Saturday, March 4th - 1. Lewis' Half Dead "Cube" 2. Chilluminati stream notes, part one 3. Sjin's Druidaria "We Remember Mr Chips" & 4. Duncan's Project Ozone "Meteor Hunter" <3 :)
-Thanks in advance for not re-blogging these posts <3 :)
Lewis' Half Dead "Cube" -
Sjin: "But I'm telling you about my filmography!" - bwah! I wish Sjin were really in all these movies he keeps talking about - it'd give me a good reason to get back into film watching ;) <3
This game is very unique, BTW - I can see it's had updates since the last time I saw it, (a creepy guy in one of the cubes? Flaming skeletons? Those things are new to me, lol.. the shoe throwing I definitely remember, though, lol!) but it was on Rage's channel months and months ago and I certainly never forgot it :)
Ben: "If we don't dance like little monkeys for them, they press the kill button" - lol!! This game does feel like a game show for posh distopian people who have nothing better to do with their time, I'll agree with Ben on that for sure ;) And the dancing reference, ahh - that was gold, as you know how happy talk about dancing makes me feel <3 :) I said this quite awhile back, about how Ben dancing as the shark in TTT stuck with me more than anyone else dancing in the episode with the casino map where Lewis kept making everyone dance to get in the door (still one of my personal favorite videos ever, aww <3 ) - but what I don't think I added to that is that up until that point I still always associated the shark skin with Sjin, and it always saddened me a bit (until that video, that is) that he moved on from using it, because it always brought back some of my fave Gmod Amazing Stuff memories, especially of a sort of romantic moment where Sjin and Lewis sat together in some kind of contraption I can't recall the details of now except that they joked it looking like Sjin's flippers were holding Lewis - or maybe it was Sjin and Duncan, but either way it was a moment I've never been able to fully let go of because it was *so* sweet and unexpected, and Sjin always used the shark skin back then <3 Anyway, after Ben danced as the shark in the casino map video I totally re-associated the shark skin with him and now would be thrown if anyone *else* used it often, aww - it really puts a smile on my face every time I see him use it, because that casino dancing episode of TTT was something that extra *extra* especially touched my heart <3 :) <3 Especially because of Lewis and because of Ben, aww :) (If I did say this before, my apologies - I honestly don't recall saying the latter half, but it's been on my mind for ages <3 )
Ben: "This game, I pledge to make it out of the start room" :D
The minute Ben died - Sjin: "Can I have your shoes?" - bwah! Not that I don't understand ;) Shoes are worth more than gold in this game, lol! You *need* them to test rooms out :D Ben's response, too, bwah!! Ben: "They're very small - they're disproportionately small compared to every other important part of my body" ;) <3 I told you Ben makes my favorite kind of jokes, oh my ;) <3 <3 <3 :) He's honestly brightened up my week more than almost *anything* in the main channel videos he's been in :) :) :)
Tom: "You're a lady now, Lewis.. a sexy lady" Ben: "Ooh, shoes - have all my shoes!" - bwah!! :D The way Ben sounded just then was *so* cute, and oh how I loved it!! <3 :) This video is perfect :D Poor Lewis in a pile of shoes, too, lol - he wasn't too impressed, I must say <3 :) Lewis: "Is this the way you interact with all ladies, Tom" - lol!! :)
Ben: "Because you know if she picks up your shoe and throws it back, she's a keeper" <3 :D
Tom: "Instead, we're going to dance *really* awkwardly.. to be honest, this looks a lot like how I dance in real life" - lol :D Hey, any game with dancing in it, even awkward dancing, has my vote of approval ;) <3
Ben: "Don't forget the power of the shoe!" - lol, so true! In the previous iteration of this game that I saw months ago, shoes were the main way to progress :D They didn't seem to help as much in this version, but they're still quite valuable - and Ben's sentence really tickled me - "The power of the shoe!" - awesome!! <3 :)
Ben saying that Tom was a cube architect because he kept surviving, lol :D Can Ben just be in all the main channel group videos, please?? <3 I know he has been lately anyway, but gads he brightens my day :) :) :)
