I Think The Apathy Is Sinking In

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“Well, apparently, I’m not”, he answers back. “Straight that is…”, he says and rolls his eyes for the sake of the mess of this situation. He does feel impatient with Liam, at this point; in a way…in his head…it showed. Most likely, it didn’t (since Liam seemed to be so surprised with it all)  but he definitely needs to stop blaming Liam for that: he decides and lets out a small sigh. “I think that it complicates things if I started telling you about me and my sexuality in that sense, if I actually liked you. If I didn’t face the music now….if you didn’t  throw innuendos, maybe you’d never know”, he admits and suddenly he feels sad about it? Or is he satisfied by it? It’s the first time that he is that drunk and so in tune with his feelings; it’s new and he doesn’t like it.

Alfie stares right into Liam’s eyes; the whole most important person in Liam’s life-what an honor-having that title make him want….to kiss him again. But the moment’s over; but he just could. It felt some kind of way and he liked that? He wasn’t aware that he would have a crush on someone like Liam and actually feel okay and not 100% tortured. Those thoughts didn’t last much when Liam described all that as “just a kiss” & “a silly crush”. Alfie doesn’t know why he lets Liam talk in the first place? But at the same time, he’s glad he’s hearing all that. He’s going to be more open with Liam about it and doesn’t want to hide under a rock like during that past period of time he was crushing on him. “Raincheck?”, he hums, a small smile appears on his face. “I am too drunk for the life of me and I think you’ve learned enough for one day”, he widens his eyes; mostly for himself because if he’d open up in any other case, he wouldn’t say that much.

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     “ okay , ” liam huffs out & he forces himself not to show just how processing this brand new information was slightly overwhelming in that very moment . alf kissed him , confessed a crush on him & told him he wasn’t straight all in a matter of 5 minutes . “ that’s okay ! that you aren’t straight . ” he finds himself saying in hopes of letting alf know that despite liam’s surprise by it all , there was zero judgement here ( obviously , liam wasn’t exactly straight either ) . “ i’m your best friend though , alf     & i mean , who better to talk about those things with than me ?  … i do know though , but that doesn’t mean i’m not    like i’m not going to not be there for you or something . ” the mere thought of alf going through that sort of thing alone makes liam a little … sad . 

     alf doesn’t answer his question about it all just being a silly crush & instead asks for a raincheck . liam absolutely notices that & that has his chest tightening with slight anxiety    fear that things were changing , but not for the better . that’s slightly aggravating ; this newfound anxiety since shit hit the fan with his parents & liam was left out in this concrete jungle alone , it caused him to think the worst in most stressful situations that occured in his life     as such . “ yeah , of course . ” liam answers , trying not to sound like he felt , he also huffs out a chuckle & presses his lips together in a smile . “ i have … learned a lot today . ” he wants to say more ( he talked entirely way too much , naturally ) , but he holds back because alf was done with this conversation & he was right , liam had learned e n o u g h for one day . “ uhm , yeah , okay , ” he forces his feet to move “    we’ll talk tomorrow ? ” liam asks , feeling quite hopeful as he moves towards alf’s office door , opening it & when he’s in the doorway , he pauses for a moment just to look at alf     it really has his emotions going for a loop , but he smiles anyways , offers up a little wave & steps out to rejoin the party .

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     “ i didn’t say it would be ! i just said erin drives me nuts . ” the chuckle tumbles out of wells easily as he says that . “ that’s all . i don’t mind though . we’ll have the disney movies to watch while erin & lisa talk about whatever it is they have a lot to talk about . ” they were planning on a sibling disney movie marathon , but cam was probably right ; erin could talk a lot . too much , even . “ maybe … i really don’t know . sometimes , in my opinion , life & people are just … really fucking sucky , you know ? we get dealt some shitty ass cards & it sucks , but you do need to stay positive . you can’t go on getting all negative , you have too much going for you to sink into that hole . two things some people would kill for : a great ass career & a family . both of which you have , cam . ” wells rambles a little bit , unsure if it even helps cam feel any better . pep talks weren’t his strong suit     it was erin’s . “ uh , we do a lot of shit , to be honest . hit up a bar for some drinks , sometimes a club , laser tag , bowling , the movies , paintballing … whatever the hell we can think of & agree on … yeah , sure … it is a huge thing to put on the table . i feel like she has this image of me as a father that i don’t have just yet … when the time is right maybe i will take her up on that offer    i mean , who knows where i’ll be in five years . may 5th - got it . i’ll put it in my calendar . you gonna have their party on the day or wait until the weekend ? ”

“Alright-so I’ll start prepping the list of the movies on my breaks-so that we can propose a good movie night. So..from the top of my head, if we add Lion King, we put it last, cause...it gets too sad”.  Cameron stays there looking at Wells and he’s almost in awe with the impact he had on him; he already started thinking positively but then again, he had a couple of counter arguments to throw back at him. “You’re right. Or maybe things have turned out this way, so something else would come?”, he pouts thoughtfully. He doesn’t hold back the counter-argument: “Honestly, I don’t feel like I have a family that....my parents have had. I feel like mine...it’s not the way they did it”, he answers. “Yeah, I guess. Or maybe she’s giving you that option whenever you decide to do that”. “5th is actually Saturday-so right on time. Also right on time is that they’re fully obsessed with dates, so they keep reminding me every now and then. They can basically read the calendar and I don’t know if it’s Faye, Lisa or their kindergarten teacher....or well...all three of them”

