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@xzendayaxcolemanx
xzendayaxcolemanx:
zendayacoleman: now I might actually come over to distracted you from unpacking babe. @tomxhollandx
@TomHolland1996: Would that be such a bad thing? @zendayacoleman
zendayacoleman: No, it would not. @tomxhollandx be over in a few then?
xzendayaxcolemanx:
zendayacoleman: @tomxhollandx I don’t wanna unpack my things. I wouldn’t be no help to you babe to help you. 😋
@TomHolland1996: @zendayacoleman Maybe, maybe not. Either way you are a welcome distraction, love.
zendayacoleman: now I might actually come over to distracted you from unpacking babe. @tomxhollandx
zendayacoleman: How can I convince my boyfriend to stop unpacking his stuff and just come over to help me instead? #thoughts
@TomHolland1996: @zendayacoleman Well you could always offer to help him, and he will gladly help you.
zendayacoleman: @tomxhollandx I don’t wanna unpack my things. I wouldn’t be no help to you babe to help you. 😋
zendayacoleman: How can I convince my boyfriend to stop unpacking his stuff and just come over to help me instead? #thoughts
Zendaya and Tom Holland appear on the Graham Norton Show
Zendaya in this outfit 🔥
ZendayaColeman: Your birthday was the other day. And it felt wrong not being by your side. Happy Birthday from a complete stranger. 🎉🎉
How did you guys find out about Iron Man’s death?
@hollandoakgrove
After the party, things with Zendaya have been off balance especially after seeing him. But she wasn't going to let moving day with Tom get ruin. She was excited to be moving in with him. As she was done unpacking the kitchen. She found Tom in their bed room. Walking quietly to him, standing next to him. "Boo" Zendaya said, with a giggle. "Done unpacking the kitchen, how about you?" she asked. @hollandoakgrove
Tom flopped down on the couch after kissing Zendaya's cheek. "You say that you're starving as if that isn't a common occurance for you" he teased her with a grin. "As for what I had in mind, I was thinking Italian, a nice candlelight dinner, just you and me and a bottle of red with our spaghetti or ravioli or whatever"
Zendaya laughed but it was true. She always was hungry and she couldn't help it. "Hey, I can't help me. I love food!" she said, taking a seat next to him. Zendaya could help but smile. "That sounds perfect babe!" she agreed with him but it was true, it sound so good for her. "Look at you, we are even having wine with it." she joked with him. @hollandoakgrove
After that horrible night, Zendaya would always go to sleep wonder what if, what if she did not destroy their relationship, their future. Where would she be now? Where would they be together? Those kind of thoughts still keep her up at night, Wondering why she did what she did to him. Someone that gave his whole heart to her. The heart she destroyed. The day after that night, Zendaya lost so many friends and respect from so many. She deserved it after hurting a wonderful man. She is scared to see this Rami, to know this Rami. Its probably the best to say goodbye tonight and never see each other any more. To just let it be, let him hurt her. She deserved it. She did not deserve the way he was treating her right, a part of her wants him to yell at her and tell her all the words he should say to her. These words were hurting her more then him yelling at her. In a way, she was expecting for him to throw some glasses on the floor or bottles and tell her that she is the worst human being ever. That she should go to hell. She hated they he hates himself, he has no reason to hate himself, he did nothing but be the prefect boyfriend anyone would be lucky to have in their life. She not only hurt him, she hurt herself because after that night too. Now that she was thinking maybe that is why she said yes to this dinner no matter how it would go good or bad but this dinner was needed. She could not be strong with him anymore, she was cracking hard, she could not hold it in. She shook her head when she heard what he said "You do not need to be sorry for anything Rami, you never did anything wrong. I am the one that should be apologizing tell you sorry from the rooftop and begging for your forgiveness." Zendaya said after he apologize which he did not need to at all. The past can never be erased but for her it will always be in her mind and heart. When a certain song starts playing, when a certain show, or even a certain emotion hits her. Their memories, their past will always haunt her. And she will learn to control it and become stronger then she was being right now. She will not show her weakness when someone brings up Rami Malek. Rami will become a stranger to here after tonight and she will learn like she did before. "I did." Is all she managed to say when she heard him speak again. Her words mean so much to her but her actions spoke louder to him. She will never earn his trust ever again. "Its okay Rami, You do not have to believe my words, I know I lose my trust with you. But right now, this is the most vulnerable I have been in a long time." She spoken honesty with him, right now was the last chance, she had to let her feelings everything out with him. "Do not worry, our forever ends tonight like it never happen." she had to speak up to him, she had to share everything now before its to late. Her future was at home waiting for her. When he pulled her into that hug, it broke her. She let the tears fall down her cheeks, she could not help. It was like she lost control at that moment. Z did not know that hug was going to break