•My Beliefs•

It's what you choose to believe that makes you the person you are...

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woah she’s back.

hey there. it’s 2019. that’s new. i will be updating way more now that my schedule has cleared up a bit. but for now, i have to go. i can’t wait to write on here more.

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what even. an quick(but not really) announcement

hey guys. im back, hello. i have been very busy over the summer just doing some personal stuff and i do have an update for you guys. so be ready, and thank you for bearing with me i will be back on track soon. xoxo

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Life sucks, but in a beautiful kind of way

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Hello! So I am here again guys. I will give you a little update on what’s been going in my life. I am really happy to say that I’ve gotten over “ex-best friends” and still don’t really have a stable friendship. The thing I’ve really hated though is that I am getting a lot of disrespect which I absolutely. What sucks, even more, is that I don’t stand up for myself, which is obviously not good for me. I just feel so useless, not only to classmates but even to teachers that treat me differently than the others. :(  I mean I still have my books which is good because that is all I'm going to be doing. That is my medicine to literally all my problems. But I came across this quote and it is very true. I am not going to take any more disrespect. I am going to make the rest of the school year enjoyable for me and not going to take any more crap from anybody. And I have gotten a lot better and not putting myself down so I guess that is a plus. ;) But people will talk behind your back but that's why they are behind you. I just see so many wonderful people on youtube say that they have no friends and it’s just terrible what the world is going through. But this is just a message to keep staying optimistic and to have a happy place to run to. This might be eating ice-cream (which helps a lot :))) ) or binge-watching your favorite episodes on Netflix. For me personally, I like to read, watch youtubers that makes me laugh like Shane Dawson, Liza Koshy, Lele Pons, GameTheory/FilmTheory, and more.This is the message for today. Also, you are beautiful just the way you are.

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This song goes with my most recent post. Go check it out! P.S. The song is amazing and I love Grace!!

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GUYSSSS! THIS IS SUCH A GOOD SONG AND IF YOU GUYS ARE GOING THROUGH A HARD TIME LISTEN TO THIS. -ps sorry for the screaming im just excited ;) have a great day♡

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Hi guys. This is such an incredible quote and I think it is the appropriate time for it. I had always thought I needed a certain person to make me happy, or that when I had broken away from people that I used to care about I would never be happy again. Obviously, it took time, but good things are like that. I love myself and I am so thankful to be in this wonderful person. My new friends make me so happy, but I know that even without them that I have a purpose in this life. I think that this is so important to know and it is true to all of you. I do have to admit, I do sometimes get in a puddle of sadness. Whenever I have a constant reminder of people that have hurt me throughout the day it sucks. ANd sometimes in life, you cant prevent that. It frickin sucks to see someone you have known forever change in front of your eyes. It sucks to see them have fun without you. But you know what? THEY DON’T DESERVE YOU. You are your own beautiful creature that deserves good people. And sometimes the best friend for you is yourself. You don’t need anybody else to keep you happy and that is perfectly fine. Although it can be nice to have a shoulder to lean on, just know that chances are that shoulder won’t be there forever. It is just the natural way of growing out of old friends. And everybody has to learn to be their own shoulder to cry on because that is who you spend all your time with. Yourself. So take care of yourself. Hope you guys liked that inspirational bit. Have a great day cuties!- xoxo Me

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Ok so..

So currently I had let go of my previous friends because of one really bad friendship breakup. I was just tired of trying at everything and it was like my battery of life had got all its power sucked out of it. Because of this more friends were getting distant. When I “recovered” I had no friends and my poor choices just crumbled me down. I wasn’t sure why I was getting so affected by this girl when she was living her life with her new friends. I talked to my friends and some didn’t work out as I planned. But that is just how life is and it can’t all work out all the time. I am glad though, that I got my feelings out and that my true friends stuck with me. Right now though, I am getting way better at focusing on myself and now I don’t have a care in this world for the girl that broke my life. In fact, I have forgiven her and prayed for her. I have found a great group of friends, and another friend that I actually think will get me. No joke. Currently, we are working on a project together and I guess the quotes weren’t wrong when they said things will get better because they did. For some people, it might take longer than others, and even though sometimes I catch myself glancing at how much fun my ex-friend is having I know that I can look back and have my own fun with my new friends. So if you are having a bad day and reading this, just know that change will take time, but it will happen for the good and better. I love all of you and this was just something I wanted to share with you. I have met some great friends that I might have never talked to before and gained so many new information and self-improvement.

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im back ;)

Hey, Y'all I am so sorry for just ghosting you guys out. I got unmotivated and stressed with school. Also, my life has changed but stayed the same in many ways so I am going back to those long update inspirational texts! I missed Tumblr and it’s great to be back. xoxo-Me

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hey ;)

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Good things take time ;)

Quote of the month strikes once again!

