To the boy I didn't want to love
even before I ever started talking to you i thought you were a player. well i knew you were a player. i heard all of the stories, whether they were true or not. i heard them. i knew that i found you attractive but i never thought that feelings would be involved. ever. you caught me off guard and i fell for you completely in the middle of our friends with benefits situation. Somehow i thought fucking you would make you love me. it didn't. you looked for better girls. you found them and each time my heart broke. after high school we kind of drifted apart didn't really talk, but i knew in the back of my mind that i loved you. we would talk every once in awhile, and when we did talk its like we never drifted in the first place. and then there was that summer that you and Emily broke up. it hurt me to see you like that. i never want to see you like that ever again. i hated how you wanted her back so bad. it killed me every time i told you to chase her to try and win her back. i would cry after we face timed because all i wanted was for you to just open up your eyes and see me. and then something happened after that summer, we grew more together we supported each other through the lows and highs of our lives, and now we are just stuck in two different states wondering if we will ever be together. i know this is more than likely going to end in heartbreak, but to me its totally worth it. Kyle miller you make me so happy and i am going to love even if you stop talking to me. i am okay with you possibly being my one that got away.