matters of the heart.

[wyhh]

What love is this?

That you gave Your life for me And made a way for me to know You. And I confess, You’re always enough for me You’re all I need.

[wyhh]

It's been on my heart-

Devote yourselves to prayer with an alert mind and a thankful heart. Pray for us, too, that God will give us many opportunities to speak about his mysterious plan concerning Christ. That is why I am here in chains. Pray that I will proclaim this message as clearly as I should. Live wisely among those who are not believers, and make the most of every opportunity. Let your conversation be gracious and attractive so that you will have the right response for everyone. (Colossians 4:2-6 NLT)

[ravenargentine]

[wyhh]

I love this.

Yes, everything else is worthless when compared with the infinite value of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have discarded everything else, counting it all as garbage, so that I could gain Christ and become one with him. I no longer count on my own righteousness through obeying the law; rather, I become righteous through faith in Christ. For God’s way of making us right with himself depends on faith. (Philippians 3:8, 9 NLT)

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[wyhh]

My life is getting too crowded and cluttered and just loud if that makes sense. Time to cut stuff. "Captivate us Lord Jesus Set our eyes on You Devastate us with your presence falling down Rushing river draw us nearer Holy fountain consume us with you Captivate us Lord Jesus And let everything be lost in the shadows Of the light of Your face Let every chain be broken from me As I'm bound in Your grace For Your yoke is easy, Your burden is light You're full of wisdom, power and might And every eye will see You"

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[wyhh]

After a lot of traveling these past couple days and two strenuous days of adjusting to a new job, I am home and soooo READY for a hot shower and settling down with the Word afterwards!!

[coral]

[wyhh]

Things that I would like to do in the near future: -learn how to be more of a leader -be a warrior of God -know my purpose, LIVE my purpose -make cards and do the drive thru challenge -learn how to cook -learn how to not be angry, prideful and boastful -learn how to truly forgive -be completely dependent on God -study -keep my vision of spreading the gospel to people around me -meet more people -be more social -pray more -love more -worship more.

[wyhh]

ah.

today has been so so sad. 

after church i went to jp's to study. instead of being motivated and cheerful like i thought i would be, i got intensely sad. i sat in the arm chair in the living room, slouched over, just fighting and trying my hardest not to cry. 

God, i am so frustrated. why does this have to happen? i guess no one ever said it would be easy, this whole surrendering business. i just wish i didn't have to surrender my best friend. 

although, when i get sad like this, i try to think about how he wouldn't have time for me anyway. it wasn't a real friendship and it wasn't a real relationship. everytime he gets busy like this, with rugby, school, jobs, whatever- i'm always the first to go. its the same thing every time. i think i deserve more than this. 

i want and will always stand by the fact that i want a man who loves God, who can lead me in Christ. who will GET what i mean when i say that. who will not only willingly but longingly want to lead me, want to have that responsibility of helping to keep the fire alive in my life. 

obviously, jed is not that person at this moment. whether or not we will find ourselves back together down the road is all up to You, Lord. 

its so hard to just surrender. to just give up. to stop talking to the person i've talked to every day for the past four years. 

i am excited though, to see how God will work in my life once He has first priority. it will be new, unchartered territory. 

though i'm angry at jed, i need to let it go. i need to let him go. 

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[wyhh]

so this is what i've learned-

nothing lasts forever, relationships are stupid until you're old enough for marriage to be a possibility.

i've reached that part in the healing process, where everything love related makes me angry and bitter.

i'm done feeling the way i've felt- no one will ever make me feel this way ever again. i've been pathetic in so many ways, a girl can only take so much. this girl has had enough.

my grades show where my emotions have led me this semester. i can't afford to do this anymore. so i won't.

you want me to be strong? here we go- i don't think you're strong enough to handle my strength.

watch out worldd

[troubled]

In your life, you meet people. Some you never think about again. Some, you wonder what happened to them. There are some that you wonder if they ever think about you. And then there are some you wish you never had to think about again. But you do.

C. S. Lewis (via troubled)

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[love-theonlyrule]

“Four years ago I was just a guy who had a crush on a girl who had a boyfriend. And I had to do the hardest thing I ever had to do, which was just to wait. Don’t get me wrong I flirted with her. Pam, I can now admit in front of friends and family that I do know how to make a photocopy. I didn’t need your help that many times. And do you remember how long it took you to teach me to drive stick? (Pam: Like a year). I’ve been driving stick since high school. For a really long time that’s all I had. Little moments with a girl who saw me as a friend. And a lot of people told me I was crazy to wait this long for a date with a girl who I worked with, but I think, even then I knew, I was waiting for my wife.”

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[wyhh]

yeeah so i haven't been facing it.

every chance i get to act like his girlfriend- i take it. its been exhausting because all we do is fight about it. so many issues have come up in just the past weekend that we have finally reached the point where we just have to stop talking. i have been absolutely pathetic through this whole thing. where is my backbone? where are my balllssss. 

i need to man up and just trust in God. i need to stop this whining and complaining and being sorrowful over the loss of my boyfriend. my plan is to run away from jed and into the arms of my Father. i know its going to be hard because i have never experienced truly depending on God and God alone, but i know i can do it and i know it will happen. i just have to seek, and i have to search. 

I've been reading a lot about how God is not interested in circumstances and changing them so that i will be comfortable, but He is interested in changing my character to become stronger and more Christ-like. this is what i should focus on-changing. I can't keep this attitude up, i can't continue to think that my world is ending because a boy is gone. i can't keep thinking that this is all to harm me and that it is to make me sad, because it is not. God will never take someone away without bringing someone to replace that person. Marcia was telling me about how God really provided for her after she broke up with Abe and i am confident that He will provide for me in this situation. 

right now, i just need to focus on other things- keep my mind off of him, not talk to him and just FOCUS. i can do this, i just need to be committed.