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Hiya! I missed you guys because I haven’t posted in a while. So I'm back. So some stuff has happened because life goes on. Sadly, due to me being sick I sadly lost my meditation streak and it has been a few weeks and the effects are tremendous. I have gone to my negative self and it sucks. So I am trying to start. Today will be my official first day of meditation that I am marking on Tumblr. I went back to mourning over the loss of my old friend and I need to stop. I’m constantly having mood swings. I mean I guess it’s just part of growing up right? I am close to losing another close friend and life has just been exhausting. It’s kinda fascinating and kinda helpful that I took a meditation break because it has shown me how much meditation has actually affected me and how without it my life is literally chaos. Still having a hard time with friends, but definitely, things are better now. I have been a stronger person and it’s nice to see that change with Tumblr. I really didn’t know what to write but here is a little filler in my life I guess. I recently got into a fight with my parents as the average teenager does and I have gotten smarter and I have gotten better at not comparing myself to anyone I guess. Looking at memes and jamming to my favorite songs really help. Anyways, that’s really it. Sorry if you didn’t want to hear me talk about my life because it is really boring lol. I hope that everyone who is reading this has a great day ;) Everything will get better. xoxo-me

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Hi guys! I missed you guys a lot but I’m back in action again! I know that the last post was very unexpected and abrupt. From that last post, I feel like I have learned a lot about my life and I have grown from that day. If you remember, my first rant post was about friendship breakups and how much that impacted me. Slowly but surely, from that day I am here slowly bringing up the positivity. I have made a lot of new friends that I just haven’t noticed before and they make me feel great. I remember my previous lesson about being careful with friends and not being too clingy, or opening up all my weaknesses. Everyone deserves a good friend that they can spill their guts out to and I think that it makes it even easier after a friend breakup to differentiate the “good” friends and “bad” friends. I know what stuff I look for in a friend which ensures me to a better relationship. I thought that things would never get better but here I am happy. I wake up every day and just start saying stuff I’m thankful for like my books and my blankets. I will admit though the past months, although I try not to care, I always catch myself looking on social media or in classes how fun my ex-friend is having without me. Or just what they are doing in general. This is toxic for you and blocks you from moving on. I think for me, this is the month that I completely move on and be happy. Like the quote of this month says, the storm will weather out and sunshine will shine in your way. Now though, I find myself actually enjoying myself with my friends and not caring as much as I did before. If you feel like you can’t move on, then what I would recommend is to just delete/block the other person if you find yourself constantly scrolling through there pictures. For me, I just deleted all my social media handles where the person is because I don't use it that much, and also I don’t want any sort of toxic stuff in my life. This just allowed me to stop myself and live my life. When I live my life, my enemies will automatically get hurt because they don't wanna see you winning. The point is not to hurt the enemy, but to just make sure you don't get hurt. I have forgiven my ex-best friend a long time ago in my heart but I don’t want a person that will treat me like crap in my life. It just won't work. My new friends will hopefully make things better in my life. WHo knows, this could just lead to so many new memories.... Have a good one ;) xoxo-me

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Be strong, because things will get better. It may be stormy now, but it never rains forever

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Just that point where I feel like absolute and I am just crying listening to sad music....just amazing. Sorry for that intro. And hey ;) Today was a bad day for me and I wanted to just post this for some reason. I feel like I have come a long way from my last post but here I am again with no positivity and feeling like absolute poop. I feel like I have tried so hard to just become a better me by meditating, and trying to make some new friends, and get better in classes but nothing seems to be working for me. Sorry that this is just a rant but I feel like I need to get it out and I have no friends so imma just do that here. Sorry welp. If you don’t like rants I suggest you click out of this post. Ok back to the rant. I walk into math class thinking that it is going to be a good day but I am legit always put down. There is always someone better than me and that hurts. I feel like no matter how hard I try to be positive and be good in class I am still second, third, or maybe even fourth in all class assignments. I don't know what I am doing wrong and I feel like I do enough hard work to keep me up all night. I am not perfect but I do feel like I try my best at times. I still feel like poop and dumb because I don’t know this stuff. I just want to be smart ok. I just want to be noticed and recognized. But no. No matter what I do I just always seem Never Enough. Ps. I love that song from Greatest Showman. I want to be happy and I do all this meditation and quotes things but I have to admit I am not perfect. Neither am I the best in class which sucks. I always seem put down and none of the teachers recognize me because they are busy with their favorite students. I just ugh....I am so sick and tired of not getting recognized for what I do and I know that this whole thing sounds really selfish. My brain is just gone to mush and not functioning...Anyways I know this isn’t the regular and I will try to limit myself to posting these types of posts...bye. xoxo-me

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Hello. I don’t feel like talking/ranting today honestly so i am just going to let today’s post speak for itself. Thanks guys ;) xoxo-Me✨

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Inhale courage exhale fear

Unknown... Ah I love this quote and I just realized that I haven’t done the quote of the month so here it is! This month I have tried a lot of new things that scare me. I want to get better at them and just show the universe that I am worth it even though it is a scary place. This quote is so touching and I think that it really does represent me because I even have started meditation which has helped me mentally so much I totally reccomend it. And the “inhale and exhale” kinda sounds like meditation. Now, I am going into a random rant but I just wanted to show you guys this amazing quote and hopefully a positive message! Lots of love xoxo- Me