Oops I'm dizzy and my legs are weak again

25 - She/They ED/OCD NOT PROANA TWs: suicidal ideation, restrictive eating, sh and abuse/neglect. DMs open for any vents/chat but i respond quite slowly sometimes

[wtfamidoing6000]

PLEASE HIDE YOUR LIKES & FOLLOWING. DNI UNLESS YOU DO OR ELSE I HAVE TO BLOCK YOU, SORRY.

[wtfamidoing6000]

i'm done writing now, i'm actually completely fine and completely whimsical other than the crushing and completely justified feeling that i'll never be loved

[wtfamidoing6000]

idk if people start doing better and realise there's nothing to keep me around for or what. it doesn't even matter, i don't care why everyone leaves me i just want to make it better so people won't keep leaving me forever. ugh, what the fuck is the point? i don't know how to make friends, i don't know how to keep friends, i don't know how to be someone's friend. please idk what the fuck to do to make myself fit in anywhere please

[wtfamidoing6000]

god i feel sick to my stomach, everyone who leaves me behind thrives. i want out so bad holy fuck

[wtfamidoing6000]

please don't be judgemental towards people suffering from addiction. you could make this world a better place by listening and supporting without judgement

[wtfamidoing6000]

don't forget your meds today everyone!!

[wtfamidoing6000]

has anyone got a diazepam i can't stop the shaking

[wtfamidoing6000]

i feel like i gotta vent so bad omfg

[derangedghost]

Got got again - they're really coming for my ass rn

Reblog to help me find my moots <3

[wtfamidoing6000]

i need to let one of my vices go tbh

[wtfamidoing6000]

if you unironically use the words 'purity testing' then you are probably dumber than you think js

[wtfamidoing6000]

and honestly i can't even express how grateful i am to anyone who's ever taken the time to read my thoughts and to understand me. every one of your perspectives is so valuable, everywhere you take them.

sometimes people message me and say they've connected with one of my posts or several or them. if you even feel that (whether you have told me or not!!) then you are the people who make this world less lonely for people like us. you are all so precious and i promise this isn't as lonely here as your lowest moments would have you think

[wtfamidoing6000]

everyone i interact with here is so fucking pure, it makes me so sad that you have all suffered so much. god if i could take the bullshit from your lives then i swear i would. you people all have such kind hearts. ily all, seriously. thank you for being yourselves.

[wtfamidoing6000]

hahaha sorry i've not talked to you for 7 years but i said something kinda cringe the last time we interacted and i haven't been able to face up to the embarrassment yet

[wtfamidoing6000]

i fully support recovery, but deep down i'm not sure if i help people get worse or not

[dysphoria-things]

if eating three balanced meals a day at regular times makes you gain weight then maybe you were meant to gain weight

[wtfamidoing6000]

i honestly wish i could just speak to people without being however the fuck i am lol