her. When he pulled away, she took a big deep breath, and wiped the tears from her cheeks for one last time. Her eyes just keep looking at him and when he spoke, she did not look any where else but him. She just shook her head in agreement with what he said. She honestly was not surprised with what he told her, she was expecting that maybe even some worst from him but even if she scream I HATE YOU in his face, it was not true. She would never hate him no matter what he would have done to her tonight. "I would have deserved whatever you had plan for me Rami. I would have taken it like I deserve it because I do." she did not know what else to say but this was it, it was getting closing to having to say goodbye and she did not want to end it but they had too. Tonight was it and it was all over for good for the both of them. "Loved? I will always love you Rami Said Malek. And believe me, what we lived before I won't forget our love." She said, ready to crack again, But she was going to hold it in, she was not going to break in front of him again. "I will miss this Rami." she said, as she gave him a kiss on his chest. She did not know what else to say or do. The end was coming and it was scaring her so much. "I will see you in my dreams and my memories." She spoke without even thinking about it. She knew what he meant and she could not hear it anymore. It was time, she looked at him one more time. Looking at his jaw, at his lips, at his nose, and his eyes on last time. "I love you Rami, but its time." She said, giving him a kiss again on his cheek. And walking away from his arms when she reached his fingertips, she looked at him, her eyes watery. "Love you, Goodbye Rami." Turning her back on him, walking towards the door. When she reached the door, she took a deep breath, and turn back at him. Remembering him one last time and she smiled at him one last time. @malekhq
To think that things would have been so different between them right now, they could be moving into their first home together, having their first child, or a million of other things but one mistake fucked it all up for them. Their future, but there is no more future. Just a hurtful past that still hurts the both of them very much. This dinner is a goodbye to the past that once meant so much to Zendaya but now its a goodbye to him, to them, to what they were, and to what they could have been. The future is now different for the both of them, she is creating the life she wanted to have with him, with someone else. The fact that no matter how much he has changed, she can still read his body language, his expressions, his touches. The way he was looking at her right now, she was not going to forget it. His eyes always said more then what he would say. He still had a soul that she loved at some point. its somewhere in there. No matter how old Zendaya gets or even when she is eighty four years old, she was going to remember her first love, the love they had is unforgettable. No matter how hard they both tried to forget about it. A future without him as friend or even a person in her life would suck. But she would respect his decision. She smiled when she heard what he said "You had your ways for sure, you knew how to enchant me with those ways" Smiling as she was looking at him, but with his next words, her smile faded. "I hate myself more then you know for causing you a pain, you never deserve Rami." She was truly sorry because he never did anything wrong for her to treat him that way. He treated her like a queen but she killed it when she fucked up that night. She looked at him when he wiped the tears from her cheek, she could not help it, it just happen. She could not control it, as much as she is trying to hold it in. His words were having her feel a way, she has not felt in a long time. "If only I can tell you what you have brought to my life, that I will always carry in here" She pointed to her heart, as she was speaking to him. This moment was going to be imprinted in her heart, this goodbye is probably one of the hardest thing she will probably ever have to do. Saying good bye to her first love. She took a deep breath, his next words were a hit for her. Because what he said was true. "I guess like an addicted you fight it to not want it anymore, no matter what." She said to him, it killed her but she was going to say it. "You are my forever drug Rami." She said open to him. No matter who he builds his life with again after this goodbye, she is always going to have that thought in her mind that, that should have been her by his side getting married, getting his smiles, his stares, his touches but life had other plans for the both of them. Z is now understanding that life after tonight is going to be different and that she had to start accepting that fact. That Rami will not be there as a lover, as a friend, but as a completely stranger that will walk by her. Feeling his arms around her waist, it felt good even if it was for a few minutes. Her mind was telling her one thing but her heart was telling her another. It felt so wrong but yet it felt right and she did not want it to end. Sliding her hands down to his chest, catching her breath after the kiss. She put her forehead on his, and closed her eyes. Just wanting to hear their breathing without words being exchange at all at least for a few seconds. When he spoke again, she open her eyes and looked at him. "Our last night together" she replied his words. It was true, it was their last everything, their last words, their last looks, their last touches, their last kiss. "I loved you too Rami Malek" Zendaya quick responding to him. Fight back the water works with his next words, it killed her so much in the inside. "This love was once in a lifetime." She said, before her voice cracked. She was breaking but she was going to fight to hold it in together. "I do understand, the pieces aren't there anymore from us to be together ever again." it was true they weren't, what they had could not ever be put together or repaired. She gave him a small "It was good seeing you.." Her voice cracked, before she could finished her sentence but she still manage to do it. "One last time." Still in his arms, she leaned in and gave him a kiss on the cheek. "One last time" she repeated again. @malekhq