And speaking of Ben brightening my day, I was just finishing up the Save The World stream last night and heard Ben say "Trolltastic" <3 <3 <3 I don't recall him saying 'tastic' words before, but either way it's one of my favorite, favorite, *favorite* things.. gads, the amount that Ben made this past week better for me :) :) :) I may have already said that numerous times, but a lot of this week felt rough for me & Ben was a huge light in the darkness that kept me feeling like writing passionately <3 :) <3 :)
Chilluminati stream notes, part one -
Sjin: "We should have some dice!" - aww!! Seriously, why not? It would've made things feel more like Dice Boys, aww <3 I don't know why Sjin said it, but I'm never really against having dice around - seeing dice pretty much always makes me smile after all the dice rolling Dice Boys action ;) <3 Tom made me laugh so much responding to Sjin with "We should get a cat!", too - especially because Sjin got so visibly excited and into the idea - I genuinely think he would love having an office cat, aww :D
Ooh, Lewis saying "red hot" again - I keep hoping that saying will return to his regular vocabulary, sigh <3 I remember when it even used to be in video descriptions for main channel vids off and on, gah.. it always brightened up my day because I knew Lewis had to be the one writing the descriptions, sigh <3 :)
Oh!! I'm *so* glad they played the Lewis Shooting Star video on the stream, as I fully intended to mention it in my post yesterday and then forgot - I was *so* curious what that meme was when Lewis mentioned it last week, and once I saw it I just flipped - it's *so* cool!! I can see why Lewis loves it, now <3 It's probably now my favorite meme ever besides good old "Doge" <3 :) The music sounds epic, I absolutely adore the stars and space theme of it all - overall, I'd say that it's a meme practically made for me to love <3 :) <3
I'm really not sure what if anything Sjin was trying to get Harry to say when he kept saying the song that was playing was his favorite and how every time he went to the club he hoped the DJ would play it (he kept tipping his head and emphasizing words like he was trying to signal Harry somehow, lol) - but either way, the mention of clubs and DJ's made me super happy, aww <3 Harry: "We request it, don't we, Sjin" Sjin: "It's our song!" (aww!! "Our song" - how adorable!! <3 <3 <3 ) Harry: "Me and Sjin, just topless in the club" - bwah!! Oh man, this mental image of topless club dancing ;) <3 I mean, the image of Sjin and Harry dancing is more than enough for me all by itself (because you know how much I flip out over dancing references, oh my gosh <3 ) but Harry still managed to make it even better :D
Lewis: "The length is important, that's true.. but so is the girth" Harry: "And the power you drive it in with" - bwah!! Sjin: "Why does everything always come back to your penis!" Lewis: "Sjin, how long have you known me?" - lol!!!! Firstly, good point from Lewis at the end ;) Secondly, if everything *didn't* occasionally turn to innuendo when it comes to Lewis, my life would be so incredibly much sadder that I wouldn't hardly be able to bear it, aww.. I'm not sure why Sjin reacted so strongly about Lewis saying that, as my week has felt super rough even though I've been fighting to feel better for days, and Lewis saying things like the above helps more than I could ever say - just please never stop, and please never ever let anyone change Lewis' mind about being risqué <3 <3 <3 I *need* it.. Gads, my life needs it <3 (And if I did do anything accidentally wrong last week.. like maybe I gushed too much about other people on the Chilluminati stream and it accidentally seemed to devalue me gushing about Lewis, I don't know - I just hope that Lewis knows that no one uplifts my life more easily and more immensely than he can - maybe I haven't made that as clear lately, maybe I didn't gush enough about how him being on the Chilluminati stream last week was like a dream come true for me - maybe I didn't say enough about him being incredible on all the streams two and three weeks ago, Le Sigh.. just please know, when I can tell that he's reading my posts and that my words make him happy, I'm on top of the entire world <3 <3 <3 Last week, every time I turned around he was re-referencing something I'd said I loved, like the sore throat dick sucking comment that started on Monday and ended up being mentioned again in one form or another all week long on the streams, aww.. Gads, it was *such* an incredible week - I was on cloud nine what felt like all the time by the time I finished Monday's stream and started watching Wednesday's, and then Friday with Lewis appearing with the Chilluminati GTA crew was just the dreamiest of all - all such magical streams because of Lewis, Le Sigh <3 <3 <3 )
