❝ EXPLICIT !

I'M FUCKED UP, I'M BLACK AND BLUE. I'M BUILT FOR ALL THE ABUSE. I GOT SECRETS THAT NOBODY,NOBODY,NOBODY KNOWS. I'M GOOD ON THAT PUSSY SHIT.

[xiomarasmuse]

so i’m sad asl bc i fell asleep and won’t have time to do any of the extra writings i had planned , mostly her biography , but i already have 70 + posts on here , and i feel like putting any more would be a bit much . not to mention , the bio i was writing was super long , and if you want to look at it unfinished , i will give you that chance, click here . bc i really like what i wrote so far !! but in short , xiomara kind of grew up in tight knit house , her father , her mother , her abuela, and after a couple years , her sister aniyah . her father worked as auto shop owner , helping fix cars and even taught her how to fix them as well within their daddy / daughter moments . abuela was one of xiomara’s best friends / biggest influencers , and was the one who introduced her to music . she died of pneumonia ad wasn’t sure how to cope . music made things slightly better but she was still heartbroken . in their last moments together , her abuela told her to live her life to the fullest and with a tear stricken smile , she promised . in 2012 , aniyah gets diagnosed with leukemia , and xiomara watches her sister slowly fade , becoming more sick as the time passes . again , her sister tells her to live and that she’ll be watching her . it’s kind of hard to live when everyone around you isn’t . the house is depressed . her mother barely eats , nobody really talks . that is until her father’s affair comes out to the light and xiomara swears that she won’t be able to take another heartbreak , but is still met with one , when she comes home from school to find her father’s suitcases packed . nadia , the woman he cheated on her mother with , was having xiomara’s step sibling . she couldn’t look at him the same after that . the child in her wanted to run to her father and plead , but she gave him a dirty look and walked into her poster filled room . she put her headphones on and muted the world . they weren’t kidding when they said music saved people , it saved her . it was hard , but somehow she managed to actually graduate on time . with being kicked out of class , random hookups with boys , she kind of turned into someone new ? her mother’s depression only got worse , wouldn’t talk , wouldn’t eat , the only emotion she shared was heartbreak , as she leaned against the headboard of her bed and wept . her aunt offered to take care of her , and xiomara agreed . if she wouldn’t talk to her daughter , maybe her sister would get something out of her . with the help of her aunt , xiomara was enrolled in the university of houston . not for long tho , within the next six months , she was kicked out . and that’s when she took both her sister and grandmother’s words into perspective . LIVE . be happy , be free . so she decided on doing just that . abuela had left her a shitload of money , and in finding that , she also found her abuela’s teenage bucket list . attend every single concert . if she ever were to live , she would live for her grandmother and her sister whose lives were cut short . and it would be the best life , goodbye houston !

[xiomarasmuse]

SYNOPSIS . there were twinkly lights , it was easy . still doesn’t mean it should’ve happened . for once xiomara regrets her carefree lifestyle and the trouble it gets her in . 

temptation is always there , even when you least expect it and sometimes with people you don’t typically expect it with . in all honestly , xiomara wish she could say she didn’t see this coming , but that’d be a lie . the pair that lived in the apartment were quite a match , a match that could have been undefeated if they would have went the right way about it . but any hope for that was gone , the minute her emerald hues fluttered and was met with his interior design . she blinked a few times , possibly believing that seconds later she’d wake up in her own bed and she’d snuggle up into the pillows in happily realization that she hadn’t slept with her roommate , her taken roommate . the roommate who’s girlfriend she met a handful of times , and even complimented yuri on having . but now she was sure she’d be looked at as the stereotypical slut . the boyfriend stealer . the one with no respect and the grabby hands . not that this was something she worried about . this wasn’t typically how sex worked . you didn’t wake up in complete regret , most of the time you both woke up with a smirk as the recollection of last night’s events resurface . 

but this wasn’t one of those times , this was a mistake . an utter mistake , and even her small attempt at a inappropriate joke could make the tension in the room  any lower . “ never thought i’d have to take the walk of shame back to my bedroom ” sounded funny at the time , but now she felt a slap to the forehead was needed . she wasn’t sure what to do , should she apologize ? but would she even say ? ‘ sorry you stuck your — ’ NO . ‘ i’m sorry we got swept up ’ NAH . ‘ i’m sorry that you didn’t stop us . i’m single , you’re the one with a gi — ’ OKAY THAT ONE WOULD JUST MAKE HIM MAD . she was all out of ideas . she had screwed up too , she shouldn’t have went along with it , no matter how good it felt at the time . she had never felt this wrong about waking up next to somebody . her mind replaying all the moments she could have turned away , should have , but didn’t . ‘ you’re still in his bed , get up , MOVE !! ’ her mind scolded , and that was pretty much all it took . a deep breath , and she’s out of there , grabbing the sprawled clothes on her way out .

three hours later and the awkward presence is still in the air . if she would have known they were going to be trying their hardest to avoid eye contact with each other , she would have thought twice about that bowl of fruity pebbles that sounded so delicious at the time .                                          

[xiomarasmuse]

                                                      IN DEPTH .

