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dysphoria is actually such a pain in the ass whenever i actually experience it cuz i always think it’ll go away if i just dont acknowledge it. but then it randomly feels like a brick is being thrown at me and im forced to realize its there

yellowiguess

this feeling is back but like. i dont know why

IF YOURE GONNA THROW BRICKS AT ME ATLEAST TELL ME *WHY* FIRST

flayersuhani

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i think that part of the reason i expected being queer to be a miserable experience growing up is because of all the doomed queer ships i saw in media… i honestly didn’t believe that there was anything more than holding hands in secret and breaking up after a few years and dying alone out there for me. it’s almost like lgbtq+ stories, though some are in the supernatural genre, aren’t just made-up, they manifest themselves into the minds of queer kids and shape the way they think idk food for thought

#EXACTLY #like i didnt believe i could be a lesbian and accepted until st s3 #i didnt see anyone like me on mainstream tv until then #even before that i saw myself in will #i’ll always be disappointed in how the duffers treated them

i know pathetic lesbian robin has been written a lot but what about pathetic nancy. like so pathetic everyone KNOWS she has feelings for robin except robin herself

i can just imagine her being stupidly in love with robin, like giggling and kicking her feet at the thought of her. like she stares at her like shes the only thing that matters in the entire universe. and nancy thinks shes hiding this SOO well because nobody’s tried to tell her otherwise

meanwhile robins talking to steve like “i like her but she’ll never like me back :(“ and he just. thinks back to literally every interaction ronance has had in like the past few weeks or months and just thinks ‘oh my god they are so STUPID’

#I LOVE YOU PATHETIC NANCY WHEELER #need fics like this so bad #ronance #robin buckley #nancy wheeler #robin x nancy #nancy x robin #stranger things

bongwaterbunny

stobin coded interaction between me and my friend, i had to do it

imagine post-epilogue that robin FINALLY goes on operation croissant and ends up reconnecting with el in her travels, because im choosing to believe el is alive.

They find each other while on a backpacking tour of some icelandic glaciers, Robin doesn’t recognize her right away, but El does. they weren’t all that close during their time in Hawkins but it doesn’t stop El from spending as much time by her side as she can.

She introduces herself as Eleanor, but to call her Ellie. Robin finds her familiar and tries to get closer, out of regret that she didn’t spend as much time with El when she was alive. They share stories of their previous travels and eventually their lives; El listening to Robin talking about the party and what everyone is doing now, while El tries to subtly hint that she knows. She thinks Robin’s a safe person to tell.

Robin doesn’t put the pieces together until she mentions that Will’s in art school, El laughs and says “I hoped he’d go, he was always so good at painting.” and Rob just stops and stares at her for a minute before asking, her voice breaking and tiny, “El?” El smiles and immediately gets pulled into a bone-crushing hug, Robin crying and rambling about how happy she is that she’s alive and how sorry she is for never attempting to get closer.

After the backpacking tour ends, they go out for coffee and spend hours and hours talking more. When Robin has to leave Iceland to go home, she gives El her address along with the address’ of everyone else, incase she ever wants to reach out. She doesn’t at first, only sending the rare postcard to Robin, until one year on Will’s birthday.

He checks the mail to find a singular postcard, obviously custom printed, a photo of the ocean. On the back is written ‘Dear Will, happy birthday, thank you for being such a good brother.’ and he just. sobs. he doesn’t tell anyone, puts it in a frame and keeps it as pristine as possible. He finally starts to open up more, to his collage friends, and the party see’s him becoming happier. And if at a reunion he’s asked why, he’ll just say “It’s what El would’ve wanted.”; and if he makes eye contact with robin and sees the knowing look her in eyes, they don’t talk about it.

Back home, El curls into bed at night knowing that her family is safe and learning to be happy again. She’s okay with that.

#the duffers shouldve given us the robin el friendship we deserved #robin buckley #el hopper #jane hopper #stranger things 5 #post epilogue #wonder twins #willel #stranger things headcanons

does anyone have any cute fic recommendations of the party just. fucking around. and meddling in the older kids lives? i think its an under appreciated genre of fic in this fandom

like i just wanna see the kids be idiot kids for once instead of experiencing The Horrors™

#stranger things #st5 #the party stranger things #will byers #michael wheeler #max mayfield #lucas sinclair #dustin henderson #fic rec #looking for fics

non-queer people will NEVER understand just how much robins speech meant to us.

having one, now two, confirmed queer characters, talking about queer acceptance on one of the biggest tv shows of our time is such a special thing.

i’ve personally dealt with internalized homophobia and guilt since i learned i was a lesbian. guilt for the fact that i will never give my parents the son-in-law, children, wedding or life they imagined for me. But robin’s speech healed something inside of me, made some of that residual guilt leave my chest. queerness is a gift so many people dont understand.

I truly hope that that speech helps non-queers understand us, if only a little bit.

#i did bawl my eyes out watching #stranger things #robin buckley #will byers #stranger things 5 #queerness #queer #queer pride #lgbtqia #lgbt #lgbtq

me realizing i started watching stranger things in an attempt to get closer to my dad and instead became so insanely hyperfixated, went no contact with my father and now that the show’s ending idk what im gonna do with myself