Aww.. see, I caught the tiny bit of the stream live where Sjin said salt-tastic, but I somehow didn't hear Lewis say it before him until I was watching later - now I see Sjin was just repeating what Lewis said, but either way it made my day so much bighter to hear Lewis say it - and then to hear Sjin say it for any reason, aww <3
Silky smooth turns <3 See, that's the kind of sentence Harry would come up with that few people would.. I *love* that kind of phrasing, it sounds *so* gentle and just rather alluring as well <3 :)
Love bumps, aww.. see? Seriously, this is why the things Harry does are so irresistible to me at times <3 When he said "just a little love bump" and made little kisses in the air - that's the kind of stuff I totally melt over, but then the other Yogs know that already - still, ahh man.. I was watching part of his Dark Souls stream from December again recently, the one where he and Zylus joked about ASMR and oh man it was a glorious stream, and Harry was doing little kissy stuff there too, like when he said he was next to the donation bar (the one that showed donation progress at the side of the screen) and he acted like he was kissing it, and then if I remember correctly he and Zylus did kisses towards the mic, too, after Zylus showed up <3 That stream, omg.. it's literally my favorite Harry stream of all time <3 Harry reacting to the ASMR stuff they were doing was just incredible, too.. those vocal reactions of his that are out of this world, sigh <3 <3 <3 I genuinely don't know why I'm saying all of this about Harry because I don't know that I expect anyone to read it, (See my P.S. below) but I just adore people who do and say gentle things, and kissy things are easily one of my favorite things on earth <3 <3 <3 And quite often, Harry was always the one doing and saying the majority of my fave things on these Chilluminati streams in the past, (Harry and Simon especially - gads, I miss Simon, aww <3 ) which is one reason why I didn't write back then, figuring that Harry wouldn't know I wrote, aww... and I still don't think that he reads my posts or ever will be that interested in doing so, but I'm still most likely not going to *not* write about him when I'm writing about something he's a big part of like these Chilluminati streams <3 :)
P.S. I honestly still think the world of Harry, but I felt like I knew deep in my heart even last week that me writing about him, no matter in how much detail, wasn't really going to get a response of him doing clear things I like purposely so that I'd know he cared about me writing - however, I'd dearly wanted to write about him in detail like that for almost two years, and I don't regret writing about how much I enjoyed his antics last Friday, even if I don't think it really mattered to him - but from now on if I mention him it's largely in the hopes that even if he doesn't read it, perhaps other people will notice things that I enjoy, (honestly, is there anyone who *doesn't* get that I'm even more touched and moved by people doing things that I loved someone else doing? I always notice <3 ) as I honestly don't think that Harry will ever really be moved by me writing - I'm just glad to see that he's been his usual risqué self for the past couple weeks and that I don't seem to be bothering him anymore, if I ever was - because that thought killed my heart, aww. I'll always think he's awesome, I just don't think that he needs or cares too much about my attention, and that's just life, I guess.. I honestly could write more passionately about things that he does than I could with a hundred Youtubers outside of the Yogscast who I've tried to imagine writing about but can't get into their videos enough to even try to write about them - but I can't expect everyone to respond the same way to me loving things they do.. that's just life <3 (Although Harry did say "Dice Boys" when Lewis