my mother already control my life since day one, what else that she want? canât she just let me be? canât she give me some time to think about my future? canât she just wait patiently for me to come around? iâm trying hard to please her, why canât she see it? iâm even having a hard time to wake up in the morning and be thankful that iâm alive, but the first thing i hear after i wake up is how useless i am. canât you just understand me without me telling you all my issues? it is not that i want you to understand all my issues, just understand that i have issues that i need to deal with, and wait patiently. i know iâm just useless piece of shit, wasting my fatherâs money to feed me. can you just wait patiently until i disappeared?









