34 - Are We Still Good? (Part One)
“Good Morning,” Rakim said as Robyn groggily answered the door. He looked at her visibly fatigued physique as she rubbed her tired eyes.
She wore a scarf around the top of her head and a oversized black and white t-shirt. Rakim had come over to get her because she wanted to go to brunch with him but that plan seemed to be falling through seeing as though he told her he’d be over in an hour and she wasn’t even remotely close to being ready.
They weren’t quite back to being on the right path however they were making small steps to get there. Rocky chose to do things with her to ensure to her that he really did still want them to work and that he really did still love her.
“I thought you said you’d be here in an hour.” She said letting him in and walking off to her room. She yawned maybe three times in that short trip.
“Its been an hour Robyn..”
She ran her hands over her face once again..
“I’m sorry Rocky.. I’ve been so damn tired lately and I felt sick last night.. I don’t know what’s wrong with me.”
“You’ve probably been working too damn much. I told you about that Robyn.. When your body is telling you to stop you need to stop.. You know every time you over work yourself you get sick.”
“I know babe.. I just want to get this over with as fast as possible so I’m trying to rush the process.”
“Don’t do that and lose out on shit though Rih and damn sure don’t risk your health for this dub ass nigga…..You gotta give him equal treatment.” He couldn’t believe he was saying that but it was true. Robyn needed to give Derek the same fighting chance she gave him, especially if it meant her putting Kill behind bars.
“I know… I just don’t want to put a strain on anything I have with you again… This separation shit we’ve been going through. It killed me.”
“That separation had nothing to do with him at the end of the day Rih. You caused that between us. I wanted you to separate from me to see what you wanted. I didn’t and still don’t give a fuck about what that nigga wants or what he needs. Everything I do for us is because I want you to be happy, you understand me?”
“Yeah, I understand..” she said looking off to the side. She held the back of her neck and shook her head.
“I feel so fucking tired and sick. I just feel anxious I guess.”
“Did you take something?”
“Yeah I took something.” She said going to sit down on the sofa.
“You still wanna go to brunch? I mean I can make you something if you want.”
She turned down her face at him.
“What you mean can I cook, Rih? Of course I can.. I think?”
“You think isn’t a good enough answer..” She said chuckling.
“I can cook Robyn.. See you just challenged me. Now I gotta do it.” He said walking over towards her kitchen. He rummaged through her kitchen to see what he could find. Robyn sat down on the sofa and checked her emails as he did so. She was supposed to be meeting Nicole for lunch and to meet her to try on wedding dresses and bridesmaids dresses. She was excited for Nicole but also a little concerned. She knew Nicole got easily overwhelmed if she felt like she wasn’t good enough for a man and Robyn didn’t want that to happen while she was looking for a wedding dress to marry the man of her dreams.
“What the hell are you burning over there?”
Robyn said noticing an odor of something burning sneak up in her nose.
“Nothing Rih, I told you I can cook…”
“You’re fucking burning a pan with nothing in it Rocky… Are you sure you don’t wanna just go out and get something?”
Rakim looked at the pan and then at her. He reluctantly agreed that this wasn’t going as planned.
“Fine, lets just postmates some shit.”
“You sure? I know you were excited to attempt to make me breakfast..” She said sarcastically.
“Yeah its good, I’d rather eat something I know tastes good..” Rakim said picking Robyn up by her legs and sitting her on the counter. She let out a small shriek and his unexpected gesture and grabbed on to his neck. She instantly felt chills come over her body. They hadn’t touched like this in almost a month. She was yearning for his touch and body. She not only wanted him, she desperately needed every inch of him to devour her in only a way he could. He looked up at her and she knew her breathing had increased.
He looked her in her eyes with a deep look of lust. They both wanted to say words but it was too much in the air for them to consider it.
Rocky grabbed the side of her neck and gently placed his lips against her ear. The hairs on the back of her neck got stiff and she could feel her girl throb between her thighs.
“You good?” He whispers on her ear.
She let out a deep breath and then shook her head yes, even though she was completely not okay.
She turned his head towards her lips and passionately but slowly kissed him just to tease him because she knew he was trying to tease her. She forced her tongue into his mouth and gently tugged at his bottom lip all why moaning to really make him lose control.
He pulled his head back and looked at her. He licked his lips and then smiled.
She smiled as she looked him up and down.
“I love you more..”
“You just saying that cause you wet as fuck?”
She rolled her eyes as she prepared to tell her next lie.
He cocked his head back in surprise.