started the stream saying something like that (I swear Lewis said "Nice Boys", lol, but I'm not sure why.. it was close enough for me, though ;) <3 ) Either way, Harry seemed to think Lewis had said dice boys, and he said it, and it always means so much to me to hear it <3 ) (As for Don Charizo, though, let's not talk too much about Tuesday's stream because I honestly wish the character had been left as simply a magical, wonderful memory from the High Rollers Dusk City stream - I literally lit up with joy every time Harry spoke as Don the first time around, and I said how much his friendliness and charmingness towards every character he spoke to meant to my heart, and that was just not the way the character spoke at all the second time around in Hat Films' stream.. in fact, numerous times it was the exact opposite, the same kind of rough talk that I can't really bear hearing from Hat Films and feel torn by all the time :/ Gads, I was genuinely heartbroken, but I trust Harry didn't do it purposely to hurt my feelings, because why would he ever do that? It's more likely that he simply never saw my original post about Don, so it's all good.. I just haven't loved many D&D characters that passionately, (Honestly, only maybe 2 other characters in all the D&D I've ever watched have made me smile even half as much every single time they spoke as Don Charizo did during the High Rollers stream, aww <3 ) and all I wanted was to feel that joy again, aww.. it did make me wish that I hadn't written about Don, but it is what it is. Harry's still always likely going to be one of my favorite Yogs <3 :) )
Sjin's Druidaria "We Remember Mr Chips" -
Sjin: "Have you ever had a cannonball circumcision?" - omg, that sounds painful, lol :D What tickled me even more was Sjin saying to ask Harry about it and Lewis asking "Did Harry have a cannonball circumcision?" and Tom responding with "No, he just knows about mine" - bwah!! :D
I enjoyed hearing Sjin read out the comments on the graves, too :D
Aww, Lewis was so so cute singing the Terraria tune and getting Duncan doing it again a lil bit <3 I *love* Lewis' dragon tower - so much!! The rounding off that he's doing is making the design so sleek and smooth <3 :)
Duncan using the boy who cried wolf as an example, aww!! I miss the wolfpack references *so* much <3 I really had hope that it would become a thing when Lewis said it in GTA outside of the Wild Eight episodes, aww <3 :) Anyway, Duncan saying that *truly* made my day brighter :) :) :) Sjin talking about compliments not meaning anything if you say them too much made me a little sad, though. I truly mean every single compliment I write, passionately - and I worry so often that after awhile my words might not seem to mean as much because it's all been said before.. and I hope not, with all my heart. I've had such a hard time feeling truly better all week because it seems like my posts aren't touching people's lives as much, and I've just kept feeling lonely outside of that beautiful, *stunning*, awe-inspiring speech that Lewis made about treating himself on Wed's stream that I hope to write out fully soon.. I would give *anything* for more wolfpack type moments, videos filled with tickling references like TTT a week ago, Lewis filling whole streams with Valentine's magic and then even turning Ameebo into a big flirt on top of it all (plus his beautiful reactions to his Ameebomobile, wow - oh, and the poetry, too, oh gads the wonderful poetry!!! <3 <3 <3 If you wonder why I was so heartbroken about no Dice Boys for the second week in a row, it's because Ameebo had already been one of my fave things in life for weeks on end, and then he became like a dream come true the last time the Dice Boys stream happened, oh gads <3 <3 <3 ) Le Sigh - oh my word, the last few weeks were the happiest I'd felt in over a year <3 <3 <3 I truly, truly hope that my posts never become a hundred percent boring, because I wouldn't make it without the Yogs - I felt so sad and lost for the better part of last year and had just recently fully recaptured feeling passionately happy about life due to the Yogs being so deeply kind - *please* don't let the magic end <3 :) <3 Please don't stop reading.. I honestly could not adore or need or appreciate the Yogscast more dearly <3 <3 <3
