Why can’t I find a man to date and commit?
I’ve been living in Atlanta for almost 7 years and in that time dating and relationships have been soooo fucking difficult. I’m one loyal mofo to people…dating and friendships but it seems I can never get that in return. I’ve been cheated on by men, betrayed by friends, and overall disgusted with the whole gay way of living here.
Am I perfect?? Hell nah and yes I have flaws..I’m a Gemini and I have mood swings, I get jealous sometimes, I curse….a lot (lol),..but I’ve never been dishonest to a man I’ve dated or attempted a relationship with, I’ve never betrayed any of my friends, and I’ve always treated people how I want to be treated. From simple to complicated I prize honesty.
I’m not out for a man’s money no matter how much or how little he makes. I make my own and I’m finding my own way like many of us are. Is it so bad to want someone to share the journey with??
I just want one man to accept me for me and I him for him!! He’s ok with my nudist and exhibitionistic lifestyle..hopefully he is as well but if not he knows that way of living is a part of who I am..a honest man…who will if ever he sees a man he finds attractive..BEFORE he cheats…will say : “hey bae, don’t be mad but I just saw a sexy dude and idk if you’ll be interested but I wanted to smash him…would u be ok with US linking with him?”…not just go out and fuck some guy and expect me to NEVER know…I always find out…one way or another. And I dont go looking for it…I believe and trust God and He ALWAYS reveals it to me. And if I say No, then it’s no and we both move on…not mad…not revengeful…just happy with each other still…if yes then we do and afterwards we move on….and vice versa.
Sometimes I may be down for it, sometimes I’m not..but RESPECT ME enough to give me the decision. CHEATERS AND LIARS I HATE!! Because we’re adults there just really isn’t a need to do or be so…. HONESTY is always key.
Many of you ask can we link or if I’d fuck you or can u fuck me…NO NO NO and NO. I’m tired of being used for my body and that’s why many of my vids are solo vids…I’m not having sex with anyone until a man shows me he is not on bullshit….can consistently and efficiently communicate…treat me like he wants to be treated…(gm calls/texts, how’s your day calls/texts) simple shit that proves to me that you are interested in ME…not just my body…until then I’ll just Jack my dick and fuck myself insanely with my dildo…I REFUSE to settle and fall victim to another unworthy/piece of shit ass dude!!
I want a man not living a secret life with a whole other man…leaving me going to him..hell..or them!!! It’s just ridiculous fellas…ridiculous!!
I may never find him or fall in love…but I will never be used again…or be treated like a common whore…or trick myself to believe that I have to settle with just using men for their bodies…I’d rather just love myself.
Many of you may never read this bc I’m not naked flashing someone and that’s ok. I still love you guys for loving me in my real form bc what I do isnt for likes or reblogs honestly…I’ve been this way since a 👦🏾..
But to the right man for me..if your reading this..I’m waiting for ya bae…..hopefully we’ll meet soon and build a life together. Go on dates, get to know each other, laugh at each other’s corny or funny jokes, hold one another, cry together, scratch each other’s backs, wear matching outfits from time to time just because….grow together and overall…LOVE EACH OTHER!! Unconditionally…
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