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     drew watches as vicky talks about her cousin ( aka james’ new romance ) & while she is listening , there’s a part of her that is thinking about how vicky here … has been the woman she was falling in love with the past few months . suddenly she sees vicky so differently than she had before . she doesn’t want to give away too much about her thoughts or how she’s feeling after this surprising reveal , so she tries to keep her poker face on & she has no intentions of letting it falter just yet ; no intentions of showing a l l her cards too quick .

     having been a little lost in thought , drew pulls herself back into the conversation , “ definitely not just because of the present , no . ” she says , amused by her own words & the truth behind them , but those words are followed by a flirty giggle when vicky sticks her tongue out , talking about derek using that emoji . “ oh , trust me when i say that the day james doesn’t share everything with me when he’s dying over something , will be the day hell freezes over . ” if james didn’t vent it out his feelings , thoughts & emotions periodically , she swears he’d blow up or something . 

     there’s a little breath of relief when vicky confirms that she doesn’t see her as her rival anymore either . “ good , ” she says with a grin , bottom lip pulled between her teeth . another giggle tumbles out if her when she sees the surprise on vicky’s face when drew compliments her . “ i know - a lot to get used to , huh ? ” she says lightheartedly . “ of course . we’ll talk it out if it becomes too much … admittedly , i do tend to be quite competitive … obviously … but you’re right it’s a friendly competition now & frankly , i am always down to put on a show . ” she meant this in more ways than one . eyes on her ? she never minded that . “ so … we’re good then … & about that date … have you been to amelie wine bar ? ”

Vicky watches Drew-a moment she’s okay with Drew being her mystery Tinder lady and the next she’s not; it’s too much to assimilate. At least that’s progress, right? “The exact opposite for Derek: when Derek shares everything to me, hell will freeze over”, she giggles nervously, taking into account Drew’s flirty giggle-that kind of drove her insane. But she had to keep it together-she shouldn’t show that she’s that flustered-or was it too late?

There’s no hesitation in nodding at Drew, when she asks this. There’s no hiding-hell they have probably repeated the same thing for a good amount of times. It was unbelievable in a sense. But thankfully, as time passed, it was easier to sink in. “Good-I’m glad we agree on that”, she smiles widely and gets a mild anxiety rush about the work she’d had to do, once she returns to work the next day.  “No, I don’t think I have?”, she squints her eyes. “But definitely heard of it”.

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glittercndgcld​:

     “ & you’re saying that because you just met me . i’m very detail oriented myself , the more details i have about a project i’m taking on , the more confident i feel about delivering what my client wants … so yes please do . you want to get things moving , yeah ? we can slow things down a little bit if you prefer … i’ve got a couple myself , actually     planners , i mean . just two though . one for work , one for my personal life . something tells me that you’ve got me beat in that aspect of things . There is no other place like New York , just like I’m sure there’s no place like Langley … ah , that’s a pain    over-roamnticizing an idea , just because you come in with expectations , but also unavoidable in some cases . you can … make the best out of your place now . a remodel is my initial thought , but that’s a whole hell of a lot of work … i’m from the city , yeah , washington heights , to be exact , & i’ve never left  . i love it too much to leave . 

     “ it definitely was . has been a topic of ours a few times in the past , too . hah ! that’d be something , i think     getting a glimpse like that into your friendship with peter . surprisingly , he doesn’t drive me crazy ! we match each others energy , so we’re right there with each other for the most part . i’m happy for you two , to see that you have kept in contact . ”

“I’m so glad I’ve met you then. I’m glad that Peter introduced us” “ I don’t really mind if we slow things down or not. I just want to know that we’re at least moving in a sense?”, she smiles at him. “Oh you do-that’s great. That makes me seem like I overdid it a bit”, she giggles. “With the planners”. “I feel like it’s going to be okay...I’m just trying to get used to everything at the moment” “Washington Heights wow...that sounds awesome”, Monica says excitedly. “I get you”, she nods. “I’m up for anything; if we find the right place...so you can guide me through the process”, she adds.

“I guess he has missed having me here in New York. Sometimes texts aren’t enough. Or video-calls”, “So I bet you freak out together over the same things”, she giggles again. 

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The aura between them is to be lightened up some way but falls back to reality and there is not going to be any…them tomorrow. For James it feel inevitable now that Derek had pulled away from the hug. He looks down and just listens to him, say those things again. It doesn’t make anything better. “I cannot do this, Derek”, he whispers and takes an uneven breath; and it’s quite prevalent now that he’s stifling back tears.

He nudges Derek’s hands off his shoulders just to hold them for a moment. This was definitely ending and being sentimental wasn’t going to help probably either of them and he hated that. He squeezes them for a hot second and looks up at him, opening his mouth to say something and save some more minutes with each other. But being together or not now….everything felt heavy whatever they did. So probably it was better not to get attached for that last night. Cut those ties. “I’m gonna go to my room….and…”, he looks down as he takes a pause, “I don’t want you to follow me”, he swallows and lets some part of this sink. Meanwhile, he lets go of Derek’s hands and just stays there. With a very…swift and unexpected move (even for him) he takes the bottle of whiskey from behind him, and holds it tight. “Any last words?”, he mutters, as his tongue presses against his cheek; a temporary way to keep himself from crying and looks right up to Derek’s eyes. He really just wants to ask Derek out, once he’s out, as well… but…would it really be okay?

