Scattered Thoughts

Nothing makes sense.

[xchickentendiesx]

I didn’t even need you to be here. I didn’t even need much. I just wanted to feel loved.

[xchickentendiesx]

What do you do when you finally get everything you’ve ever wanted?

Do you cherish every moment because this is something you’ve so badly been waiting for? Or do you ruin it, because now there’s a chance you could lose it all?

[xchickentendiesx]

From yesterday’s photoshoot.

[thoughtkick]

“Someone somewhere is searching for you in every person they meet.”

— Unknown

[surqrised]

“Go and love someone exactly as they are. then, watch how they transform into the greatest truest version of themselves. when one feels seen and appreciated in their own essence, one is instantly empowered.”

— Wes Angelozzi

[xchickentendiesx]

I’m so tired of not feeling normal.

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[ritikajyala]

He asked me when I fell in love with him and I knew it sounded dramatic to say the moment I saw him, so I told him this story of my grandma who had Alzheimer's- she forgot her name and the words for fruit and food, she forgot her address and how to use the washroom, all her life lost to the disease. The only thing she remembered was her son's name and when that began to fade, the one thing she always remembered was that she loved him, even in illness, even in insanity. She saw this 6 foot 2 man with a scrubby beard and she didn't know him but she said she trusted him, she asked him to hold her hand when she died. When does memory end and love begin? All I know is- she loved him before she remembered him.

-Ritika Jyala, excerpt from The world is a sphere of ice and our hands are made of fire

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[xchickentendiesx]

I try to ignore the fact that my life is constantly changing. People come and people go. People you love and people you don’t really know. The parties slowly grow smaller and smaller with time. Things start to get more serious and everything begins to get real. New friendships form while old ones tend to get lost.

I guess what I’m trying to say is that, change is good and all but I wish some things stayed the same. I hate knowing that one of my close friends is moving to the mainland and after that I don’t know what will happen. I hate knowing that my other friend put our friendship on the back burner for a girl he just met, like I’m supposed to have permission to text someone I used to talk to everyday. I hate how one of my friends wants to leave because she’s sick of it here. I hate thinking about how I’m not surrounded by the most wonderful people everyday anymore, like how much me leaving really affected all of us. I can’t stand all these changes.

[xchickentendiesx]

You’ve had my heart this whole time.

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You were my first love. I would like to remember it that way.

[xchickentendiesx]

“Don’t worry. We’ll find each other again”

[xchickentendiesx]

I want you at the end of my life.