june

8teen/self proclaimed tan vampire/uncomfy? block!!

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tbh i didn’t have many friends on this blog, but this is my personal diary soo…

tw

when life goes up, so does my weight. istg im getting fatter. im scared because i want to lose weight, but the only thing gaining weight gave me was tits and ass. I know as soon as I lose weight they’ll be gone. i haven’t felt as ugly in a while as i do right now. my hair is shit, my face is shit, my life is shit, i can hardly drive, no job. and don’t get me wrong im doing all i can to get all of this back, but at the same time i feel like in getting uglier.

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scared shitless cause i thought this acc got banned

very happy it’s not tho!!!

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a bit of a rant, but i can’t help but feel like my bf views me as a manic pixie dream girl who’s gonna save him from the deep emotional scars he has. or that im going to make his world brighter. he’s the stale white wonder bread boy, and im his manic pixie dream girl. i hate it.

i’m breaking myself to become smaller, and more pretty.

but being in this relationship with him is making me realize that i may not want a relationship with anyone at all, that i dislike being perceived as my realest self. i want to be looked at as a beautiful free bird, but i feel caged by perception.

i don’t need someone to know who the real me is, not because i’m insecure, but because i fear myself, who i really am.

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pls pls pls rebloggg or share w a homie

Update: 9/15 members

✨ (small) an@. group chat ✨

- encouraging low impact cardio

- group fasting (open to ideas)

- meal/exercise check ins (optional)

- boss bitch energy

- no m3an$po

send me a message if you want to join our growing discord tribe, ✨Slim Sisters✨. fyi this is NOT a server, it’s a private groupchat. i don’t want 100 inactive ppl or a server getting termed every few months so I’m capping the gc at 15-20 ppl, we currently have 5.

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If we could meet in real life i bet we would become a cult lmao

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my 3@ting d1s0rd3r has two sides

i eat nothing

or

i eat everything

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someone be mean to me i’m crying cause i just binged

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Does anybody else stand in front of the mirror and pull at all of their fat while crying?

No? Just me? Ok cool 🤩

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broke my fast today, and had 690 cal worth of food. i burnt 212

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if you’re not feeling hungry after a mere 24 hours of fasting…

it just means you have a lot more work to do to feel the change

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it’s me and my disgusting black coffee against the world

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time to tune in to see how long i’ll stick it through this fast <3

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wdym i can’t live off of zero sugar energy drinks?!

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just bought some celsius to help me through my fast tomorrow <3

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when you guys use l@x@tives, what do you use?

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unrelated to this account, but chilli from bluey is a great mom

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tw 3d vent

don’t interact if you are sensitive to such topics.

last night i had an outfit planned to wear today cause if you saw in some of my previous posts i was gonna go out w my bf today. i put it on and i absolutely was reminded why i need to lose weight, and why i have safe clothes. i have a wide ribcage so i need to lose a drastic amount of weight for my mid section to look smaller. and on that note, i genuinely envy people with a small ribcage and bone structure, because i have friends who are heavier than me and they still have a small waist. throughout my life i’ve genuinely considered getting a couple of my ribs removed to have a smaller waist because no matter how much i lose i hate the way my body is shaped.