“Oh really?” He said as he slid his hands between her thighs and teased her as his finger tips brushed across her wet flesh.
She sighed as he did so and quickly tightened her thighs so that she didn’t give in as quickly as he wanted her to.
“You just saying that because I got your full attention?” She said reaching her down his pants and grabbing at what was hers.
He flinched at her actions and quickly grabbed her hand.
“Chill out, cause you starting stuff you not gonna wanna finish. You got places to be after this.”
“Those things can wait..”
“Not if Nicole is gonna be on my ass about you being late or not showing up cause of me.”
“I don’t have to meet her until 3 though..” She said pouting.
“And it’s 12 right now and you haven’t eaten nor have you showered..”
She sighed and then looked at him.
“Why are you avoiding this Rocky? Are you still mad at me? Is this some type of punishment?”
“No Rih, I’m not still mad at you.. I just don’t want you to be late.”
“That’s just never stopped you before…”
He nodded his head in agreement. She was right about that for sure.
“Do you have something?” She asked.
“Fuck no Robyn, don’t try me on no shit like that.”
“Then you’ve got to still be mad at me, because there’s no real plausible explanation Rocky.”
“Rocky I’m sorry okay? Im sorry for hurting you but I can’t lose you. I’m addicted to you in every way, you don’t understand. Everytime we make love it feels like the first time. It’s so blissful and to know that we share a connection beyond sex makes it even better. I love you because finally I feel like I found a man who adores me more than I adore myself and those are words my grandma told me to live by. You give me that. I don’t want to hurt you again, I’m sorry.”
“I know you’re sorry Robyn and I’m not holding this shit against you, okay? Don’t think that at all. I love you, okay?” He said grabbing the side of her face. He could tell she was on the verge of tears and he didn’t expect nor want that. She nodded her head and looked up at him.
“I love you too.” She said before turning her head away.
She turned and looked at him and then pecked him on his lips. He wasn’t letting her let up on him that easy however. He grabbed her by her waist and pulled her in tighter giving her a kiss equal to the ones he gave her when they shared their first kiss. The ones she tells him she thinks about when he’s not there.
Rocky wasn’t the type to let up just because he had gotten the girl he wanted. Even though Robyn and him had just gotten over a rough patch in their relationship, he wanted her to know that the passion & desire he had for her the first day he laid eyes on her and fell in love was still burning in his soul.
She moaned as she always did when she was feeling as though she couldn’t handle it anymore.
He picked her up and latched her legs around his waist. He carried her back to her bedroom and cleared her bed on the messy sheets and laid her flat on it. As much as he had tried to deny her advances earlier, he couldn’t lie that he had been yearning for her body as well. He kissed her neck for a few moments before stripping himself of his bomber jacket and t-shirt and assessing her body as if he had never seen it before. He wanted to explore her inside out and make sure that after this was over she was satisfied.
He leaned down and lifted the large tshirt she was wearing over her head.
“Beautiful..” He said looking over her body once more before devouring her whole being inside and out, with no remorse and through her pleasure filled wails and sensual shrieks.
“And you’re late because?” Nicole said as she stood outside of the bridal salon located in Manhattan.
“I’m sorry.. I- there’s no explanation.” Robyn said walking up to her and opening the door of the salon. The bells to alert the employees that someone was entering the salon rang.
“Welcome to La Mariée, do you have an appointment or are you here to try on gowns?”
“I’m just here to try on a few options. I spoke with Candice on the phone to help me out.” Nicole said.
“Okay, let me get Candice for you. You all can have a seat right here and I’ll go grab you ladies some champagne while you wait.”
“Thank you.” Both of the ladies said in unison. They took a seat on the lush black bench.
“There’s a reason you were late. What is it? Still moping about Rakim?”
“I wasn’t necessarily moping…about him.”
Nicole rolled her eyes.
“I’m supposed to be the one known for being late because I’m doing that not you! We can’t switch roles!”
Robyn laughed and Nicole found herself joining in.
“How did this make up happen?” Nicole asked.
“He just came over and we talked about it and yeah..” Robyn said veering off.
“Boring. There’s absolutely no juice to this story.”
The girl returned to the front and handed them both glasses of champagne and informed them that Candice would be right with them.
Robyn took a sip of her champagne and then looked at Nicole.
“I don’t know what else you want from me Nic. I can’t really explain how we made up besides saying he fucked my brains out.”
“I’m sorry.” Rih said laughing.
“In other news, and this includes your trash ass ex boyfriend heads up… Jarrod doesn’t know if he should invite him or not. With you being my maid of honor and all he’s just like he doesn’t want to make you uncomfortable.”
