heyy primaš¤ i saw a post of yours appear in my dshboard and as im not in the community it belongs to i thought i would reach out here :)) disordered eating stole my mind and my soul and it only took almost losing my life as well to recognize it was a parasite. TW i had been starving myself for months when i became light headed in the shower one day and passed out. i was concussed and sent to the emergency room for near fatal hypothermia by the time my mother found me.
recovery took nearly a year, and every now and then i felt like i had failed. even many many moons later i find my mind lingering on food.
its not an easy road. at all. you will take a step forward and end up two steps behind. please please please dont let the darkness discourage you, there is a light at the end of the tunnel and i promise it is so much more beautiful than a moment of euphoria.
if you eat small portions, increase how many portions you have a day gradually. add a smoothie to your diet, then maybe some vegetables you've never tried before, check out a butcher shop. eat until you fill satisified, not hungry or bloated. your body will do the rest.
you dont deserve muscles that cant carry you to all the wonderful places you want to go. you dont deserve an immune system that cant protect you. you dont deserve having your own feces stuck in your intestines due to a weakening bowel. you dont deserve having the option to birth a child ripped from you. you dont deserve a bladder you cannot control because of brittle bones.
i promise you are so beautiful and you dont need to discipline yourself like this to prove you are hardworking. you are capable. i know you are capable. you can achieve happiness and bliss and serenity, which is truly the lightest feeling in the world, lighter than a feather in the wind.š©·
tysmmm for taking the time writing these encouraging words!!!
this post genuinely means sm to me, every doubt i had has been answered. itās like u saw into my brain and saw every worry.
itās fascinating how similar we all are and how many struggles we share.
before making my post i felt like i was struggling with the most unique and uncommon struggles.
im so thankful for all responses (especially this one), theyāve rlly opened my eyes and helped me a lot. ily all šŖ½š
