I don't take orders anymore.

"Years of unethical behavior and one apocalypse later... and I'm done with Umbrella's bullshit." | Indie Canon-Divergent Game/Movie Mashup Carlos Oliveira of the Resident Evil franchise. | FC: Oded Fehr as Carlos | Penned by Silence Leaflin | Mun is 40+ | 20+ Only Please! | Non-selective | AU & OC Friendly | Occasionally NSFW (tagged: nsfw) | Sideblog of fallxnprxnce

[youmissedone]

{{ CURRENTLY ON HIATUS - NOT ACTIVE }}  

This is a side blog, so follows will be from @fallxnprxnce​. {{ Mun is 40+ || 20+ only please! || Minors DNI! }}

I have a weekly schedule (see below) to divide activity for all my currently active RP blogs. Outside of a few exceptions if I get inspiration for something, I will only be posting for blogs on their scheduled days. You can send me asks, memes, and reply to threads on off days, but I may wait to respond until that blog is scheduled. Note: I'm a night owl, so most of my writing is done between 9PM and 5AM (EST).

INFORMATION ABOUT THE MUSE: You can find my “About” post for Carlos here, and if you would like to read more headcanons and analyses regarding Carlos and his world, you can browse this directory post. Available rp verses can be found here.​

RP SCHEDULE: 

(Note: “Free” nights are when I’m busiest. I may not be on at all, or I may use those days as spillover for the blogs scheduled immediately before or after them, if time permits.)

SUNDAY & MONDAY: (FREE)

TUESDAY: @thenexusofsouls (multimuse blog - current muse list)

WEDNESDAY: (FREE)

THURSDAY: @tarnishedxknight (Final Fantasy XII multimuse blog - current muse list)

FRIDAY: (FREE)

SATURDAY: (These blogs will alternate by group every other week!)

Group 1 @armed-and-alxne, (Luther Donovan, Red Widow)

Group 2 @freewillacquired (Matt Addison / Nemesis, Resident Evil)

[youmissedone]

PSA - Indefinite Hiatus

{out of smokes} Hey guys... I've decided to put Carlos on hiatus for now. My muse for him is almost nonexistent, either because of work stress or because it's really high in other places right now. Activity here has also waned to a crawl, probably because I just haven't been keeping up with it the way I should lately, another indication that I've lost interest for the time being. So... I'm going to give him a break for now, and if my muse for him returns in the future, then I'll revive this blog. <3

[youmissedone]

{out of smokes} I don't have that much to do for Carlos tonight and my muse for him is pretty low at the moment, so I'm going to skip him for tonight. I'm wondering if I shouldn't put him on hiatus for a little while due to lack of muse, but for now I won't. I'll see how things go on 8/16 and decide from there. See you then! =)

[youmissedone]

{out of smokes} Alright, that's all for tonight, folks. I'll be back here in two weeks, on 8/2. Omg, can you believe it's already going to be August soon? Where the heck is this summer going? XD See you then! =)

[catalinacisneros]

@youmissedone - continued from here.

"Maybe some people don't deserve kindness."

The remark was bitter and brutal, yet Catalina made no effort to tone it down in any way, shape, or form. She might not have been innocent, but she certainly wasn't good, either. On nights like these, Catalina wanted to grab Carlos and shake him by the shoulders. What did she have to do for him to realize she was rotten and wicked and horrible? What did she have to do to get him to dump her for being a bad person?

"You're wrong, Carlos. I'm not good, and I'm not soft, and I'm not kind. I do what I have to do; the world needs more people like that. If everyone let their heart best them, we'd never have efficient spies."

[youmissedone]

Carlos sighed as Catalina yet again launched into her I'm a terrible person line of reasoning. "Best them? Our hearts are not our enemies," he said, bewildered by her words. He really didn't understand why his love and faithfulness were so offensive to her. Or having a heart, for that matter. He was starting to think there might be another reason why she always pushed him away the second he tried to say something nice about her...

"Do you want me to leave, Cata?" Carlos asked, finally a bit frustrated with her. "Because I've never been involved with anyone in my life who tried as hard as you have to push me away. If you're doing it because you don't want to be with me, then just tell me so. Tell me to take a flying leap at the sun, then, don't try to convince me that you're some terrible person, because that's never going to work. All you'll succeed in doing is making me feel like crap, but I'm still gonna stay. I've never played games with you, so don't do that to me. If you want me gone, say so. Explicitly. Because if you're just working through your own issues of self-worth, I understand, and I'm not going anywhere.

