viviendo mi vida

JEC

[yourssunshineanddaisies]

i will go to canada and live there. 🙏🏻

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mommy ko yung nairita na sa kakatanong sakin ng mga kamag-anak kung may bf ba daw ako or kelan ikakasal. ayun, sabi niya may bf daw ako at di pa kinakasal. bf na maputi at matangkad.

jusme! bf nga wala. maputi at matangkad pa kaya? 😅

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sabi ko, ikaw yung hindi man lang nag-good bye, ni salitang bye wala. pero ako pala yun. ako pala yung nawala. kaya nung pagbalik ko, wala na. wala nang naghihintay.

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I was just chilling by myself, rocking some in-ear earbuds when this young foreign dude plopped down in front of me and blurted something out. I glanced up, and this guy’s bigger and taller compared to me, and it’s pretty obvious he’s younger. He kept yammering, and I think he fired off a question. So, I popped out one earbud and asked him to repeat himself. He tried to introduce himself, but I totally missed his name, and he just kept on gabbing. Honestly, I couldn’t make out a word he was saying, not ‘cause of the earbuds, but ‘cause I was freaked out. Weird thing is, he didn’t look menacing at all; in fact, he was a good-looking, fit guy. But still, I felt spooked, maybe ‘cause I saw him stroll in with his buddies and sit at a table close by (no clue why that rattled me). He went in for a handshake, and I just stared at his hand until he pulled it back. I think he asked for my name, so I’m like, “Why?” He muttered something again, but I couldn’t catch it. Then, he flashed an awkward smile and said he wouldn’t bother me ‘cause it was obvious I was terrified. Last thing I heard from him was ‘Sorry.’ When he finally left, I shut my eyes for who knows how long, and when I opened them, he had vanished. He’d been at my table for like 5 to 10 minutes, give or take.

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the ice rink and skating shoes gave me bruises and cuts (how many falls can you endure dude) and lazer tag made my voice hoarse . even that, today still a happy day. with bruises and all 😁

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thinking of going to taiwan just to buy chia te’s goodies. yaman yarn? 🤣

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i don’t get it. would you please enlighten me what’s wrong when someone says ‘usap tayo sa ig’? 🤷🏻‍♀️

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don’t waste your energy to reach someone’s hand when in the first place that hand isn’t open for you to grab a hold

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“She believes that everyone has a good side and everyone has a bad side, but the good side outweighs the bad.”

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sometimes we push ourselves in a way that we think is better, but somehow it is already the best

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be your own reason your smile never fades

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if people are being dismissive when you try to explain how your anxiety works, give up. either they could not understand what you’re saying or they don’t want to.

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me: (making kwento blah blah blah)

him: di siya maganda

me: huh? what?

him: (he emphasised) Hindi Siya Maganda!

me: maganda siya? matangos ilong, ganda ng teeth, morena

him: hindi pa rin siya maganda

me: tangina! buti na lang friend kita!

him: bakit?

me: kasi mapanlait kang gago ka

him: (tumawa lang)

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annoying boy: ang high maintenance mo naman, ayoko sa ganyan. ang selan mo pa.

(it was intended as a joke but it hit home big time)

me: sa mga bagay na napapansin mo, wala naman akong pake. di ko naman sinabing gusto kita.

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a friend joked: para kanino ka bumabangon?

me: rephrase the question

f: bakit ka bumabangon? (patanong na hindi sure ang tono)

me: because it is required

f: anong ibig sabihin nun?

me: kung di kailangan, di na ko gigising

f: gaga

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i went to church to confess. while confessing the priest kept on cutting me off that’s why i didn’t have the chance to say my full confession.

why it felt like talking to a psychiatrist is easier than to a priest?

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im not kind. might be righteous yeah, but not really kind. i always do things which i think is the right thing to do in general. or what i think is the most rational thing to do.

so when other people ‘compliment’ me and say, ‘ang bait mo naman’. i don’t appreciate it at all.