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     derek expects it , yet when james tells him that he can’t do this & he’s nudging his hands off of his shoulders , his heart sinks a little bit . he doesn’t fight it either because this was ending . it shouldn’t have started to begin with , but derek’s self-control obviously needed some work … there was something about james , though he hadn’t been granted enough time to figure out what it was about him that had him breaking the rules like he had the past few days . 

     surprise is barely apparent on his features when james mentions that he was going to his room & that he wasn’t to be followed . derek hadn’t thought out entirely , how this conversation would go … but this seemed about right . “ okay , ” he hadn’t realized that it’d taken him a few of seconds to respond . he had to process it it , apparently . he watches as james takes the bottle of whiskey , & when that question hits him , he debates talking some more or staying silent . there wasn’t anything he could say to make it better , is what it came down to . “ no , ” derek mutters under his breath . “ nothing more than i’ve said already , ” it hurts him to say that out loud , just because he knows it wasn’t what the other wants to hear . 

     at this point , he’s avoiding really looking at james because he knows he could get sucked in . easily . before he leaves to his own room , he looks back at james , “ just … take care of yourself , alright ? ” 

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glittercndgcld​:

     liam lets out a sigh , slightly frustrated with himself because he knows this isn’t easy for alfie & yet he still hyped this meeting up in his mind . “ i know . i know it’s isn’t easy … it was so easy in texts the past few days , & it’s you so i thought … ” that it’d be easy in person , too , liam silently finishes . they weren’t strangers . they trusted each other . they were best friends . obviously , even with all of that considered , it wasn’t as easy for alfie & liam definitely needed to take a step back & cool it a bit . he fell into the idea of this so easily ( honestly , he had feelings about it all that he couldn’t help but wonder where they came from ) , that he hadn’t realized he’d been a few steps ahead of alf this entire time . “ yeah , we have been over it … i’m sorry . i mean , i know it’s hard for you & i should be a l o t more understanding of that . ” lips press together in a tight , small smile . he is relieved to hear that alf wasn’t going to mention liam asking mia out again     even though a second ago , alf seemed very set on holding it against him . he liked this much better though . “ yeah , sure . we won’t talk about it again . ” had it upset alfie that much ? that he either would hold it against him or not speak about it ever again ? apparently .

     eyes on the floor , liam hadn’t actually noticed that alf stepped closer as he stepped away , until he looked over at him when his question hung in the air . that was … slightly & briefly reassuring . he chuckles a little bit . “ for starters , i’m in the room down the hall from you for the next like , day & a half . after that , you’ll have to try your luck in catching me after work . ” there is those few seconds when alfie is looking at liam , but liam can’t quite meet his eyes just yet & after a beat , he’s finishing off the drink in his cup . now he wasn’t nearly as drunk as he needed to be right now . he felt silly . for having expected anything more than this when meeting alfie here in vermont . “ for sure . what are you thinking ? ring of fire , never have i ever , beer pong ? he’s bound to lose at that one , without a doubt … well , any of those games , i think . ” he prattles on , reminding himself that he had to cool it . this was him cooling it . when alfie was ready , he’d talk … right ? “ either way , we’re on a mission tonight     get daniel drunk . ”

“The texts....are very different”, Alfie gets to mutter and takes a deep breath. “And since I wanted to talk but at the same time, I didn’t...I...had to drink”, he kept his voice low. “The only easy part is that....it’s you”, he smiled and it was kind of shy. Everything felt so new and so out of place. “It’s alright...it’s okay”, he reassures his....friend. That wasn’t much of a friend. But he had an infatuation cloud over that friend title, right at this moment. 

Even if there was confusion in the air, Alfie can’t help but roll his eyes a little too fondly with Liam’s next answer. And then back to confusion. How should he approach this whole situation when he was feeling so uncomfortable about it? He keeps staring at Liam and suddenly he doesn’t want to talk about Daniel. But Liam is trying to push that topic on the table to shake off the awkwardness away?, Alfie guesses.The tightness in his chest feels unbearable and he just wants to go live under a rock and never leave. “I don’t think that we should focus on Daniel at the moment? But I trust you on choosing the right drunk game activity to get him drunk”, he swallows. “I guess I pretty much....suck at this. Talking about things and maybe I waited for you to guide me through it on what you’d want me to answer. But I came off as slightly....weird? That it confused you that much”, he’s being way too honest for his own good. It comes in contrast with his father’s advice and he almost has goosebumps about it.

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glittercndgcld​:

     “ oh , come on , for all you know , it’d be a lot of fun & who doesn’t like having fun , right , jacob ? … i’m not saying marry the girl , but just … keep your options open . ” jake softly attempts to convince jacob of his reasoning over bringing erin , oliver’s roomate , up . “ oliver is in the pictures , yes . ” he answers just as he pulls the pictures up on his phone . “ so there he is … & that is his pretty & single friend , erin . ” jake points each of them out as he introduces them , with a smile on his face . 

Jacob doesn’t know if he should reply to his roomate but yet he stares at him. He knows Jake has his best interest, but at the same time he doesn’t want anyone else in his life. Especially after Nadia! His eyes drift on the picture that Jake is showing him and he pouts. “Oliver seems cute”, he comments and turns his gaze away just to continue his mission that was to cook, that moment. He hates it after that, he would start thinking about every new possibility. “So, they’re coming at some point, aren’t they? For game night?”

