Hello, Beautiful

☮ ♫ We are the pretty ones who want to get you high. We smoke the finest green to forget & a pack and a half a day to keep the pain away. The damaged ones are the most dangerous. We know we can survive. I love you. I hate you. I'd say go to hell, but I never want to see you again. The beauty in pain is the smile that reminds us exactly what we loved the most. The tragedy in pain is loving someone so inconstant, and the monsters we become after missing one for so long. Speak easy. Life is the longest stroll we will take.

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happy heavenly birthday 🥺

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[nxkdeep]

flowerbomb // the amity affliction 

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Oh yea lol

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If it wasn’t my dads gun

My father bought me my first gun. We shot many different guns. I wasn’t sure what we were getting into until I shot 4 headshots in a row. That’s the gun we knew was best for me. Thats the gun I use to protect myself, my family and friends.

I keep it close. Ive had opportunities. But I am careful.

For obviously many reasons.

Im also suicidal. But i could never. Not with my fathers gifted gun.

But i want out. Im ready to go. My time is coming to an end. But I could never with my fathers gun.

I do not wear a seatbelt.

I do not try

I do not want to.

I

Want

To

Die

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I never stopped loving you

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I’ll never forget you

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Its been four years and I can’t scream loud enough that it should’ve been me. I pray for your daughter and your family so often. I’m sorry, Kelsey. You never deserved this. I know the angels are taking magnificent care of you and are watching over your beautiful daughter. I hope she’s okay. I know she’s okay.

I’ll never understand why your story ended where it did. You had so many chapters to write. I guess life just has its way of ending things but damnit... if I could take your spot I would. God bless your daughter and family and I can’t wait to talk to you about this. See you one day, Beautiful Angel. 🥺💜

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#nomore

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no one is gonna hurt me or the innocent lives around me ever again. #saveourchildren #justiceforkelsey #nolivesmatter #getright #noonereallywins

All is fair in love and war.

Semper Fi.

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Running..out..of strength. What’s the fucking point anymore ?

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If you ever feel so low to the point to where you think being with a human being that does this to another human being is okay….it’s not. It’s never okay. You deserve better. You deserve to treat yourself better…I learned the longer you stay in a toxic relationship the less you think of yourself anymore…. for the past almost two years I haven’t known who I am anymore. I’ve been in this dark pit thinking it was bright and I was actually getting somewhere….moved out of moms…started a life with my EX boyfriend… brought my dog with me…the whole fairly tale little house… the charming “I’ll take care of you,” “you won’t have to worry about a thing..”….. he liked to drink. A lot. So I did too. So i wouldn’t remember our fights. I hated them. I dreaded them. I always had a sick feeling the morning of every night we’d argue. Arguing lead to hitting. Hitting lead to punching, and smacking, and fracturing my arm and putting me in the hospital. So… that’s when I was forced to decide enough was enough.. and I guess I’m glad I was forced because I would have never left. I don’t know why. I felt like he was all I had left. Which he basically was. I lost all my friends. My family started to distance from me. I didn’t feel I could talk to anyone. I thought maybe one day it’d stop. Maybe one day he’d really love and care like he’d say. But no. They dont. People like him don’t change after they get the taste of blood… if he says he’ll stop. No. Go. Before it’s too late. Humans like this don’t deserve multiple chances. They lie…they don’t care. Do what’s good for you and yourself alone. So anyways hey guys sorry I haven’t been allowed to talk to anyone. ***it took everything in me to post this. Weeks later I am some what okay to talk about it. These pictures were (obviously) taken in 2015. It is 2020. Ever since I dealt with a man who handled me this way I lost anything and everything. Nothing has been normal. Normality is a dream. This was 2015. I’ve lost so much since 2015. I am talking about this openly now....

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Oh fuck

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can’t wait

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why

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I WISH I SAVED YOU

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Dear Kelsey,

One year ago we lost a soul;; that was so kind and so full. A mother and a daughter. A loved one to her father.

We will never forget you. I will never forget you. I wish I could have saved you, I wish it had been me. Not to sound Suicidal, or depressed of some sort. but you were worth So Much More... You had an entire life ahead of you, Your baby and all...... And some stupid ass spic... Took it all.

I wish I  could have taken that bullet for you, because I would have. Babygirl, you had an entire life ahead of you. I did not. you had a child. i did not, You have a great family and You had a great future... I did not. Your life meant so much to so many people around you. You were a caring and loving spirit.. And still are. We feel you. I just wish it had been me. Not you, you did not deserve this. I hope Heaven is good to you. Because you were beautiful to this world.

 So Heaven better look as good as you.

01.29.2017 Rest In Peace Sweet Angel