Sup, I’m Bored

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Congratulations, you found me, the secret side/venting blog for @rai-scutum

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If you truly don’t love him, then why push him so much. You think you’re fooling me but it’s the other way around because I know you’ll never be fully honest with me anymore and I know when you’re lying clear as day. I just tricked you into thinking you can’t tell because you won’t be honest so you’re going to get the same back. And I happen to be the better actor

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I did this to myself and it will stay that way

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I won’t ask to change it, I swore I wouldn’t and I haven’t yet

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Goodbye my five years

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Cheol is essentially replacing him…

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I’ll just distract myself from him with Seungcheol

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Come on let go let go you’ve done it before easily so do it again now

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But I’d rather break my own heart and that’s what I get

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Gotta let go

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I officially give up any hope for him

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Well there’s no going back either way, I swore that

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I was so ready to let myself dive back into it, him, and I panicked right away

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I never understood why I can’t allow myself to keep love

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Sometimes I think about how excited I used to be and I get so sad

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Being in the middle of self destructive episodes is so fun ✌️

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I fucked up again didn’t I