There is so much controversy around becoming a teen mum. People have many questions along with a TON of judgment. "You know this will ruin your life" Yes someone actually said this to me. But in all matter of fact, I am just living MY life. Becoming pregnant at 16 wasn't planned, as you would imagine, but there wasn't regret. Our lives take on many different paths, opening a new chapter and a new beginning every day. You are always where you are meant to be, and in this case my road turned down what you might call a high speed roller coaster with the loops and steep hills, the steep climbs and falls, no one to let you off the ride, you just hold on and keep looking forward, and roll through the punches. Not to be dramatic, but it was indeed the biggest adventure of my life.
My first baby was Aurora, Aurora Harmony Burnett. Nothing planned me for what was about to come of my life. I left home when I was 16, where I began living with my current partner. Things were far from easy, and I was struggling mentally to cope with my relationships from family and friends. Friendships began to quickly disappear, I felt like I was deteriorating inside and out. I soon became pregnant, and ALL the emotions flooded in. I was happy, excited, nervous, unsure, worried about what people would say, pretty much everything x 10. 'Pregnant at 16' has to be something that is very frowned upon, and people hardly take a minute to listen, and be supportive. Thankfully, my partners family was supportive of our decision, although I still had no idea how to explain this to my family. I already felt like a burden, then I had to prepare myself to drop this bomb on them. At first, it wasn’t taken lightly, but eventually they came around to the idea. The next stage was the most difficult. Where would we stay? Can we afford the costs that come with having a baby? I was AGAIN worried about what people might think, but I knew it doesn't matter one f*cking bit. This was MY life, MY body, MY choice. AND you shouldn't kick yourself over another’s opinion of yourself, the only opinion that matters is your own, NO ONE knows you better than yourself, and you are the only one who will be there by your side at the end of the day when everyone else leaves. When you are 16, you are still learning and growing yourself, but I couldn't imagine a life other than the one I live now. Giving birth to Aurora changed every aspect of my life, nothing can prepare you for motherhood. I became so incredibly overwhelmed. I was confronted by ALL the fun things that come with postpartum. Stitches where you least want them, breastfeeding, cracked nipples, pain everywhere, extreme tiredness, nausea, WHILST running around to appointments dealing with Centrelink and the list goes on. I read none of the books and didn't go to any of the parenting classes, I basically just dived head first into the deep end. I was hit with the baby blues, everyone wanting to spend time with the baby, family feeling left out, whilst also just wanting to spend every single moment holding my baby. My mental health deteriorated, SHOKKER!! I was filled with anxiety and sadness. I felt like the biggest burden to everyone, struggling with my self-image, struggling to maintain relationships, had no friends to turn to, boy does the list go on. I was trying my best to be a good mother, whilst trying to keep my sanity in check. But, life goes on. And even though I was at a low point in my life, I had Aurora, the sweetest, most loving, curious little human that I made all by myself (with a bit of help tho obviously), she gave me strength and a reason to live. She was my will to go on and person to fight for. I gave her life and she gave me a new one.
As soon I had Aurora I remember saying "NO MOREEE" "I only want one child", okay we can all just have a laugh about that now, because my clucky ass decided one would eventually become TWO. Then there was Archer. Archer Kai Burnett. I was unsure about having a boy, but oh man, I fell so in love with him the first time I saw him. I never wanted that moment to end. And just when you thought life with one child was hectic, HAHAHA, two babies are a whole different ball game. So, life became FULL ON. I was hardly sleeping, up constantly feeding Archer, trying to look after his needs, trying to look after the needs of a crazy toddler, keeping the house as tidy as I can, cook breakfast/lunch/dinner, try shower, make sure i didn’t get mastitis AND more more more. Literally us mums/dads are on demand 24/7. And thankfully my partner has always been there to help me along the way. I basically had no social life and haven’t felt comfortable leaving the house on my own with two babies to catch public transport somewhere, although we do go on walks when we can. But I love spending time with both the kids, as they are my world and these days are as fleeting as anything.
Being a young mum has it struggles, but so does being a mum at any age. We are doing the same thing, just at a different stage in our lives. Instead of doing what most young people do, going out drinking on the weekends, or spontaneous beach trips and all that, I’m raising two miniature humans, where I go they go. Leaving the house isn't as easy as picking up your keys and phone then bobs your uncle and you're on your way. You need to tie ropes around your house and bring it with you. Not quite literally, but it feels like that some days. Motherhood has changed me. It's changed my perspective on life. It has made me who I am today and given me purpose.
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