Excuse Me

[xxcuseme]

Sometime I wonder if I ever had the rights to be angry?

I am tired

I need my own life

If I confront him..

If I tell him how I feel..

He will assume the worse like break up

[quotemadness]

“Try a little harder to be a little better.”

— Unknown

[xxcuseme]

Will you be surprise?

What if one day you find out that the person you love cheated on you before/ during/ after the relationship.

What will you do?

I think, I will be so numb like taking morph and I can’t feel anything.

Maybe lock myself up and cry for 5-10 mins. Wash my face as in a form of slapping myself to wake up and brace myself and to fight to end what I called a useless cycle that will repeat itself.

I won’t be surprise too if it did ever happen to me because the people around me do have fling, ONS and cheated on their gf/fiancée/wife.

But how do you be brave and walk down this path to heal yourself? Isn’t it obvious? Open a bottle of champagne. Get back in life. Contact the people who your partners stop you from talking or even hang out. Voice out your frustration to the sea and cheers to the stars and angles above them.

Start planning and start learning.

You will never be alone because look around your family if not friends are always there to show you love and care.

[xxcuseme]

Never knew it...

Ok as you read the two post below.

Let me honestly tell you guys.

Those are the reminder of me still being depressed.

But I am still trying to be happy with where I am and I am happy for the rest of my ex too who move on!

Please be safe and be happy with the choice we Made last time.

It’s a sign that we have move on and I am happy!

With much love,

Xxcuseme!!

[xxcuseme]

Seeing that smile on your face.

I am glad that I have a chance to see your smile again B. I am thankful for that.

I know you are doing great with your life and your current gf.

I hope this stays as we pretend we never walk pass each other, as we have never existed in our life.

May you have happiness and blessed love life and life itself.

B PLEASE BE HAPPY AND EXCITED!

[xxcuseme]

I am sorry...

As much as I want to acknowledge you guys as M,s parents and sibling, but at the same time it is hard for me to acknowledge knowing that what your Son choose to do to me not Long ago and i don’t have the courage to talk and I don’t want to expose him and rather keep an image of him being the perfect son and brother.

I am sorry Uncle and Aunty and also to you T.

I rather be the bad person for the one I use to love and still respect rather than spoiled their images.

I would love to tell you guys, I am happy with where am I and how I am doing but your Son have make me so heartbroken that I can’t bring myself.

Please understand.

Thank you!

[xxcuseme]

I think my current mood now is, please leave me alone. I just wanted to be alone.

[xxcuseme]

You all are two face with fake love and appreciation.

[xxcuseme]

Why stay? when one assume you didn’t work harder.

what a fuck up place to be.

[xxcuseme]

Sometime when I am alone, I think alot

[xxcuseme]

When you realise how foolish you are, how stupid you are. Things can’t change.

What is done is done.~

[xxcuseme]

I am insecure. Everyday seeing people getting hurt and you start to realise, will it happen to me one day? How do I react toward if?

Should I believe the person I am seeing.

Is the person I am seeing genuine?

No matter how much trust you put in someone, if that person is not there to comfort your insecurities.

Is that a red flag?

[xxcuseme]

If someone don’t give you the assurance, what do you do?

I willing to do anything for you, but without an assurance.

I find it hard to continue.

[xxcuseme]

Feel so awkward to eat alone that I decide to take away my order and eat some where else.

[xxcuseme]

When you need:

Someone to lean on or a listening ear, nobody is there for you.

When you don’t need something, people jus appeared

[dg-fragments]

Oh, my dear, can you still not see,

I’m merely a broken heart, but still feeling,

I wake up in middle of night still, screaming,

Inside my head, for I still have no voice,

Silence is deafening, still too much of noise,

Engulfed in the besottedness still, what has become of me.

- DG

[love-diaries]

“I’m a simple person who hides a thousand feelings behind the happiest smile.”

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