He loved her, but he didn't want to stay where he wasn't wanted, or where someone was never going to be honest about whether they wanted him or not. If she was just going through it, she was scared of being vulnerable, she was afraid to show all of herself to someone... then he was in it for the long haul. He could wait her out, put up with her biting words, and help her to see herself as he did. But if all of this was just a deflection, just a way of heaping the decision of leaving onto him instead of just being honest that she didn't want him around anymore, then he'd take the broken heart and go. He just needed to know which fight he was fighting... and whether or not to throw the match.

[catalinacisneros]

@youmissedone - continued from here.

"I can't do that. I… I have to have something that's mine and mine alone," Catalina said simply. Whether that was this relationship or any of her countless other secrets, she was never one to give up everything about herself easily. A lie by omission was still a lie, and she didn't bother to give up more information than that. "You have to be okay with that. If you're not, then this… us… it's never going to work."

[youmissedone]

Something about the way Catalina said that irritated Carlos. Why did it have to be her way? Why did none of what he wanted ever fall into consideration? "So... let me get this straight... I have to agree to you being emotionally unavailable, with you always keeping me at arm's length, or I lose you? Your way or the highway, is that it? You get to demand that of me but I don't get to demand anything from you? That doesn't sound like you even want to be in a relationship."

Even so, even as frustrated as he was, Carlos knew he loved her. And even though his idea of an ideal relationship was one in which both parties were open with each other, he obviously wasn't going to get that from her. So now it came time to choose his pain: the pain of staying and being unfulfilled, or the pain of a broken heart. Eh, what did Carlos ever suffer for, if not love? "Okay. Fine," he said with a sigh and an air of surrender. "I'll make myself be fine with it, somehow." Because he wasn't willing to give up on her.

[youmissedone]

{out of smokes} That's all for tonight, folks! I'll see everyone back here again in two weeks, on Sat 7/19. Goodnight! =)

[youmissedone]

[ OVERSIZED ]: sender is wearing receiver's oversized hoodie or shirt with nothing underneath.

Carlos had slid out of bed lazily, running his hand over his unruly hair and wandering out to the little kitchen area of their shared quarters in the Avengers compound. When he arrived, he saw Wanda standing there in one of his hoodies... and nothing else.

"Oh, hello," he couldn't help but say, looking her up and down, a grin coming to his lips. "Well, that did it. I'm awake. If that was your goal, then good job, very thorough," he joked. "You're looking lovely this morning," he added, glad to see Wanda in a good mood. She'd been through so much, so to see her so relaxed really lifted his own spirits too.

[youmissedone]

Although them looking identical to each other had at first caused some confusion in Carlos' mind, he never looked at this Wanda and thought of the original. They were compartmentalized in his mind now, with the original coming before... and having been lost. Yes, he'd loved her. Very much. But that chapter of his life, that relationship, that love... was closed now. This Wanda was her own person, and this chapter of his life, well... it was still open-ended, the future of it still unwritten. Having that sense in his mind kept them separate despite their visual similarities, shared name, or even the similar sounds of their voices. And now, having separated the two for so long in his mind, it was almost as if he'd trained his brain to see differences too. They no longer looked so alike to him anymore.

"Thank you, I appreciate that. I'm not a disaster in the kitchen," he said proudly. He chuckled and then nodded enthusiastically. "Yes, exactly. Respect the egg." It was a stupid conversation, maybe, but it was light and fun. He loved being able to have these light, playful moments with her after both their lives had been so heavy lately.

"Okay, watch me work my magic, then," he said, getting out some eggs from the refrigerator. "Eh, pancakes are fine. I feel like they're less work and cleanup than waffles. We're too hungry to bother with waffles," he said, tossing her a grin as he started cracking open the eggs. "The key... is the flavoring. The seasoning," he said, getting out all manner of side items for the eggs. "And the moistness. Gotta keep 'em moist. A little bit of whole milk... some garlic... some onion... a little freshly ground pepper..." he said as he poured, finely chopped, and sprinkled all of these items to the eggs and then started mixing them so fast his hand was almost a blur. "They're gonna be spectacular, so prepare yourself," he said, looking over at her with a happy smile and a wink.

