wyyoobin:
Ahh… ( `the girl listened intently to the other’s words, taking them in and nodding as if to show her attentiveness though the other could not see her ) You can call me Binnie, unnie~ ( `hesitant to give her out her first name though it was a pretty common name to begin with, a small but nervous smile tugs at the corner of her lips and she blinks a few times, looking into the chat for herself ) I guess that you are right… about everything. I should not be bothered by what others think and I should radiate confidence on my own. If you don’t mind me asking, unnie, how did you become so confident? It must be scary to broadcast like this each day in front of thousands of viewers. ( `she taps her index finger against her chin and cocks her head to one side, humming quietly ) Are there ever times where you become self conscious in front of your audience? How do you combat feeling like that if you do?
{` unsurprisingly, Twitch Chat was spamming various emojis and:
[ md**** ] girl girl girl [ sa***** ] GRIL [ jo****** ] GRIL MONKAS
Yunhee half rolled her eyes at the rapidly sending messages but her lips form into a little smile, also sharing the thrill of a guest who was female. Eyes blink quickly in succession before focusing back on her computer’s camera at the mention of the other’s name. } A pleasure to meet you, Binnie-ah! Sorry for asking your name so late into the conversation. { ` shoulders raised up as she squirmed happily in her plush computer chair, adoring the honorific. It was all too rare to hear it. } Confidence takes a long time to build up, so don’t get discouraged with yourself if you take one step back, but always remember to take at least one step forward in due time. I’m actually pretty introverted, enjoying “wind down” time by myself more often than not, and with streaming there is a sort of disconnect. I don’t actually see the faces of my audience as we are not physically in the same room. If I were up on stage during a tournament or giving some sort of Keynote lecture, that would be a completely different story. { ` Yunhee’s nose scrunches as she grimaces, feeling a tinge of cringe just even imagining it. } If I misspeak, mess up a play in a game, or make an unintentional dumb face or reaction, it would be a normal gut feeling to be embarrassed, face turning red or even become defensive, but I’ve learned to laugh at myself. Laughing at myself, or with the audience, allows me to brush it off. Sure, it might end up in a highlight video on my channel, or clipped to Twitch, and we all know the internet is forever, but it is something to laugh at by the end of the day. Being in the public eye gets nerve wracking sometimes, but you always have people who stick by you, but in return, people leave you. You can’t make everybody happy, so you just have to make sure that you make yourself happy.
