{i'm art too}

i'm yezir. i love visual arts and creating - that has been my theraphy and safe place.

[bhumiart]

The Old Merman

[gretsondaily]

GRETSON

[yaneskasstuff]

baseball is a very interesting thing 👀👀👀

[tinypaint]

pixie

[wlwgif]

You have got to find a way to stay. 

[yezirs]

how cool would it have been if I didn’t rush from school into college, if I took a year off, to figure out myself as an individual, to know my own interests and desires, to set me free and recognize me as the artist I am. how cool could it have been if I knew it back then how to take it easy, how to tell my family yes life is short, but life is also precious. chill a little. give me my space, let me enjoy sitting here thinking, let me please find my way. oh yes It all could have been different ... but could it? the hurt and the pain led me to this person I am now, mature, with this conscience! nah! enjoy who you are now, where you are. it couldnt been different, because your path is exactly what it needed to be. go for it. find love for your life right now. the past have gone. the future is bright. may the universe forever continues to guide us

[yezirs]

wish I could leave this house behind and start a new life with the people I chose to. Ignore the messages and the calls from everyone who hurt me and ignored what I said. go and never look back. be thankful for what I learned from the pain, but go away from it. from the toxicity, the negativity, the people who do for you and then make sure you feel bad because you know what? what they did was a favour and they werent obligated to do so. for me, I don’t agree that I should thank you for loving me. if you don’t, its your freaking lost.

a letter to family

[yezirs]

when my day comes, I want to feel like my whole life was about art and that was what saved me.

[yezirs]

If you ask me one thing I would like to buy that can’t be bought... that thing is time. Time to learn more things, time to get deep into what I love. Time so the pressure wouldn’t be so heavy. I don’t know who determinated our life schedule, by which age and number we have to start working, how our studies have to end fast, and how we must rush into decisions that will define our lifetime on this Earth. Seems like we are all this terrified of death that we spend every second running through life and when we look back, will we be happy with our results? Will I be proud of myself? I am an overthinker, sure. But if the answer to these questions turn to be “no”, I want to be able to comfort myself with the thought “I tried”, I want to let myself be sure that I went full for it, I gave it all. I was doubted, questioned, judged by the ones I love, I was called a selfish, a lazy and irresponsible person. But I still held my head high to my biggest purpose, to my desire, my beautiful passions. Mostly, I stayed true to who I am and wanted to be. May the time be gentle with us. May we enjoy and cherish every single part of it.

[yezirs]

always had trouble with vulnerability and putting me out there. taking risks, truly being myself. who am i, honestly? who are we. spent most of my 20s trying to answer that question not knowing it does not have one answer. you and i, we change every single second, not only our cells but who we are, how we feel, how we forgive, see things, love. how we act. we are always evolving and changing. thats how life goes. you dont freeze life. its subjective. we are. period. embrace you.

[yezirs]

first chapter.

it will make sense soon.

[yezirs]

god is a black woman

edited by outlyning on instagram, picture taken by yezir

[yezirs]

the sea.