"... I'm scared," he said. His hushed voice wavered as he gripped the sleeve of my sweater, his face inches from my ear. I didn't smile. I couldn't bring myself to feel any joy from this. But it had to be done; we both knew that.
"It's okay," I said, monotonous as ever. Too monotonous for what I was about to do. “I'll take good care of you. I promise. It won't hurt; you'll barely feel a thing.” I felt him nod; then, a single tear fell onto my shoulder. It soaked into my sweater.
"Okay," he said, voice uncertain and shaky. "I trust you."
"Good,” I said. I tried to smile, but I really couldn’t. “Good boy.” I kissed right behind his ear.
I slowly plunged the knife into his chest, listening as it ripped his button-down, then his skin. I pushed and pushed until it came out the other side of his torso. I shushed him, but the only sounds he made were small gasps that faded into gurgles as his blood filled his lungs. It dripped onto my shoulder, mixing with newly fallen tears as it slowly flowed down my torso. His grip on my shirt tightened as I twisted the knife.
“See?” I said, dropping the knife. “Painless.” He smiled, and I saw the light fade from his eyes as he stopped making noise. Blood poured from his wound, and I didn't dare look down. My smile fell as more tears rolled down my cheeks, falling and mixing with the blood.
I had never felt this way after a murder. It made sense, though; I had never murdered my brother before.