These moments of quiet between them mean a lot more then them exchanging words. Just by him looking at him, she can tell from his eyes that there is more that he wants to say or maybe he even feels. She wanted to remember the details of his face, of his eyes, of his jaws if it means that this is the last time they will be in each other lifes. When she leaves tonight that she will remember him for who he was and who has become because of what she did. The fact is she does not hate him for what he has told her, she always has prefer honest even though she could not offer the same to him and that is why they are the way, they are now. If distance is what he wants, that is what he is going to get. She will look forward for her future if it means he won't be in it even as a friend. When he finally spoke, she shook the thoughts from her mind. Looking at him, having this close made her heart raced and still she has to push him away. "I guess we are." She said to him, her thoughts were being taken away with memories from the both of them but she has to shake them off because right now is not the moment to have them in front of him. She notice that smile after she said his name, and it was a smile, she once loved and now its a good bye to his reacts and his smile. She smiled when she heard his next comment "No, you were not but the way you made me feel with your actions always spoke more then you sharing the way, you felt" She spoke honesty with him, and she laughed softly when she heard his next words, she put her head down. Breaking the stare from him. "I do not blame you Rami, I rather you tell you hate me with all your heart then hate yourself Rami." She closed her eyes and she felt a tear fall down her cheek. Zendaya did not want him to feel that way. She was ready for him to hate her but his words break her because she deserves it after what she did to him. She broke the heart of a good man that did not deserve it. A man that any women would be lucky enough to have in their life. She wiped the tear down her cheek quick for him not to notice and took a deep breath and looked at him. "What is worst being someone nightmare or someone drug?" She asked him, she could not understand why there was pull with him and she knew that this pull was going to be hard to fight once he leaves from her life. This night turned into something she was not expecting at all, she expected a night of them arguing and yelling at each other how much they hate each other but it was the oppisite of what was suppose to happen. "Its fine, I do not want to even know now." Zendaya openly said to him, biting her double lip and just look at her. Why was she feeling weak right now this close to him, as she is trying to fight it so hard to get away from him. "One last drink" She repeated to him in agreement as she could not answer the next part, all she did was stare straight at him. Trying to figure out if that is what he wanted us to take a different path from each other lifes but now he was a little bit hard to figure out. "Wonder wha....." Not finishing what she was going to say when his lips meant hers. He put her hands on his neck to closer as they kissed but she could not control it. When he left go, she looked at him as she catched her breath. "What if that is not what I want to happen?" She spoke without even thinking, her thoughts or everything was so confused right now. That kiss confused everything right now for her even though it was a good bye and she knows it. @malekhq
Zendaya stood there as she was watching him and his body language as he was speaking, she was just going to hear him out from this point on. She was not going to say anything to him unless she had too. Now all she wanted to do was leave and leave everything the way it was right there but still she could not leave until they have spoken everything out and maybe this would be all done between them. "Some are more toxic then other Rami" She replied to him as she continue listening to him. She froze when he moved her hair from her face. "Of course, we won't be the same. Not even like friends Rami. You and I do not belong in each other lives." She openly said to him after what he said, it hurt her a little to say that but it was true to her at least. "Rami..." She said as she took a deep breath before she continue to speak. She heard his next words and she wish the same for him. "Thanks and I wish the same for you Rami" was the simplest thing she could say because honesty she did not know what to think from the way he react a few seconds ago. "Don't believe it with the way you just acted" She said, looking at him straight in the eyes. A part of her did not believe him but all she can do is hope that is was true. Hearing his words, she did not know what to do because from one second to another he turn into a different man and now he did it again. "Here we go again, you and your pure honest. I am your perfect nightmare then" she said, after what he said. she placed her hand on her side, and looked away from him. Taking a deep breath, she hated that she was trying to push him away when she wanted him to touch her like he use to but Zendaya was not that person anymore. That person he was in the past after she hurt him and she hurt herself as well. "What were your original plans Rami?" She asked him, wondering what he had plan for tonight that wasn't what they were doing. When he got even closer, she looked down at his lips and then back to his eyes and how close he was to her. "One last drink and this is it?" She asked him, not moving an inch away from him. @malekhq