[youmissedone]

"Happy Father's Day handsome," Leah smiled, wrapping her arms around Carlos from behind. "Our little babe is fast asleep in our bedroom but I know they wanted to wish you one." ( @mxrvelouscreations

@mxrvelouscreations

Carlos chuckled and laid his arms over Leah's as she hugged him from behind. They'd just gotten up, and he was about to ask her what she wanted him to make for breakfast, when she'd mentioned it was Father's Day. "Is it, really? Geez, I haven't been paying attention to the date, I guess." He turned in her hold and wrapped his arms around her, kissing her forehead. "I'm sure you can tell me for them. Thank you, though. Me becoming a father wouldn't have been possible without you, you know. You played a rather integral role," he said, joking around but also telling the truth too. "I love you both to the moon and back. You know that, right?" he whispered, gazing at her lovingly.

[youmissedone]

@mxrvelouscreations

Carlos felt the kiss between his shoulder blade and then pulled Leah close once he'd turned over, a happy, soft smile on his face. "It feels incredible. Really, I can't even put it into words. Sometimes it still doesn't seem real that we actually have a daughter. A little mini-you," he said, giving her a squeeze in his hold. "I hope she grows up to be as beautiful, kind, and smart as her mother is," he added affectionately. "It does take two to tango, and we tango very well, don't we?" He grinned a bit at that. "Yeah, you think so? I hope so, but you just wait. She might turn out to be a mama's girl instead."

[youmissedone]

{out of smokes} Alright, that's all for tonight, folks! I'll be back here again on 7/5. My classes will be just about over by that time, so... wish me well for the end of class crunch time at work, haha! See everyone in two weeks! =)

[youmissedone]

"Happy Father's Day handsome," Leah smiled, wrapping her arms around Carlos from behind. "Our little babe is fast asleep in our bedroom but I know they wanted to wish you one." ( @mxrvelouscreations

@mxrvelouscreations

Carlos chuckled and laid his arms over Leah's as she hugged him from behind. They'd just gotten up, and he was about to ask her what she wanted him to make for breakfast, when she'd mentioned it was Father's Day. "Is it, really? Geez, I haven't been paying attention to the date, I guess." He turned in her hold and wrapped his arms around her, kissing her forehead. "I'm sure you can tell me for them. Thank you, though. Me becoming a father wouldn't have been possible without you, you know. You played a rather integral role," he said, joking around but also telling the truth too. "I love you both to the moon and back. You know that, right?" he whispered, gazing at her lovingly.

[youmissedone]

[ OVERSIZED ]: sender is wearing receiver's oversized hoodie or shirt with nothing underneath.

Carlos had slid out of bed lazily, running his hand over his unruly hair and wandering out to the little kitchen area of their shared quarters in the Avengers compound. When he arrived, he saw Wanda standing there in one of his hoodies... and nothing else.

"Oh, hello," he couldn't help but say, looking her up and down, a grin coming to his lips. "Well, that did it. I'm awake. If that was your goal, then good job, very thorough," he joked. "You're looking lovely this morning," he added, glad to see Wanda in a good mood. She'd been through so much, so to see her so relaxed really lifted his own spirits too.

[youmissedone]

Carlos had been the one to find Wanda, so he was the first to find out that she was a clone and never had any other ideas about her being the original. He'd also been there when the original had died, so he knew for sure that Wanda was gone. Instead, right from the start, he'd viewed this Wanda as more of a sister or identical twin situation. Sure she looked a lot like the other Wanda and bore the same name, but she wasn't the same person, and frankly, she deserve to be her own person. It was important to him that he not only view her that way, but that he reinforced her individuality with her whenever she felt a bit insecure about it.

As good as it made him feel to hear her say she wanted him, Carlos had to admit that Wanda had a point. He was... really hungry. His stomach loudly rumbling gave him away completely in that regard. "Of course I do. It could be a fun thing, cooking together, no?" Her compliment regarding his eggs made him grin proudly. "Hey, listen... I love eggs. You've gotta cook 'em right. I've been to hotels with so-called complimentary breakfasts where they cook the eggs until they're like... dry, powdery, egg crumbles. What even is that? You've gotta respect the eggs," he said, strutting his stuff now that he'd been complimented on his egg preparation. He proceeded to get said eggs out of the refrigerator. "Perfect eggs, coming right up."

[freewillacquired]

{out of mutations} That's all for tonight, folks. I still have more to do, but it's almost 6AM and I've got to head to bed. But I do want to let everyone know that I'm changing my rp schedule a little bit. I've put a couple blogs I use to alternate with another on Sats on hiatus for the foreseeable future to downsize because work will be taking up a lot more of my time in the coming months. I'm going to move my RE blogs to Sats and alternate them with this other blog, freeing up my Weds for work if I need it.

