I am Borderline

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[ximborderlinex]

there’s so much anxiety ahh.😭

I feel you. What happened? What triggered the anxiety?

[ximborderlinex]

The relapse. The pain. The hurt. When it's all too much. Too intense. That's when the suicidal thoughts start. Like they won't end. Fight. You're not alone.

[ximborderlinex]

Hi... I found you because I was diagnosed with tlp... and I don’t know... my life’s mess I sometimes I just want to die. I don’t know what am I expecting from you... sorry

I don't know what tlp is? I'm rlly sorry you feel this way. I hope one day you feel like ur worth living. Don't give up. There are so many treatments! 😘

[ximborderlinex]

Hello. So my boyfriend has the fear of commitment and i have the fear of abandonment. How do we work it out to both be happy? Like what kind of compromises?

Talk talk talk talk. Talk about everything. How you feel, why you feel like this. Get it out in the open! If you know what someone else thinks/feels you can try to change it. ❤️

[thatwascareless]

[ximborderlinex]

IG: whatshername.x ☻

[ximborderlinex]

TW ⚠️ When I was 12 I was sent to an RTC and they said I have traits of borderline and should keep and eye on it but my mom refuses to believe it now I’m 14 and if anything the symptoms are worse I’m just better at hiding things now so idk what to do Bc at this point I just wanna cut the shit out of me and be high most of the time so I don’t have to deal with shit

It's normal that u feel worse at this age. Mental illness usually gets worse when you hit puberty. Because your feelings already are all over the place. Because you're so young changes are that you can heal. So I really suggest going to a psychologist! Because you need therapy.

[ximborderlinex]

So as I said I don't understand my behaviour. But I truly deeply love her.or I don't know what love is. Our relationship is between true friendship & love story. We tried once. It's failed as I knew. She tried to talk to me. I freaked out I respond coldly so she didn't text me again. I don't know why I'm doing this. It's always with her I have those weird behaviour. Why ? What should I do. It's been like that since I knew her (4 years) Shes in my head. Fuck. I hate that. But I love her. ...

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Why do u have to hide on a fake account? I think u should just talk to her as you. It won't be real if she doesn't know who she is really talking to.

[ximborderlinex]

I am completely obsessed her. The moment we become friend,our relationship was unique in a good & bad way. Typical toxic bpd relationship. She my fp. So you kno how emotionally I am over her. "Hate you, don't leave" vibe always. It's been 4 months seen last we talk and for the first time I didn't miss/craved her as usual. But still miss her when im down. Recently I creat an insta account for stalking her, so I talk to her without revealing who am I. I don't understand my behaviour. I lost....

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[ximborderlinex]

Me replying to a text late: Bro.. People aren't on their phones 24/7.

Me not getting a reply in 5 seconds: They hate me and I'm gonna find out why.

[ximborderlinex]

"Some say I'm too sensitive, but the truth is I just feel too much. Every word, every action and every energy goes straight to my heart."

[ximborderlinex]

When you're gone I want you close. When you're close I want you to go.

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[ximborderlinex]

I got diagnosed with BPD ~6 years ago and a ton of ppl bring up that I show many symptoms of DPD and it is freaking me out due to the fact that a) it might be a thing in my relationship b) it could be but they overlap extremely and c) I already struggle enough with my mental health, I don't want more stuff I have to manage

I think people label other people way too fast. Everyone shows some sort of symptoms of a mental illness. But that doesn't mean that you have this illness. The only one who can diagnose you is a psychiatrist. So if you really want to know you can visit one. But maybe it is just your bpd that people see/notice. A lot of illnesses can overlap each other. And you have to chose the things that bother you the most where you can work with. Try to manage it. To live with it. So I don't really think you should put too much value on what those people say.

[ximborderlinex]

Do you think us bod women should rather seek being kept in a submissive role in our relationships?

Why would u think that? I think you should be yourself in a relationship. U don't have to play a role. Be who you are. Show your true colors. And if people don't like them or don't accept them than they should stay away. But a healthy relationship is all about being open about your feelings and be true to each other. 💕

[lesbiandgayy]

[ximborderlinex]

Go anon and tell me what you’re struggling with.

[ximborderlinex]

[ximborderlinex]

How do I make the loneliness go away? It's all consuming and unbearable. I've pushed everyone away. Please help me.

Stop pushing them away. Embrace your fears of being rejected. Seek out to people. To friends. To family. Don't go suffer in silence. All by yourself. Try to take your mind off of things. I read a lot. That helps me not to think and feel. Hang out with people even though it scares you! ❤️