here's dockage! o)-)
(with a lil art struggle yap down below)
I've been spending two months stuck trying to find a better workflow (?) for my art. I wanted a ridiculously quick one, like 5 hours max for a full render like this
that didn't pan out, clearly. I didn't even get much done (besides like. one omi shitpost)
so I stopped looking for new workflow, stopped watching people's timelapse for a bit, just started with a base color and hoped for the best. and there it was! my old workflow is perfectly fine, I just have problem focusing and that's why I waste a lot of time in my drawing process o))-)
also I very rarely make a timelapse since I get too self aware abt my mistakes (like the early part where I struggled with his face a lot) but it's satisfying to see it slowly turn into the finished product hehe
what if you were POOR and then you got a GIRLFRIEND who was always SINGING and then she DUMPED YOU and then you got elected PRESIDENT and then some district 12 rando ALSO HAD A GIRLFRIEND THAT SINGS and then he tries to BLOW UP YOUR CHILD DEATH ARENA and then ANOTHER district 12 rando can SING AND BLOWS UP YOUR CHILD DEATH ARENA and then she doesn’t SHOOT YOU but you still DIED
This comic is based on Story 3, which speaks of his hobby of ice fishing originating from the days he'd go out with his father on the ice, 'accompanied by his father's unending tales of adventure,' and dream of being the protagonist.
Nowadays, he keeps up the hobby, though only as a method of training... and it seems he fishes alone.
I thought a lot about fairytales and stories told to children -- how they are used to impart lessons and shape a child's growing sense of morality.
I think these stories were Childe's father telling him what kind of man he hoped his son would become.
In Story 5, 'his father had no choice but to hand his beloved son over for conscription into the Fatui' in an attempt to discipline his temper, but was disappointed when Childe continued ascending the ranks, further and further from the gentle boy he was..
His father named him after the hero Ajax. Is he still disappointed in the path Childe has taken? Does he still see his son in the man he sees before him? Does Childe feel in himself the chasm between who he dreamed of becoming and who he is now?
It's interesting, that fairytales should often have a very strict good/evil morality. Childe professes he has no use for such things, and will gladly become a mindless weapon so long as he can continue honing himself for battle. And yet, has he truly given up on being human?
For a Harbinger, Childe is oddly principled, preferring straightforward battles without deceit. He retains a sort of moral code, reluctant to involve those who are defenseless in his plans.
And of course, he deeply cherishes his family. What sort of weapon has a family? Why does he cling so desperately to this identity as a defender of childhood dreams, of being his sister Tonia's knight?
Perhaps his own dream of being a hero died long ago, but a part of him still recognizes the tragedy of it and maybe... in some way, is still trying.
This is somewhat of a companion piece to my Scara comic "one who has given up on being saved". Childe, unable to live up to his childhood ideals of heroism, and Scara, whose pleas for help went unanswered.
A failed hero, and someone who never had one.
ARGHH yknow it drives me nuts. I haven't known peace since I started thinking about it.
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