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callum. 18.

[devonhilliker]

I’m not fit to be a mother.

[wtfcallum-blog]

No, you are. Just hold him the other way, D.

[devonhilliker]

God… They’re gonna think she’s their mom and they’re gonna hate me… and…and look Cal he’s kicking me… he hates me already. They’re gonna hate me. I can’t be a mom.

[wtfcallum-blog]

No, they know you. Sh, no, he's just mad. He doesn't like being held like that. Y'gotta hold him upside down with his face lookin' at the ground.

[devonhilliker]

Lydia?

[wtfcallum-blog]

Short, brown hair, likes to skateboard. She's like my only friend besides you. She helped with them a lot when you weren't here. 

[devonhilliker]

I dunno.

I like you sometimes. M’glad I didn’t die. It’s stupid that they didn’t let you visit me. They’re stupid. Well, now I’ll be the one taking care of the clones, so.

[wtfcallum-blog]

I like you sometimes, too. I wouldda been mad if you died, Lydia wasn't very willing to help me with these things. They'd probably die. Nuh-uh, not by yourself. You'd die.

[devonhilliker]

Let’s just be glad the wall wasn’t purple or something.

Gray is a good name. I like it. I missed you.

[wtfcallum-blog]

Who would paint a wall purple?

I thought you would hate it. He's gonna have to be named after a color his whole life, poor kid. I missed you too, a bunch. They did, too. Stupid things wouldn't stop crying. They don't have an off button, it sucks.

[devonhilliker]

So you’ve got Kinley. Kay’. Uh.. here. [hands him a little bracelet thingy that’s pink] Put it around her ankle. We’ll know she’s Kinley cause it’s pink.. and she’s a girl.

C’mon dork, it can’t be that bad. 

[wtfcallum-blog]

Huh? [he dropped the bracelet good job cal] Lydia painted her toes. 

Nuh-uh, you're gonna hate it. I didn't have anything, and we never talked about his name, and I just looked at the wall and picked the color of the wall, 'cause I didn't know, and now he's named after a stupid wall, and his name is Gray.

[devonhilliker]

[the baby like kicks her] Nope. This is the boy. Did we name them?

[wtfcallum-blog]

Well, I did. I remembered you'd told me what you wanted to name her, so I told the doctors that one, but you might not like his name. You were already out by the time they wanted his name... I kinda just... Picked one.

[devonhilliker]

Those… those are them?

[wtfcallum-blog]

Y'huh. I think this one's the girl.

[devonhilliker]

Have you seen Cal? Y’know, tall, blonde, carrying two kids? 

[wtfcallum-blog]

Nope.

[xaspen-longx]

Congrats Cal.

[wtfcallum-blog]

D'you wanna see 'em?

[fcklyd-blog]

Cal, she’s a baby. All she cares about is being tired or wanting food right now.

[wtfcallum-blog]

Right, food. How do I know when they're just tired or if they're hungry? They don't talk.

[fcklyd-blog]

I’m not sure about fingernails, but you can paint her toenails.

[wtfcallum-blog]

Do you think she'd mind?

[fcklyd-blog]

We can get little bracelet tags that have their names on until you can tell the difference. You can do it, Cal, you’ve just got to learn as you go along.

[wtfcallum-blog]

Can you paint Kinley's nails? That's the girl. Do babies have to have special nail polish? Can they even have nail polish?

[fcklyd-blog]

Fine. i’m not permanently babysitting your babies though.

[wtfcallum-blog]

I can't even tell 'em apart and one's supposed to be a boy and one's supposed to be a girl. Lydia. I'm dying here.

[fcklyd-blog]

I don’t think they know what they want either. I guess you just have to try all the options every time.

[wtfcallum-blog]

Help.

[fcklyd-blog]

How’s dadhood going so far?

[wtfcallum-blog]

They keep crying, and I don't know what they want, and it sucks, and I hate it.

[wtfcallum-blog]

So... I guess I'm a dad now. If you wanna see 'em, uh, come ask me first, I guess. I don't know.