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glittercndgcld​:

     “ i do have it . & you are more than welcome to borrow it . ” erin states with a big smile , proud , even , to have the book in her small , but growing , collection ( she was picky as to what she read on her free time     the woman leaning more towards young adult novels ) . “ ew . floral is not generic . depending on the floral scent that you choose . there is nothing generic about lily’s , jasmine & hyacinth , oliver . they smell     amazing . ” her pout lasts a second when oliver mentions her sexist coworkers that she’s told him about . “ yes . if we can pull something off    i’d feel so accomplished . they deserve a good scare . ” by the end of that sentence , she’s got a playfully evil gleam in her eye .       “ then , oliver , stop comparing my fuck ups to yours … if that’s what you need to do     people make mistakes . you can’t beat yourself up for it forever . so , i don’t know , swallow your pride or whatever you have to do & apologize if it’ll help you move on … aw , oh my god , do you think he did ? like you back in high school ?? i think you’d at least have known if you were into him though … yes , very good . now keep repeating after me , i am going to learn how to forgive myself , so that i can healthily move onto the next good thing . ”

“awesome, thanks” “I know!!  I’m doing all the scent choices. I’m not gonna ruin those scents and pretend they’re twilight-inspired-nope. My jasmine candles are selling like crazy-not gonna connect them with Twilight: FULL STOP”, he widens his eyes.  “The problem with all this is when your shift is gonna coincide with me getting out of the house to send out all the packages come straight to the hospital for now. And it hasn’t happened until now, cause I get super lazy.- Maybe if we talk and let you know that I have no work order-related the next day and you wake me up when you have a very early shift? It would be great. And I also need to catch up with Wells”, he giggles.

“I’m not comparing my fuck-ups with yours. I am just saying that if there was a competition, I’d come above all similar competitions and I’ll be the ultimate champion of fuck-ups, Erin”, he gasps. “I don’t know what else I should do to stop beating myself up, but it is what it is. I cannot do anything about it” “Oh well, you don’t just randomly....flirt with an old high school friend? Unless you were dating or something, you know? I mean, it was a huge surprise, I even met him...almost didn’t recognise him with how cute he had become? I don’t remember if he was cute before. Honestly, I feel like I’m repeating myself...I probably erased most parts of High School for my own good”, he gasps out a laugh. “But he did flirt....subtly”, he bites his tongue and gets all giddy about it. Oliver stares at his roomate like she is insane but still decides to repeat that : “I’m going to learn how to forgive myself, so that I can healthily move onto the next thing” “Oh my God, Erin...I’m the one who needs to get laid, but I feel like you might need it too. You share too good of advice for a single person. You need to put that into effect”, he says teasingly.

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glittercndgcld​:

     erik feels accomplished having actually been brought around to the right person    no , oliver wasn’t his parents or a sibling ( unfortunately , he was an only child ) , but a cousin . he’d been stripped , really , of a relationship with any of his biological cousins  & family , in general . “ it’s okay . i don’t have any questions about them right now . my p.i found out enough , ” lips press together in a line . “ yeah … i’m not very close to my adoptive family either , so … i guess i wanted to find the people that are like , actually family ? & just … see how that goes . so yeah , man , that’d be cool . i’m sorry to drop a bomb like this     i bet you weren’t expecting this . it was kinda one of those things like , just fucking do it . so i did it … i do still want those candles though . ”

“This does sound creepy. You’re throwing all that information on me so effortlessly, it weirds me out”, he widens his eyes. “So here’s my number”, he pulls out a card out of his wallet, “ And you can text me anytime, to chat or hang out...”, he looks at Erik right in the eye, so that he’d set the right boundaries and not be a creepy reunion, “....under the normal circumstances”, he finally smiles as he says that and it feels like the freak-out is over.  He looks down at his hands holding the small bag with the candle boxes and winces, before looking up at him. “Since you’re family, I want to do something little extra?”, he says, “But I can give you those and you should expect something extra later on?”.

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glittercndgcld​:

     “ yeah , trust me . my life has been uneventful . ” up until recently , he finishes off silently . it wasn’t that he didn’t trust james , it was just that he wasn’t ready to say that he was involved with one of his students out loud to anyone that wasn’t monica . it was still so early into things with scott , it might not even really turn into something . he’s shaken out of his thoughts when james explains why he was mad at peter … all he can do is listen as james goes on . peter hadn’t known he’d played such a part in james’ safe house situation , but now that he had , he felt bad . “ i am … so sorry     i hadn’t realized … any of that . i feel sorta terrible now , thank you . ” peter teases , lightening his mood some . “ oh , okay . stay away from drew . i can do that     why do i feel as though i should be scared of her ?       “ … columbia is a great school ! you should absolutely apply … the only advice that i have for you is to just    do what makes you happy ? if it takes you a while to figure that out , that’s okay . so many people feel so rushed the older they get , but there’s no time limit on things like that … sorry , i got off topic a little bit , but sounds like a good plan , james . free lance web designing being your worst case scenario sounds like a win , win to me … me over here , i might be a professor forever . ” peter chuckles , “ no , i mean . if we’re talking long term goals here     it’s always been a dream to own my very own bookstore . so maybe one day i’ll start actually planning for that . ”

James pouted and contemplated whether or not that was true; cause somehow it felt that way. Maybe it was just another random feeling he wasn’t going to give any attention to. Maybe it was the curiosity of knowing that Peter was okay and everything with him outside of their relationship worked out fine. That he hasn’t caused much pain after the break-up-in his head it made sense. He starts laughing with that... “again, like I’ve said on the texts, you just need to make it up for me”, he chuckles. “And I don’t think I’m asking for much”, he comments. “As long as you’re staying away from her”, he smiles at him. “You’re safe-I’ve pulled all her attention to Ben again, because of...some things that came back and she’s focused on being mad over that”, he giggles. 

