anywhere but you. There goes that feeling again, it was that slight feeling of hope you felt thinking that there was a time where Conrad did see you as more than just his friend or neighbor even. Maybe there was something that could be fixed, maybe this time he would finally pick you.

“What do you mean mess up with us?” You questioned, but in your head you wanted him to answer with what you’ve been waiting to hear for years now.

This time Conrad’s eyes met yours, he wasn’t avoiding your eyes now and this felt like this would be the moment. The feeling in your chest slowly moved to your stomach, the fact that looking at him still gave you butterflies surprised you, but didn’t at the same time. You knew the feelings you had for Conrad would always be there, this time you thought you just buried it deep enough it wouldn’t rise up again. Who knew all it would take was one look at you?

“Our friendship Y/N. I feel like last summer was a mistake between us,” he replied.

And there it was, but you weren’t gonna let him think you were disappointed with what he said. You looked at him and tilted your head like you were questioning what he said, causing him to continue on with what he was saying. His eyes flickered from looking at you and at your lips but at that point you felt like your heart just dropped to your stomach, or like someone ripped your heart out of your chest.

You felt sick having to listen go on about how he should’ve never done anything with you that summer, “Conrad you don’t have to keep going, I know you like Belly,” you spoke interrupting him, “And I get it you regret having done anything with me last summer, and I’m sorry if this sounds rude but again why are you here?” You asked genuinely

“I miss you Y/N, but as my best friend.” Conrad replied

You sighed, knowing exactly where this conversation was going to lead but you swallowed your pride to let him hear what he needed to, “I miss you too Conrad,” you replied putting your hand on his and rubbing them in reassurance. He put his other hand on top of yours and did the same.

“Do you think we can start over? Just Y/N and Conrad again?” He asked

You nodded, even if it was the last thing you ever wanted to agree to, but maybe you’ll always just stay on his backburner.