I know that means that you'll be getting replies on these blogs every two weeks instead of weekly, but it'll be a much more reliable every two weeks. Every time classes start or end, or every time I have a lot of grading, I either have to skip these blogs on Weds or I'm staying up really late trying to get everything done like I did tonight. Work is rarely ever heavy on Sats, so rather than saying I'm gonna be here every Weds and then canceling a lot, I'll be here every other Sat reliably.

What this means for right now is that I won't be here next Weds (6/18), or on any Weds going forward. Instead, I'll be here on 6/21, and every other Sat from then on. I'll change my pinned post on all my blogs to reflect this change too. So I'll see everyone back here on 6/21. Goodnight! =)

[youmissedone]

“i’m not that innocent.”

"I never said you were," Carlos replied. "All I said was that I didn't think you were as bad as you act like you are. I still think there's a soft heart in there somewhere, underneath the act for work and everything else. Doesn't mean you're about to go out and start selling girl scout cookies or anything, but it doesn't make you a terrible person either. I wish you'd be a little bit nicer to yourself sometimes."

[youmissedone]

[ OVERSIZED ]: sender is wearing receiver's oversized hoodie or shirt with nothing underneath.

Carlos had slid out of bed lazily, running his hand over his unruly hair and wandering out to the little kitchen area of their shared quarters in the Avengers compound. When he arrived, he saw Wanda standing there in one of his hoodies... and nothing else.

"Oh, hello," he couldn't help but say, looking her up and down, a grin coming to his lips. "Well, that did it. I'm awake. If that was your goal, then good job, very thorough," he joked. "You're looking lovely this morning," he added, glad to see Wanda in a good mood. She'd been through so much, so to see her so relaxed really lifted his own spirits too.

[youmissedone]

"Mm-hmm. Really," Carlos confirmed. He meant it, too. He was devastated after losing Wanda and ready to just go it alone in life after that. He was thinking of leaving his job as part of the Avengers' support staff and maybe working as a freelance mercenary again. He just wanted to leave his life behind for all his grief. But then... this Wanda fell into his life, and she managed to give him a reason to be himself still, to be that nurturing, protective person he was before. She breathed life into him again, and even after all this time, he still didn't know how to properly express that to her.

"Alright, well... I just wanted to make sure," he said. "You'd tell me if I ever did overstep with that sort of thing, right?" Carlos was perhaps a bit wary of going too far with Wanda, only because she'd been treated as nothing more than a lab experiment by Umbrella. He wanted her to know she had full control over what she wanted to do and when, and that he wasn't ever going to make demands of her. "Yeah, fair enough. I am pretty damn hungry. Here, I'll help you cook if you want. The couple that cooks together, stays together, you know," he joked.

[youmissedone]

“if you love me, trust in me.”

"I do... and I do," Carlos insisted. "I just wish you'd tell me what's going on. Why all the cloak and dagger? If you love me, trust me," he returned. "You know I'm not gonna tell anyone your plans or anything if you share them with me. I'm ride or die with those I love, you should know that by now... don't you?"

[youmissedone]

"Carlos... are you awake?" (Alice; @mxrvelouscreations

@mxrvelouscreations

"No," he joked before opening one eye and turning his head comically to look at her. He then opened both eyes and smiled. "You know I don't sleep much these days. I guess you don't either." He began to wonder why she was asking. "What's on your mind?" he asked. It wasn't like Alice to initiate much conversation, so if that's what she was doing, he knew it had to be something important...

[youmissedone]

Carlos grinned and chuckled as Alice elbowed him. He was nothing if not someone who thrived on using humor to help other people smile, especially during these terrible times. His grin faded a little as she said it wasn't possible to sleep properly because of what might be lurking about. "Yeah... I get what you mean. Welcome to our new normal, I guess," he said. Life was definitely never going back to what it had been before, that much he knew for a certainty.

When she shared what her dreams had been about, he frowned a little in thought. "Is it the same dream? A recurring one, over and over? Or does it change? What... happens in the dreams? Slice of life or do specific things happen?" he asked. He didn't know why any of that mattered, but he was just trying to understand. Just then, Carlos smiled pensively. "A house in the suburbs... with a daughter. That would've been really nice, wouldn't it?" he said.