He nods at Peter’s advice as his eyes trail off around the place they were at. “Yeah, I’m trying to shake off that time limit”, he chuckles nervously. “I feel like this is gonna take some time-one of my thoughts are that all this happened because of my situation in the safe house”, he adds. And kind of hates that. “But I’m grateful that this pushed me to that...decision....or at least thought process” “Being a professor is a big accomplishment in my opinion. I mean I always felt what you achieved is really hard already and I was like...always proud of that. Of you. So, if you already achieved that, you can do anything. Owning a bookstore-sounds awesome....very you”, he smiles widely.

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glittercndgcld​:

     immediately , liam knows that alf was pretty closed off , just by his reaction    the blurting out of that question & his whispered words . he wasn’t expecting it , but now he thinks to himself that he should’ve . “ it doesn’t really matter . ” he says , his own gaze falling to the ground ; he’s thinking that he should back off some . alfie didn’t seem open to talk like liam had hoped when coming out here to vermont . & if he pushed , there was a chance he could set alfie off . “ is that how it is ? you gotta be drunk to talk to me about it all ? ” he chuckles , but it’s humorless . because it isn’t funny , not really … not to him . he thought they’d made some progress in their texts the past few days , but it seemed he’d somehow & unknowingly taken a few steps back with alf . maybe it was the sexuality thing … liam being a guy & all     maybe alf wasn’t as accepting to that fact in person just yet . he couldn’t fault him for that either , if that were the case , nor would he try to rush it . it was one of those lines that had to be crossed by alf , & alf alone .

     alf had a good poker face , liam on the other hand … not so much , but he was trying r e a l l y hard not to show how much alfie’s reaction just now kind of knocked his mood down a bit . his lack of a decent poker face has his gaze landing anywhere but on alfie , for the sake of his best friend n o t being able to read his face , or eyes . “ yeah , well , i guess i messed up not being able to read your mind , huh ? ” he’s being sarcastic , obviously , but it was lighthearted & he forced the sound of some humor through it . a tense conversation was the absolute last thing he wanted ( or expected ) tonight . 

     cup is brought up again for another hefty drink , his free hand is stuffed into his pocket & he absentmindedly takes a couple of steps away , because despite wanting to be closer to alfie , he didn’t feel as though that’d be taken very well at the moment    space ; maybe alfie needed that . “ well … i guess when you aren’t so closed off … you know where to find me . ” he forces himself , again , to laugh a little at that , playing it off as if it didn’t bother him like it did . he clears his throat . “ hey , wanna place a bet on how quick drunk uno will get dan drunk ? my money is on 10 minutes . ” he’s changing the subject     doing alf that favor , giving him an out of the conversation he so obviously didn’t want to have .

Alfie closes his eyes tight with Liam’s next reaction. He doesn’t expect that response; wouldn’t that be normal? “I’ve already told you about how hard for me is to talk about it. Texts were one thing and now talking about it is another”, he decides to word everything out. “It is not that easy”, he mumbles and looks down , not realizing the reason the mood was changed so abruptly. “It’s not like that...we’ve been over this”, he pouts and kind of hates that there might be some sort of misunderstanding. “Can we please not talk about it again? I mean I know I’ve mentioned it...but I promise I won’t mention it again”, he grimaces as he looks up at Liam. “I mean you asking Mia out. This is the last time it’s mentioned and it’s me. Done. Won’t mention it ever again.”, he talks quickly and sighs instantly once he’s done. “I didn’t expect you to read my mind...it’s just a weird turn of events”, he chuckles awkwardly.

Alfie slides a step closer to Liam, as Liam, himself seems to step away. He doesn’t understand what’s going on, but...Liam’s next words make him stop on his feet. “Where can I find you, again?”, he squints his eyes, showing how confused he was. He blinks fast, as Liam’s changing the subject. All this...I should have been looking at you...he didn’t handle it well, did he? He stays silent for a couple of seconds too long staring at Liam dumb-founded. “I mean”, he tries to laugh it off but he’s still....thinking of how one of them derailed the conversation-and his money wasn’t on Liam. “Yeah probably...maybe even less if we play something else first”.