“I don’t really care, Nic. It’s not my wedding. Jarrod is getting married to and he deserves to have all of his friends there too. I’ll just try and keep Rakim and him separated.”
“We’ll have extra security there Rob. My man is a police officer.” She said sticking her tongue out.“
“Nicole?” A slender dark skinned girl with a beautiful head of kinky curls said as she approached the women.
“You must be Candice. Nice to meet you!”
“Nice to meet you as well.”
“I’m Robyn.” She said sticking her hand out.
“Are we looking for the both of you or just for the bride today?”
Robyn shook her head. She was know where near being in the shape she needed to be in for a wedding nor to try on a gown right now.
“Nicole can try a few on, I’ll wait til next time.”
“Okay, I’ve pulled a few gowns like the style you describe over the phone. If you ladies follow me I’ll take you back and you can start trying them on.”
Both Nicole and Robyn stood up and followed Candice back to an area that housed a three way mirror and a platform. There were other women in the area trying on dresses as well but the dressing rooms were exclusive to whoever was getting dressed. Robyn took a seat in one of the available chairs and Nicole followed Candice into the dressing room to try on her first gown.
Robyn used this time to check her phone and respond to a few messages. One of which was from her mother in which she’d be visiting out of town in 3 weeks. Her mother asked if Rakim were coming along, however Robyn hadn’t told her mother about there short separation and how he might not come because of that, but she hadn’t asked Rakim so she just responded with a simple “I’ll let you know.”
Moments later Nicole came out in the first gown which was a beautiful lace embroidered gown with pearl beading and a mermaid fit. It was a sweetheart neckline bust with a rouged waistline and a diamond encrusted emblem on the hip. Robyn wanted to tear up at the fact that her bestfriend was in a wedding gown and actually getting married but she didn’t want Nicole to start crying so she held it in and instead responded,
“Oh my God, Nic… You’re getting married!!!!!!”
“I know!!!!!!” They both screamed in excitement like two school girls.
“Okay okay okay,” Nicole said calming down.
“It’s beautiful!” Robyn said looking at her up and down. “It’s so pretty. I think you’re a little short for it though.”
“Well good thing it’s not my favorite,” Nicole said throwing her hand up. Robyn would always tease Nicole about how vertically challenged she was. There was about a 7 inch height difference between the two of them when they weren’t wearing heels.
Nicole headed back to the dressing room to try on another gown. Robyn returned back to looking at random things on her phone almost completely dazed out of what had been going on around her.
She snapped out of her daze and looked up.
“Nice to see you… In a bridal shop?”
She laughed, “For my bestfriend.. Not me. Good to see you too. Isn’t it bad luck to see your bride before the big day?”
“Not when you’re paying for it and you have to make sure your fiancé realizes your only going into your second year in the league. I’m good but I’m not getting paid like Odell or anything..”
“Ah I see, well the wedding is soon isn’t it?”
“Three months.. I think she’s making it harder than its supposed to be because of what she does or not.”
“Probably..” Robyn smiled.
“What’s been going on with you? Same guy?”
“Same guy, same job, same life.” She said shrugging.
“You good? You don’t seem like yourself..”
“I’m fine, I’ve just been really tired lately.. nothing a vacation can’t fix.”
“Oh really? Where you going?”
“An island hopefully. I haven’t decided.”
“Well that’s sounds great.. I-”
“Baby!!!” Salem, his fiancé said as she approached the two of them.
“This is Robyn… She’s a friend of mine..”
Robyn smirked at the girls remarks. She was a tad bit insecure, and Robyn couldn’t blame her. Because of course there used to be something there between Mychal and Robyn, but he girls insecurities showed much more than they should have.
“Robyn I’ll see you later. It was nice seeing you.” Mychal quickly said as he dragged his fiancé along.
Robyn couldn’t help but laugh. She turned to her phone once again and saw that she had missed a call from Ferg which made her nervous because when he called it usually meant something was wrong with Rakim. She immediately called him back and the two rings before he picked up seemed like forever.
“Hello?” She said before he could even say it.
“Yo rob. We need you to come over here as soon as you can!!”
“What’s going on? Is Rakim okay?”
“He’s fine but he’s angry as fuck I need you to come over here and calm him down cause nothing is working. He’s trying to get his gun and I’m trying to keep him from doing that!”
“Uh okay I’ll be over there as soon as I can just don’t let him leave your house, and don’t let him touch a damn gun, okay?”
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