EMERSON . okay so i’m pretty sure this friendship is over developed , bc basically anyone who’s involved in dahlia’s life HAS to put up with her . so even though it’s not heavily mentioned . i totally see emerson and xiomara being closer than just my ex girl’s best friend and party duo . i think even they developed a friendship with each other ?? like there’s a brother / sister bond there . they bicker , they call each other insults playfully , but i think if it came down to it , they would definitely defend each other . although xiomara’s idea of love got ruined with her parents , she knows the two young adults have something special . since their break up , she’s been trying to talk some sense into both of them . 

em @thrasinem - 40m  funny how some ppl can be grown ass adults and still let their parents dictate their lives lmao!! nomb! :) @xokisses liked a tweet !   xo @xokisses - 32m i know that somebody better stop shading my bff and bring their ass over so we can finish packing for this trip !! :)  i’m not missing out on quality concerts for nothing .

boi , she caught that shade .

[xiomarasmuse]

most recent text — satan 👹 .

[xiomarasmuse]

DAHLIA can be considered the light in xiomara’s life . she’s the innocence , the mom friend of the two . the wild child definitely needs a shoulder to lean on , a calm after the storm . and the innocence needs a bit of danger in her life . the two fit perfectly . yin and yang , and everything similar . i honestly think xiomara would do ANYTHING for dahlia . so the moment that xiomara realizes that this is actually dangerous to her and the others , i’m more than sure the first person she clings to is dahlia . and by clinging , i mean nonstop contact ; no trips to the bathroom without each other , hand holding , comforting . i love their dynamic and even though xiomara is only older than dahlia by a few months , i think that many characteristics within dahlia remind xiomara of her younger sister , aniyah . not in the sense of dahlia being childlike , but the sense of protection and genuine care that she has for her best friend is deep , and she’s the closest thing she has to her in remembrance . 

UNO ↬ headcanon one . when they first met , xiomara was the first one to speak . she was no stranger to being backstage , but most of the people she encountered while being back their were either snotty or unapproachable . and even though xiomara sometimes wedged herself in between things , she didn’t necessarily like being places she’s not wanted . but dahlia looked welcoming enough .  DOS ↬ headcanon two / conspiracy theory . well this one kind of depends on how long xavier has been signed with mr. hudson’s label i think a year is a pretty good time , so imagine xavier was the one performing ?? and xiomara was just shaking her head along to the music along with her hips , and she leans over by dahlia and is like “ okay , he’s pretty damn good ?? who is that ? ” and dahlia just goes “ that’s xav ! my dad just signed him . ” and she’s like you’re HUDSON’S DAUGHTER ? ” and it kind of went on from there . at one point of the night , someone could swear they heard xiomara admit to xavier being cute . but who knows !

TRES ↬ headcanon three . there have been multiple times dahlia has had to play the mom friend . especially when they go out to parties . there has been many times dahlia has had to drag xiomara’s tipsy ass home . it’s almost a routine .

CUATRO ↬ headcanon four . xiomara bought the two matching bracelets to signify their friendship ( i am extra and took this from my own life experience ) about three months ago . instead of writing some sappy poem or hour long speech , she literally said “ you are my platonic soulmate ”  and slipped her bracelet on her arm as if it were a wedding ring . instead of going with the traditional matching bracelets , she got herself a red bracelet , and dahlia a white one ! representing the fiery personality she has , and dahlia as her guardian angel . she has yet to take it off !

CINCO ↬ headcanon five . they have made the ultimate girls’ pact , that if emerson hasn’t manned up and proposed to dahlia ( after they get back together of course ) and she hasn’t married herself an upcoming band member , that they might as well get married and adopt about four babies . though xiomara strongly believes that emerson will pull through .

[xiomarasmuse]

it is 3AM am and i am watching vacancy for inspo on this rp and now i have a prompt for a para . not to mention i have work in 9 hours but i :)) am :)) going :)) to :)) finish :)) . even if i have to put all of the remaining writings in a queue . so if there’s long gaps between posts , it is prob because i am either sleeping ( doubt it ) or at work . but everything should be here by 5 / 5:30 cst .

[hsklove]

[lomasdope]

a relationship with a good flirt to roast ratio

[schmidtsburg]

[alreadyghostts]

cruel youth - diamond days

[wnq-writers]

She’s not easy. She’s not always affectionate. She’s got her ups and downs, her good days and her bad. She’ll make you feel invincible one day and weak the next. She’ll scare you. That’s the way it is. You’ll be tempted to leave, to run. But you won’t. You’ll always come back because underneath it all she’s still perfect, because she’s still your world.

D. Watson  (via cherylblosscm)

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[isakeijser]

[bergaramadejs]

insp.

[montygreen]

THE GOOD PLACE MEME › [6/9 quotes] 1.10 Chidi’s Choice ↳ “We are not going to be those women who fight over a guy and find any excuse to rip each other apart. Listen, you and I have a weird, complicated, forked-up friendship, but it’s our friendship, and I care about it.”

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YES

[ofmymuses]

Character Aesthetic  ➙ requested by sydsideas  ;; { the party girl }

YOU bring the a l c o h o l, I’LL bring the BAD decisions