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     “ oh , you know i was kidding . ” derek points out , shaking his head at his cousin . “ erin is great , but the woman is simply infatuated with me & why is beyond me . ” it really was . he didn’t understand it , though it was flattering . he feels a sense of satisfaction when vicky agrees about james being so handsome , because he was . “ you got it right on the head     he is quite handsome & he does have that look of mischief in his eye … it’s intriguing … & drew , too , huh ? him getting into trouble & having that partner in crime doesn’t surprise me one bit … they must be pretty close then . well , look at us , two peas in a pod dating two other peas in a pod … what are the odds . ” he hadn’t ever thought he & vicky would share this sort of connection . then again , he had a sort of … inside as to james & his mind now that this connection did come to light , information passed along from james to drew , to vicky to derek . “ oh , i’ve said all of the bad things .” he teases his cousin with a teasing grin . “ i’m just kidding . there’s nothing bad to even say . ” he could think up some things if he really wanted to , alas , he didn’t want to . “ well , you’re talking an awful lot about drew     someone’s a little … s m i t t e n , ain’t she ? ”

“Still”, she hums and raises her hands slightly to show her nails to Derek, “You really need to put me into schedule, because I suck at manicures and I always forget to get my nails done”, she pouts. “Don’t you know that we want the things we can’t have? I wish I’ve known someone to push her towards. But at the moment, I don’t”, she rolls her eyes. “I know almost everything about James, even before you met James in the flesh. I cannot wrap my head around that.”, she makes a pause. “Drew also told me that they’re like the male and female version of each other. So the Drew I saw the last time and Tinder-Drew....are so flirty. Like so flirty”, she gasps. “If James is like that, too....oh my god....”, she widens her eyes, trying to figure out out what to say next. “He’s someone that is very close to Drew, anyway. And Drew has shared with me pretty valuable info, that I don’t know if I’m gonna share with you now, you’re gonna be less insecure about James playing around with you?”, she tried to keep her expression serious. “Maybe that’s a good opportunity to do a lot of double dates”, she widens her eyes, because the thought freaks her out; she’s not used to the idea that she’s dating Drew. “Good-let’s keep it like that”, she chuckles. She decides to turn that around: “Yes, the girl is quite smitten with me. She has warmed up to the idea of our situation much easier than I did”, she sticks her tongue out. “Also let’s not talk about how mad you got me at some point that I told tinder-Drew all about our age gap argument and technically”, she widens her eyes, “She was talking about her best friend and you”

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     when alfie mentions that night again , liam lets out a quiet sigh because he should know that alfie wasn’t going to drop that . he’s also reminded of their parents & all of them … had their flaws , mia’s parents reasoning for pushing alfie & mia to be together was one of them . as much as he loved that world for so long , he’s grown to despise it for the most part     now that he was an outsider ( thankfully , he wasn’t made an outsider with his group of friends , too ) . he lets a couple beats of silence fall between them as he takes a sip of the half full drink in his hand . “ yeah , maybe . all i know is what daniel’s told me though & i’d say our conversation has been pretty thought provoking for him . don’t tell mia though , okay ? not now . i think if she knew & he found out , he’d flip , not to mention , he might try to really killing me with those teddy bears . ” that makes him chuckle , “ he also might not t r u s t me anymore , so . ” 

     it doesn’t take a rocket scientist to know that likely alfie wouldn’t start this conversation that liam was itching to have . maybe he wasn’t ready ? they talked about a lot already via texts though . “ so you really aren’t going to let that go ? ” he asks this , but he knows alfie & he can’t even bring himself to be upset that he might not let it go , instead there’s just this sort of … fondness that makes his chest all warm & tingly . “ just so you know , i didn’t ask mia to dinner because i have feelings for her or anything like that . i had this silly theory & maybe i was trying to explore things    like what could be there between two best friends     but … i get that i was looking at mia when i should’ve … i should’ve been looking at you … ”

Alfie shakes his head: “Wasn’t planning on telling Mia, no. But I’m not going to stop teasing her and how she reacts around Daniel”, he laughs a bit. “Really though...that would be funny to see. Killing you with those teddy-bears”, he smiles and really indulges on the image Liam painted. He chuckles absent-mindedly. But that feeling doesn’t last long, because Liam comes for him and he puts his poker face on, when all he wants to do is run for his life. 

“No, I’m not going to”, he says and his eyes widen slightly. As Liam keeps talking about it, Alfie realizes that maybe they should stop; cause he just squints his eyes and the glare becomes much more intense. He just doesn’t want to think about it. But at the same time, he was the one who started it. “What is that theory?”, he blurts out and then instantly regrets it. He looks up at the sky, trying to figure out what he should do. “I haven’t drank enough for this”, he whispers his thoughts loudly-and that says a lot about how drunk he was at that point. He laughs a bit and shakes his head again, looking back to the object of his affection. This feels different already; even before when he had just a simple crush, Liam was still his friend. Right now...Liam wasn’t his friend. Just his friend. Everything had changed so drastically.

“Maybe you should have”, he says and decides to let that small amount of alcohol in his system guide him through this. Which wasn’t enough to get way too deep into the conversation, but enough to say what was in his mind right now. “But you’d never have imagined what happened in my head if I didn’t tell you”, he hums.

