[xskyborne]

Been a minute. Things are weird. I feel... Better. And different. And grown. I've reached a good point in healing where I think it's safe to say I'm not in love anymore. Thank God. My ex has become a random internet acquaintance, which is weird considering everything we did together lol, and while I do still love him in some weird abstract way... I guess I'm just over it now? I dunno.

I like that though. I deserve more than that. I wasn't even worth the bare minimum in the end. That will probably bother me for the rest of my life btw. That was some of the most blatant disrespect that I have ever experienced from a person who claimed to love and care about me lol.

I do resent him for some things. Most of it isn't really his fault, idk. It's my own fault for knowingly dating someone who I knew was like this. I knew it was a bad idea and I remember literally thinking to myself in his fucking house "this is probably a bad idea but I'm so lonely I don't even care. Worth it." Now my whole life timeline is fucked up. I didn't realize how much I wanted kids until after the breakup and now I have daily anxiety about being too old and I should've already had a baby and blah blah blah.

Idk. I do want to date again. I hate dating. I hate getting to know people. It's exhausting having to do the social performance and I hate texting. If I'm going to be stuck in my hometown I might as well make the best of it. Because I am stuck here. I was before, technically. I don't know why I thought he'd change his mind or that I could live independently. God I'm so glad I didn't do that. I listened to my gut.

I am still lonely and I have to make sure I don't immediately latch on to whoever gives me attention first. But I'm also relieved now. I'm glad I'm not going to make all those poor choices just so someone would give me more attention 😅 he would never do any of that shit for me (as we can see). Honestly I feel if it was saving himself or saving me he would've picked himself.

Story of my life though with always trying so hard to be included in a life someone already had established. I gotta be convenient and flexible or I'm tossed aside. Fuck that. I'm legit like a dog lol.

I'm doing okay. That's the point. I think I'm going to try dating intentionally now. Soon. I got shit to do and I want love.

[ruinedchildhood]

[becherdireinen]

the love you give others will find it’s way back to you.

[grillmasterxbbq]

waters so amazing because you can drink it really sloppy style and like spill it all over yourself and it doesnt even leave a stain. you dont even have to wash it out/ . because its already washed

[worldbuilding-tomfoolery]

yet another massive w for water, the greatest fluid in the universe

[venndaai]

have you guys heard about the greenland shark. some crazy shit happening there.

[venndaai]

they are sexually mature at ONE HUNDRED AND FIFTY YEARS OLD.

their (live!) young gestate for. wait for it. eight to eighteen (??) YEARS. can have up to 10 at a time. good grief.

longest lifespan of any vertebrate, up to five hundred years

toxic flesh

has giant eyes but is usually blind because of a weird little crustacean that's evolved to live on and eat their eyes. this doesn't seem to bother them much.

lives in deep cold water and has the lowest swim speed and tail-beat frequency for its size across all fish species. just generally lives life in extreme slow motion

largest genome of any shark

eats everything including moose and polar bears

ma'am you are delightfully strange and I'm privileged to share a planet with you

[fluorescentbrains]

this post prompted me to refresh my memory on Greenland Shark Facts and this detail about how they feed goes so hard

just vacuuming up their unsuspecting prey. whole !

[muffinlance]

Good news good news good news! Recent research suggests the eye parasites do NOT blind them!

Eye-opening research: Greenland sharks maintain vision for centuries through DNA repair mechanism

Dorota Skowronska-Krawczyk sits in her office, eyes fixed on the computer monitor in front of her. "You see it move its eye," says the UC Ir

I <3 you a normal amount Greenland sharks

[shamebats]

"it's just stress" oh thank god, it's just the silent killer that slowly kills you, perfectly harmless, no need to worry

[a-substantial-trash-pile]

the newest hit on my island

[nekosaws]

reblog this to be an annoying faggot at ur followers

[pokemonheritageposts]

Pokemon Heritage Post

[dankxsinatra]

American naturalization test

[vintagewildlife]

Gull inspecting two fake eggs and deciding to incubate the larger one By: Thomas D. McAvoy From: Life Nature Library: Animal Behavior 1965

[abyssalcaptain]

[dead-dyke]

You wrote about murder?? Murder is illegal?? You wrote about this dude killing someone and you didn't even say 'murder is bad' at the start of the book, wht wtf, wtf is wrong with you? I can't believe you condone murder, I can't believe you're pro murber, oh my fucking God don'ttalk to me when ou literally kill people, freak. I'm calling the cops, what the fuck, I'm shaking and crying.

[goatedgreen]

i hate that when you try and look up shit for writing purposes it starts linking suicide hotlines and addiction advice articles like bro i just wanna know the information im not killing myself i promise. now tell me what i wanna know

[teabree-shark]

[m0thmancore]

[junglejim4322]

They need a pride flag for this

[cutecipher]

there's art inside me trying to get out

[forgamers]

[taragrimface]

oblivion is an abysmal game and everyone should play it

[lesbyterianchurch]

Farewell!

[quinzelade]

The comedic timing in this is Oscar worthy

[freakvampiresex]

its nothing some ibuprofen and a blunt and 5 beers and a head injury and jacking off and killing myself cant fix