unloveable

a collection of my poetry and favorite quotes and the story of you

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12.10

like everything we’ve gone through for the past eight years turns out it’s all for nothing all of the love and loss and heart break and coming together again  it’s all just ended i feel hollow like the possibility  for love was at the tip of my fingers and it’s all just been ripped out of my hands, but I did the ripping

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12.10

We just had the talk the i don’t love you anymore talk he took the words right out of my mouth before I could work up the guts to say them he did all the hard work all of the emotion that we’ve been building  for the past couple months gone in a day a mutual falling out how does one not hurt after falling out of love it went away so quickly,  just like it had happened in the first place you don’t really realize it  until you accept it

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4.13.19

i search for happiness in the bottoms of shot glasses and nights spent drinking  to forget my losses

losses of happiness losses of bright days i feel myself creeping closer and closer to the edge not afraid to fall off

i almost anticipate the fall the finality of being normal to finally have something  not so typical not so comfortable yet comforting

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12.23

You helped me remember what happiness felt like when I was trying to come out of my lowest point you grabbed my hand and lifted me out you helped me remind myself that I could be happy and that i didn’t need to rely on anyone for it that i could depend on myself to fuel the smile i’ve been feeling really low and depressed lately i keep remembering how happy i was with you all i want is to see you to remind myself that this pain isn’t forever and it will end soon

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12.20

“wait for someone who tells strangers about you” you used to talk to strangers about me like it was the most normal thing you’d meet an old Russian couple and tell them all about the love we held and how you were scared to lose me

you would call me after to share with me the advice and wisdom they gave and how you really could talk to them for hours i hoped that would be us one day giving kind words to a young soul lost and looking for direction in love

I used to tell strangers of you like i was so excited for what we could be i had it all planned out no fear of what might go wrong just faith that it would all turn out okay

but then the worst thing happened and all of the talking and the dreaming ended you still talk to strangers about me but instead of a great love potential it turned out to be a great love loss

[write-over-it]

oh my god i think you did it again don’t make me feel like im not making sense there you go im just a fool in the end you made it a competition i can’t win

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12.6

it’s 7:23 pm and your name pops up on my phone i have to take a second look three years of silence after two of pain and torture why now? why me? “you probably don’t want to hear from me but” you should have stopped typing after that and realized you’re right, and I don’t. you shouldn’t have pressed send but you did once again only thinking of yourself and no one else my chest aches again is this my body’s natural reaction to you? or am i just so confused, this was the response

[write-over-it]

goodbye, love a summer flame the time has come the flame, you’ve now blown out a crying kiss a last goodbye

[sheikh-that-ass]

[tackled]

[artisticlog-deactivated20231213]

Time heals everything ✨

[write-over-it]

a crying kiss

you place your hand on the handle

a tear comes to my eye

i try so hard to fight it

to throw up walls to protect myself

and as you close the door behind you

i can barely hold myself up

the earthquake of you hits

[softnectar]

You can want a man but you don’t need him

[princesstigerbelle]

If cats knew what sin was they wouldn’t even care

[blackpyrefly]

I don’t care either fuck trigonometry

[write-over-it]

[write-over-it]

you taught me to remember what happiness felt like

how to stay present, get out of my head,

and bask in the joy that it is to be with you

now you're gone, and i’m here

tears falling onto the keys of my piano

you taught me to remember what sadness feels like

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Saturn

you taught me the courage

to let my walls fall down

without even realizing

how rare and beautiful it is

to let yourself be seen

and to explore someone so easily

light carries on endlessly

i never feared letting you in

for there was never any judgement

you just understood

with shortness of breath

i watched you walk out the door

one last time

we existed

so beautifully in time 

for just one summer

come and gone so soon