Zendaya did not listen to him she still took a seat on his lap. But she did let go of him. but she could tell that should not have done that but something came over her to do it. Zendaya could hear him but she took a deep breath. And was regretting her decision now even more, Zendaya was just asking him but to be honest, She has move on but for herself to build herself again from the person she was with him and being here with was a big mistake on her part but she needed to do it. Zendaya could not help but smile when he heard his next words, this is what she needed to hear. "I am a bad person Rami, I am toxic. So people say. maybe that is why I am change who I am because I broke a man heart without thinking about it twice when I did it. I broke everything from him that he became a different men that is in front of me now. " Zendaya replied to him, when she felt his body change from under her. Zendaya agree with his next statement "Well, I am glad you like this new you then" Zendaya said to him, unfortunate she does not fully know the new Rami and for her she is not interested in this Rami. "I understand you on that Rami because I am not the same Zendaya that was next to you. I am a different person that sometimes I do not even know who I am" she said, honestly to him. She had no idea what else to say to him when she was getting ready to say something, she heard everything he said. And she could not help was giggled as she took a sip of her wine. "That is okay Rami, I have someone else that I know who will catch me in his arms." she said to him, his words was not hurting her. At least he was finally letting a bit of his angry out on her. Zendaya was happy that he was finally letting her happy, it still shook her a bit the way he was speaking to her. But she smiled when he slid her off his lap, looking at him when he stood up. Wiping her tears, she was not going to let his words hurt her anymore. She stood up and fixed herself and her outfit, looking at him. "Finally, these were all the words, I was waiting for you to say to me Rami." She spoke openly to him, and looked at him straight in his eyes. "Trust me Rami, Do not forgive me, that is fine. I earn you not forgiving me, hit me with everything you have. I rather have you hate me then not have you in my life." She said to him, Zendaya was being honest with him. Even though she knows the words she said but push him to hating her even more but it has to be said like everything else they talked about. @malekhq
Hearing those words, broke inside. Him saying it, and made her truly feel even more horrible then what she felt already. Zendaya went over and slide on his lap, and could see that he was suffering because of her. She put one hand on each side of his cheeks as she looked at him. This feelings they were talking about, it was something she has kept hidden that honesty, he is the only one she would tell him about them. “What if I haven’t move on Rami?” She answered him with another question, its true she felt happy with Tom but with Rami, their happiness was different. And she was addicted to him. Zendaya moved to look at him more, letting go of his face. She just stared at him when he was speaking and it was surprising how he described how he was feeling and how everything after them. “I never wanted you to lose trust in people Rami, you never know you might have your happiness in front of you and you have no idea.” Zendaya said to him, she hates that she made him feel that away. “I do not believe you are shallow Rami, those people do not know what I put you through and because of my stupid mistake you became this man. You are still you somewhere in there.” she spoke with honesty, she truly did not know if she could ever get him to feel himself ever again but like he said, he would not be able to trust me or anyone again. Her eyes dropped when he said those words. “What do you want me to tell you Rami? I am not happy, that the person whos heart I broke took mines when I broke his. I am trying to fix my missing heart. The man who was suppose to be the love of my life is not mines anymore because I fucked up. Tom is the one that I am trying to be happy with but with you being near, I want to run into your arms but I would be making the same mistake I made before. Breaking a good mans heart who only love me and I am not going to repeat history.” Zendaya took a deep breath and let it out. She just spilled it out without even thinking. But him saying that he would not be in her life, felt like a string pulled in her heart. “You better not step out of my life.” she said, quick after he said those words. Looking start at him and a few tears fell when those words came out his mouth. “Don’t do that Rami.” when he spoke about putting walls up. She wished he did not do that. @malekhq
