i still have no idea

i scored "90% Turbulent" on a personality test once so i guess there's that.

[xylvrstar]

i've never left home to live somewhere else but

logging in here feels like going back to see your childhood bedroom ???

[sashayed]

me: okay, that’s enough. i can’t live like this. i gotta change my life. i gotta make moves

the world: ok here is an Opportunity

me:

[xylvrstar]

tell em girl

[xylvrstar]

well i feel like im back to being an emotionless void but the motivation to do thesis still hasn’t come back

[xylvrstar]

i remember now, another reason i left tumblr was because it uses up too much of my data lmao

[xylvrstar]

OK BUT LIKE WHY DID I COME BACK HERE

[xylvrstar]

anyway so idk how to write an intro about it so i’ll just go ahead and

i didn’t graduate last year

i dropped my thesis subject bc i couldn’t finish it on time and like, there have been people who literally did their WHOLE THESIS like, A WEEK before deliberations and they passed (???) but

i’m too much of a perfectionist and a nervous wreck to try and present a half-assed project that’s supposed to be the culmination of what i’ve learned in the past 5 years so i didn’t push through with it

these are too long to be in bullets lol

anyway

so i got depressed a bit, stayed away from social media for a while (facebook, tumblr, twitter)

in the meantime i took some classes to learn some architecture-related software,

self-studied Japanese

「　私は日本語を勉強しました。」

which ive forgotten most of by now lol

come january, i enrolled again to take that final thesis class

i turned 22 about two weeks ago!!!

also im supposed to be doing a site plan for my thesis instead of being here

so that’s where i am now

IM SO STRESSED

[xylvrstar]

OK BUT LIKE WHY DID I COME BACK HERE

[nevver]

[997]

[jehovahhthickness]

If your friends don’t do this at your funeral, are they really your friends??????

[jehovahhthickness]

And the sobbing is what KILLS me

[arzetweets]

[capacity]

I really just ignore phone calls. Like leave a message. I don’t check those either but like

[blazeofgold-deactivated20190921]

i know resting bitch face is like a joke thing but um has anyone ever talked about how profoundly soul-destroying it is to be told you look sad or angry or like you hate everyone when you uhhh actually are…genuinely trying to be nice or gregarious or even were in quite a good mood and had literally no idea you were even coming across as aloof or unpleasant 

[aestheticacadema]

do u ever get those days where u actually look kinda ok and u take 400 selfies bc this day may never come again

[eggcup-deactivated20180129]

me: i’m eating dirt for breakfast (kidding) (obvious) (stupid)

blogger that is in their first year of college: Okay I laughed but Actually, smashed rock particles (aka dirt) was used in a variety of ancient cultures as a form of birth control. Very renowned and respected substance. Sorry, Archaeology student here. Just thought I’d give some valuable information today.

[dennys]

Why are you like this?

you made us this way

[peachdoxie]

This is the most accurate meta-commentary on the relation between social media and a corporation I’ve ever seen.

[justbadpuns]

A guy walks into a bar and noticed three pieces of meat hanging off the ceiling. He asks the bartender why they are there, the bartender replies “if you can jump up and slap the meat you get free drinks for the rest of the night, however if you miss you have to pay for everyone’s drinks for the next hour. Wanna try it” the guy says “Nah the steaks are to high”

[spacetwinks]

[puts water in blender by itself] [puts on highest setting for a full minute] fuck you