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     “ your sister & ex getting along sounds like a lot less bull shit to have to deal with , that , in itself , sounds like a bit of relief … your sister , is she younger than you ? ” a laugh bubbles out of wells when cam drops his next question about erin . “ i honest to god don’t mind having erin around . i love her to death , but she drives me fucking nuts , that’s all     we drive each other nuts , i guess . to be fair or whatever . besides , we can’t do a disney-siblings marathons if erin isn’t there anyways . ” wells hadn’t spared much thought to how or why cam ended up where he was    a divorced , single father of twin girls , until now , until cam mentioned it , but obviously didn’t want to talk much more about it . “ i don’t know how you ended up here , but in erin’s words , not mine , ‘ everything happens for a reason ’ , ” he mocks his sister . “ you believe that sort of thing ? ” he’s just a little curious . he grew up with his sister telling him that during the bigger inconveniences throughout wells’ life . personally , he was unsure of it     nothing had happened in his life to make him believe the overused saying to be true . “ jesus , cam . that’s a long time .., me & a few of my friends meet up saturday nights & do … something . you’re welcome to tag along , if you ever want to . ” that was a long time . “ oh ! yeah , noelle , my high school beard , she’s basically already volunteered herself to surrogate my children . if the time ever comes . ” that makes wells huff out a chuckle because to have children , he’d have to be in a serious & committed relationship , & to be in said relationship , he had to like someone enough to keep them around for longer than a few days . “ so audrey & melanie’s birthday     when is it ? ” 

“Yeah, Lisa is.... about six years younger”, he answers, nodding. “Oh come on, it won’t be that bad if it’s gonna be the four of us. I bet the girls will just have a lot to talk about...and we...are just gonna be....us”, he trails off a bit. “Everything happens for a reason”, he repeats with a small smile on his lips. “Oh well, maybe I had to get through all that to be taught some kind of weird lesson, hmm”, he hums. “To be honest, no. But I need to stay positive, so I might need to listen to Erin’s words of wisdom”, he chuckles. He raises his eyebrows in interest and smiles a little bit. “Like do what?”, he asks and actually considers to tag along with them. Something does push him back though. He generally preferred not to have much company when he went out at night. It felt sad for him for a hot second, because oh-my-god, how did he end up like that. “I’ll let you know on that-thanks for the invite”, he smiles with a nod. “Oh has she?”, his eyes widen. “That’s.....a huge thing to volunteer about?”, he gasps. “But I guess after the high school beard thing, what’s the worst thing that might happen?”, he teases Wells. “May 5th”, he answers instantly.

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     liam can’t help but chuckle , it sounds slightly nervous , but he speaks up after alfie does in an attempt to hide the sounds of those nerves . “ It is pretty could out…     the fresh air is nice , though . ” he comments , because he really needed the fresh air ? being inside with alfie, trying to suppress his want to finally feel how it was to be closer to his best friend , was exhausting ? now they were alone though . “ i’ll put you out of your misery , finally … i know i wasn’t convinced about your observations before , but i might be now . dan was p r e t t y jealous when he heard about me asking her to dinner & all … he also said that he can’t pretend to be her boyfriend anymore... because he doesn’t like pretending anymore ? i didn’t even know that was a thing for them     him pretending to be her boyfriend … but i mean , just that info alone … i’m pretty close to being fully convinced of the entire dan & mia thing you brought up before . ” for the moment , liam is distracted by finally talking about his suspicions over dan & his feelings for mia . but when he finishes speaking , he’s looking at alfie & immediately , he’s reminded over everything they’ve spoken about … & the fact that it was the first time they were alone since taking new steps in their relationship ( & feelings ) .

Alfie hears and feels his heart beating so fast and so loud inside his chest, but his face remains calm-and it makes him wonder how well he hides it, or if it even shows. “I mean see...I knew it”, he says instantly and widens his eyes, as he looks back at Liam. “And I was talking more about Mia’s reactions and how much touchy-feely she is generally with everyone...but oh my God-with Daniel is a whole new level”, he rambles on.  “Yeah, maybe it’s a thing that they do for the parties....unbeknownst to us. Her mother must be driven insane. Especially....”, he coughs and turns around; his waist to lean on the hurdle and look at Liam better. “Especially now, that she wants me and her to potentially date. As I’ve mentioned on the party”, he throws that glare at Liam, again. He’s not going to forget. “She came to me and talked all about what a good girl Mia is and I was all like.....doesn’t she know that I and Mia are friends?”, he squints his eyes in an attempt to figure out her logic. “So, I’m guessing that’s why....”, he huffs, “....Daniel can’t continue to pretend all that”, he looks down and tries to analyze that newly-found information. He looks at Liam’s feet and realizes that there’s another bomb on his hands, ready to explode. And suddenly, he’s out of words, as he raises his head again. Because he may be drunk, but not drunk enough to start talking about....flirting and feelings to Liam.

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     “ i guess that I am . ” derek doesn’t see a sense in saying otherwise     vicky was , technically , right . he was date ready . he planned on going straight to james’ place after work ; he didn’t dress too bad for his shifts , anyways . he’d have on a nice outfit , nice enough for a date , in his opinion . “ mani’s & pedi’s aren’t happening , smalls . sorry to say . ” derek huffs out a chuckle , but what he doesn’t say is that he could likely be convinced . “ i’m sorry ? my fan club ? ” a look of genuine confusion takes over his features for a split second because vicky makes it known she’s referring to erin . that makes him laugh . oh , the flattery . “ okay , i was flattered for a second there , but then you made it creepy . ” half joking , of course . his cousin catches his attention again when she mentions that drew showed her a picture of james . “ did she ? … talk about it then . ” he knew vicky wanted him to talk about it , but he didn’t always give her what she wanted right away . though he is curious as to vicky’s thoughts about his new lover .