I'm not a hundred percent sure, but after the whispery "ahh yeah" from Duncan (which was also pretty darn awesome, btw ;) <3 ) it also sounded like he was doing a German accent, too.. gads, just when I feel the lowest he tends to surprise me by doing a bunch of things I love so much, sigh <3 :) I truly needed this today :)
Sjin: "Pretty functional!" Lewis: "That's like my dick! A wizard's dick... I call it my staff. It has a knob on the end" - and a bit later, "I get the two mixed up, I think" <*giggles*> It seems that we've come full circle back to my favorite Filbert jokes from the very first episodes, aww <3 <3 <3 This made me *so* happy - genuinely one of the nicest moments of my week :) :) :) Just to hear Filbert making "staff" jokes and innuendo again - ahh, how I missed it <3 ;) Ahh, the return of Filbert the Sex Wizard :) :) :) I'll never get over Lewis saying that ;) <3 And I've longed for *ages* for him to make more wizard's staff jokes, sigh.. this moment was just so endlessly, wonderfully magical for me :) :) :)
Lewis: "Do it, Sjin! Execute order 66! That's the number I'm assigning to do the thing that you just said" - bwah!! So cute!!!! <3 This is the Filbert roleplay that I've missed so so *so* much, Le Sigh <3 :)
Sjin: "No, it's assigned to number 69" - lol!! Ahh, gads I adored Sjin for saying that - I was slightly surprised when Lewis didn't say 69 himself ;) He usually goes right for that number - and ooh I love it when he does ;) <3
Duncan's learning voice, lol!! It's even cuter than the Robin voice :D And the Robin voice is plenty cute already, I must say ;) <3
Lewis: "I'm making a beautiful snowflake, guys" - aww!!!!! <3 :) <3 Lewis says the most adorable things ever :) :)
Lewis: "It's better than what? It's better than sex! Better than casting a spell in your underpants" - bwahahah!! I *love* that last bit - I so wasn't expecting it ;) <3 Casting a spell in your underpants! I love Filbert!!!!! <3 <3 <3 This and the 'staff' joke above made my entire *week* - seriously, I'm in such a tremendously happier mood now than I have been since hearing Lewis say beautiful things on Wednesday's stream, aww <3 <3 <3
Sjin: "Actually, it kinda reminds me of..." Tom: "What?" Sjin: "Just, y'know, the length. And if you get too close, it shoots lasers at you" - bwah!!!!! Oh Sjin ;) <3 Nice ;)
Duncan's Project Ozone "Meteor Hunter" -
Lewis: "Is something sucking them off?" Duncan: "Something is sucking off my levels!" - bwah!! Oh Lewis <3 Gads I love that phrase - please don't ever get tired of saying it ;) <3
Duncan (singing): "He's a fluid cow but we love him! Moo moo moo moo moo" - aww, so cute!! Especially the moo's <3 :) Duncan was so so so adorable about getting the fluid cow back, aww :)
Sjin: "That's it - you toot that trombone, Duncan" ;) That sentence has a very different meaning to my ears after the whole flesh trombone discussion in the previous episode, lol!! :D (Duncan was just singing notes like a trombone here, BTW, lol - and Sjin's response was *so* adorable, but I couldn't help but hear risqué connotations in my mind, lol!!)
Duncan is the only person I know who says "Le Sigh" out loud <3 It's always so cute :D I noticed he said it a few weeks ago on an Anno stream, as well as in this video :) It just always gets my attention because firstly, French accents ;) And secondly, because I use "Le Sigh" all the time, even if I never use it to mean sadness <3 :)
Aww, Sjin singing Luck Be a Lady and opening a chance cube :D I love when he sings that song *and* when he opens chance cubes, so double yay for that magic moment!! :)
P.S. I thought about cutting out some of the heartfelt stuff from some parts of today's post, but in the end it felt best to leave it in because I don't think the Yogs always realize how much I go through emotionally due to living with such a small amount of warmth and kindness in my "real world" life - I really, really really can't say a hundredth enough just how much every tiny moment of kindness helps, or how much I need the Yogscast <3 <3 <3 Please always know that - gads, last year was absolutely hell. I could never, ever bear to go through that much sadness, depression and loneliness again. Please bear with me when I feel low, & please always know how much every single one of the Yogs (especially the pure magic of Lewis Brindley, Le Sigh <3 <3 <3 ) can brighten my day with the smallest of things, aww <3 :) <3 :)
