[smfih]

[j7eternal-deactivated20180402]

THIS!!!!!!!

[liloloveyou024]

I think Bo Burnham put it best

(From God’s Perspective (x))

[yoitsjesse]

I wanna win the lottery

I'll live in a big house in the hills. Far from everyone. I'll ignore texts. I'll let the calls go to voicemail. I'll delete the messages. I'll find a way to convince everyone I just don't exist. Then maybe I'll believe it too. Then maybe I'll have peace. Of course, none of this will never happen, but it's fun to fantasize.

[law-of-abstraction]

❈ Grim Aesthetics ❈

[yoitsjesse]

I guess I gotta be patient, but I don't wanna be

[yoitsjesse]

I want to scream. I want to punch the wall until every bone in my hand is broken. I want to feel something other than anger and resentment. I want to something different to happen. Anything. Even if it's the sharpest pain or deepest sadness, I want something new.

[yoitsjesse]

In no way can I confidently say I've changed for the better, but hopefully this step is in the right direction.

[yoitsjesse]

I legitimately hate myself

[yoitsjesse]

Gonna start dumping drawings here

[yoitsjesse]

Humanity is trash

We're gonna bicker til we're extinct

And that's what we deserve

[yoitsjesse]

Worthless

[yoitsjesse]

I'm gonna die working for minimum wage

[yoitsjesse]

I'm a child. Throwing a tantrum. Kicking and screaming. Because I don't want to do the things I have to do. I don't want to have to do anything. I want to feel no obligations to anyone, or anything. I want to choose. I want control. I want to feel for a single moment that what I want matters. But it doesn't. My path has been drawn. My fate has been written. I can be a good boy, and go nowhere. Or I can kick. I can scream. And end up there anyway.

[yoitsjesse]

Unsure how to feel about anything

[yoitsjesse]

I'm going nowhere

[yoitsjesse]

I

Am truly desperate for human contact. I want love and attention so badly.

[yoitsjesse]

Desperate

For attention

[yoitsjesse]

I'm gonna die alone