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25th

Hi. It's my birthday again. Im twenty-five now. Went to work today. Everything's fine. Papa just text me. He said, happy birthday, gbu. I replied with thanks, how r u Idk why i ask Maybe i miss family Kinda. Much. Idk why im crying tho Maybe im alone. But i dont really want to be any where else. Idk. Colleague bought me choco cake today. I ate so little of it. I mightve hurt their feelings. Idk Shake hands with many people today. It was good. Hugged some. It was warm. Im twenny-five now. It's crazy. Mom bought cake to celebrate my birthday. Without me there lol. Happy birthday me. Youre loved. 18012016 20:55 Labuan

I Cant

Wait for today to end Already Find joy on doing this Anymore I gotta save myself 11202015 0845

Empty

I feel empty. Maybe lonely. I need an escape. When i can take my mind off things. Some excitement. Some friends. Not home. No. Sometimes, i want to go far. Go far and long. Meet strangers. Meet new people. Starts anew. Help me. Elevate this feeling. Grief. Numb. Empty. I cant even decide which. I feel empty. Hopeless. Take me away. 180915 2239hr

Fuck feelings

So upset He's still not texting me This aint okay This aint fine This is why i hesitate to get into all this Fuck feelings Arrow in my heart 10 Sept 2015 2350hr

I miss you

I miss you So much it ache I have not miss this much since forever Till you Let me know if the fondness is mutual Let me know if i should not expect any of you anymore It ache, this missing It scares, how you went silent all of a sudden Was it me? Was it how i look? Was it? It ache, all this guessing It ache, how i cant dare myself to ask It ache, how you keep your silence Revealing nothing And my heart drown in sea of assumption I miss you Much more than i plan to want Far more than i can let myself to Is this love Is this fondness just a coat for belonging I wish you'd say something Tell me Of dissapointment Of what i was lacking Of why you keep the silence I miss you It ache 10sept2016 0101hr

#vsj

Met VSJ for the first time ever!

Omg😱😍☺️☺️ So i met Valen for the first time ever today. 23Aug2015 He's cute. Eyes, hair, height. Perf☺️ He and his cousin, Lexter came to labuan on 8am jesselton-labuan ferry. They arrived and ask me out for the day, but i decline cs friggin shy and im not ready.__. Told em i went Got marathan and masak sup tulang satu kawah at friends house lol wtf So the next morning, i ask them for breakfast. Just valen actly, but Lexter joined. I said the more the merrier lol. So we ate, chat a bit. Kinda awkward. But okay. And then we went to skypark buy some beer for their friend, sat outside for a while, i think Lexter took a pic of us. Later i followed them to Beta apartment. Sat for a while, meet their friends. Valen is nice. Idk if he likes me. Maybe im not attractive enough, but i hope he likes me. Kinda sad he didnt hug me :/ a handshake at farewell. What a dissapointment. Lol I wish we talk more when we meet again. P/s kinda upset he didnt look like Kihong Lee😂 Cmo 24aug2015 0010 Going to reply valen's text. Hee

V.S.Jr

Guess you've found someone else to talk to.. Funny how fast we catch feelings and reciprocally just lose it. I thought i shouldnt love you. Why didnt i listen to myself.. 12052015 - 2358hr

psvlms

facts-i-just-made-up

Mated turtles share their shells!

Not always but often when a pair of turtles mates, the male will leave his own shell and move in with the female. After doing so the couple will coordinate their arm and leg movements to walk and even swim.

gay-for-toasters

I call this “Trying to get notes with false facts.”

facts-i-just-made-up

I assure you, Facts-I-Just-Made-Up would never post false facts just to get notes. I also do it to confuse, misinform, and hurt people.

Effer

Effer bad mood. Urgh. Effer effer effer After this i'll be sharp as fuck. Effer. Effer. Effer. Fucking effer

nervouscrashh

bitwisdom

i didn’t know mountain dew had that much cocaine

wrathandruin-blog

#puberty strikes again

wereopossum

son of a bitch we just got neville longbottomed by a goddamn cartoon

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neville longbottomed

Birthday

Hello. In few minutes, it'll be my birthday. 18 January 2015. Im officially 24years old. Goodness. Cant believe im at this age already. To be frank, im always nervous when my birthday come. Cs things almost always go bad on the day :/ it's scary ya know. I tend to wish nothing bad'll happen instead of feeling giddy. On that note. I decided to write a letter to God. The universe. To myself. To future. Dear God, hi. I must thank you for this life. Im still young and thing couldve go bad for many decisions ive made, but thanks to you, im still here. Alive, healthy, safe and comfortable. At times i wanted things. At times im scared of what will come. At times im afraid to decide. At times im even afraid to want. It felt selfish and stupid everytime i said 'i'll handle this to God' because deep inside i know that phrase was just a scapegoat to blame someone, something for what happened. I feel like a loser. So powerless. I cant even handle blaming my own self. At times, when stuff happened. Hurt grace the mind for a mere second, and then i get over it. Well not really, but you know what i mean. It kinda feel good when i think about it. Able to get over bad news in a flash. But inside..it felt numb. Numb of bad news. Numb of what i always thought inevitable, to people, never me. Argh enough of this bad thought. Dear God, dear universe. Please help me in whatever coming my way. Please. Im sure im getting a job soon. Help me to adjust well and be happy with the changes. Thanks you.. My mom. Help her. Help her in all the way possible. Please..she's all we have to hold on to. I love her too much it hurts seeing her, seeing us like this. :( My little sister. Bless her. Grant her happiness, God. She deserves all of it. My little brother. Bless him. I know he'a going through hard time. Bless him. Grant him strengh, God. Olevia. Bless her. She's so much like me..it scares me.. Tetek. Bless him. Please let him stray away from the path of unrighteousness. Dear God, i might find love soon. Bless the one who smitten my heart. Bless him, for i am hard, and he dont deserve a hard time.. Dear God, i might not want something, but i know i need it in sometime in the future..all this i'll let you handle..i give in to you. Dear me. I love you. Youre strong and smart. May happiness be granted in our journey. 3 minutes to 18Jan, . . . . . . 18Jan2015 0000 Happy Birthday self. :)