Vicky watches her cousin and chews on her lip. She felt kind of happy for him in a way-even if it felt like she barely knew anything. “You put it on the table, but I’m good with it, if it doesn’t happen”, she shrugs with a small smile on her face. “It could get creepy”, she smirks at him. Raising an eyebrow, she’d surely have expected that. “Right...”, she pouts thoughtfully. “Saying that he is handsome is an understatement? But he also has that kind of mischief in his eyes, that Drew has”, she starts and realizes that she couldn’t say that to Drew herself, “ I’ve noticed that in Drew the last time and I feel like she and James are really good friends. I mean, she had told me herself, too...But.... Like they have a lot of things in common....But also getting into trouble, as well”, she chews on her lower lip. “On Tinder, she had even told me that she and James were mistaken as a couple most of the times, so imagine how they are interacting with each other? And they do look alike: kind of blond-ish...green eyes”, she swallows. And it just hits her like a thunderbolt, that she’s talking more about Drew than James; she barely knew James in person. “I hope you haven’t said anything bad about me to him”, she glares at Derek. “And I can also see the “hot” aspect you’ve mentioned”, she says, her smile getting bigger for a couple of seconds. “Just another common thing with Drew...that I drunkenly called her the other night, over text”, she nods, feelings more embarrassed than ever. But still...smiles about it.

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     never in a thousand years would drew have thought she’d enjoy bringing a blush to vicky’s cheeks , yet today , she found herself feeling a sense of satisfaction because of it . the blush is faint , but she can tell it’s there     maybe in the way vicky physically responds to her words , too . the brushing of hair behind her ear , the way she seems speechless for a second or two ( drew was very observant , in & out of work ) . it makes her smile though & her teeth pull at her bottom lip in a feeble attempt to hide it . 

     as much as she wants to continue flirting with vicky , she also doesn’t want to overdo it so soon into this … maybe baby steps in that sense was best as they eased into this new normal between them . “ maybe he can meet us for lunch one of these days … & i know , this is still … a lot ? ” it absolutely was . she’s glad she didn’t lay it on too strong with the flirting just yet , because they were still associating one another with the anonymous tinder conversations they’d had over the past few months .

     “ isn’t he ?? ” drew asks with a fond smile when vicky compliments james ( she was a proud best friend , of course ) . she shuts her phone screen off & her attention is back on vicky    she doesn’t even realize the small , flirty smile she wears naturally now that vicky isn’t just her rival at work , but so much more . “ oh , my god , that’d be so cute     james might actually die a little bit , i think . multiple times throughout the course of that date . ” that makes her laugh . “ ah , you know i’ll fill you in on what james says though , ” she adds with a little nudge at vicky & a grin . 

     mentioning work , drew looks at vicky & tilts her head slightly in thought to an answer for her question . “ i mean , i don’t imagine there’s anything about work that we can’t talk about ? i think this sense of competition between us was created , & while i do enjoy the competition maybe now … it’s a little more friendly than before ? … we are . i feel like he’s making us suffer , taking as long as he is to make a decision     i mean , it’s been a few days already . ” her impatience is showing . “ i feel … like either way , he can’t loose ” complimenting vicky’s work ? that was new . “ … what about you ? what are your thoughts on all of this … us at work & boundaries . ” 

Vicky widens her eyes in shock. “Uhm...maybe...not those couple of weeks, when we try to figure stuff out”, she tries to find a way not to show how much that freaked her out. But the sometimes-non-chalant, sometimes-passive agressive Vicky from work- persona she has built for work was out to be found. “I feel like I’m going to freak out on his face and our whole connection”, she chuckles in an attempt to hide her freaking out. “I mean...I’m good at doing that with you-and you’re doing the same thing. James hasn’t met two Vicky’s, though. And at the moment, for me it’s the James you’ve told me about and the one that Derek told me about. Which...again...in a million years, I wouldn’t even consider that this would be even possible”, she giggles.

“He is”, she confirms with a smile and bites her lower lip, feeling a little happy about this whole ordeal. “Derek just....is very stubborn and won’t reveal anything to me. He must be so different with James and how he reacts with him. I mean...obviously”, she rolls her eyes with herself. “But, if they’re still on that date front, maybe he slightly freaked on me, bashed on his ex and then, went on his text with James and flirted a bit”, she rambled on and a couple of seconds later, she placed her fingers on her lips, tapping them a little; just realizing that maybe she had revealed a lot? Maybe... “Multiple times through the course of the date...hmm....”, she repeats and chuckles. “I don’t think it would be just from the present....the dying”, she pulls her tongue out, kind of teasingly. But also, “He used that emoji on me, just to describe his relationship with James.....the more I think about it, the more I believe that James won’t be able to share anything with you”, she starts laughing and takes a sip of her drink, trying to stop that.

It is the first time after a couple of nervous minutes that makes Vicky start noticing Drew and how she reacts. She wishes it was much before and also that she stops being the nervous mess that she is. “ I definitely don’t see you as a rival right now. Even at work”, she confesses. “It’s been a few days; I am starting to thing that the competition isn’t just between us. And there are other fish in the sea-manuscripts that I need to focus on and promote. And my head was stuck on that yoga one”, she pouts and gets ready to answer, until her jaw drops. She takes the compliment in and exhales. She’d never expect Drew would ever say that and it shows because her jaw has dropped down on the floor like any animated character in looney tunes did. “I think”, she drags her jaw back up, “ that since we are figuring all of this, and since we are both positive about it that it.....We are going to be fine”, she smiles shyly. “I mean, if it gets too much to handle, maybe we can talk about it then. But, it would be just friendly competition and if the others are expecting a show from us, maybe we can act something out, right?”, she smirks at her.